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1 | VLD_int_01 | 0.5519 | So | 1.0076 |
3 | | 1.4239 | tell me about- we'll start there. Tell me about, | 4.0995 |
5 | | 4.9761 | um, when you were younger | 6.7797 |
6 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 6.9383 | [Mm-hm.] | 7.4036 |
7 | VLD_int_01 | 6.9383 | [and] | 7.6601 |
8 | | 7.8559 | maybe the first house you remember growing up in. | 10.2993 |
9 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 10.4485 | <ts> | 10.7469 |
11 | | 10.8822 | Um, | 11.5257 |
13 | | 12.9376 | <ts> wow. | 13.6557 |
15 | | 14.1080 | Um, | 14.7581 |
17 | | 15.2597 | <ts> | 15.4323 |
19 | | 15.9956 | the first house I remember growing up in was, | 18.4343 |
21 | | 18.6814 | um, | 19.2782 |
23 | | 19.9208 | on Brookwood, | 21.0455 |
25 | | 21.4036 | but I remember | 22.9009 |
27 | | 23.2958 | going back and forth to Brookwood to West Magnolia | 25.9487 |
29 | | 26.2559 | all the time. | 27.5662 |
31 | | 28.0022 | And during that time, I believe my aunt was living on West Magnolia. | 31.2862 |
33 | | 31.7470 | Like, I have good and bad stories | 33.8719 |
34 | VLD_int_01 | 33.9339 | [<laugh>] | 34.8665 |
35 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 34.0411 | [<laugh>] | 34.3256 |
37 | | 34.5400 | [from West] Magnolia, oh my goodness. | 36.5218 |
38 | | 36.8426 | All the whoopings I used to get <laugh> | 39.1368 |
39 | VLD_int_01 | 38.7964 | [Mm-hm.] | 39.6963 |
40 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 39.2347 | [All the scabs.] | 40.7548 |
41 | | 40.9162 | So I- I can't say I had- | 42.5955 |
43 | | 43.2243 | it was- it was still fun growing up. | 44.9263 |
44 | VLD_int_01 | 45.0475 | Oh, I forgot [about Brookwood.] | 46.4510 |
45 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 45.5651 | [But-] | 46.0048 |
46 | | 46.8427 | yeah. | 47.4421 |
47 | VLD_int_01 | 47.7091 | Um, | 48.2896 |
49 | | 48.4412 | oh. | 48.7300 |
51 | | 48.9075 | Click your f- don't- yeah, if you- no, no. Keep it- | 50.9587 |
52 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 50.9676 | Oh. | 51.2893 |
54 | | 51.3872 | [Sorry, yeah. (whispered)] | 52.1210 |
55 | VLD_int_01 | 51.3872 | [But if you wanna] do 'em- that- yep, [cause it's on the cord, and your fingernail-] | 54.2945 |
56 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 53.0557 | [Yeah, I keep forgetting about that. <laugh>] | 55.7383 |
57 | VLD_int_01 | 54.8975 | [Yep, your fingernail.] | 55.9653 |
58 | | 56.4875 | Um, | 57.0869 |
60 | | 57.9135 | okay. So | 59.2377 |
62 | | 60.0211 | when you were- when you were born, | 61.5972 |
64 | | 63.0175 | y'all had still lived in- then y'all moved over to Brookwood, [right?] Or like, when you were younger. | 67.0883 |
65 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 65.5113 | [Mm-hmm.] | 65.9147 |
66 | | 67.2459 | <ts> | 67.3904 |
68 | | 67.5024 | From- at- | 68.1424 |
70 | | 68.2531 | probably. Some of that stuff I don't [remember.] | 70.4778 |
71 | VLD_int_01 | 69.7229 | [/Mm-hm/.] | 70.2022 |
72 | | 70.6358 | Okay, so what do you remember- | 71.9825 |
74 | | 72.0711 | tell me a story about, like, how you- | 73.7544 |
76 | | 73.8626 | whatchu do remember when you were growing up. So tell me either about- either the house you remember, or. | 77.8522 |
77 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 78.3595 | Um. <exhale> | 79.4087 |
79 | | 82.0563 | I can say Claudia Circle- | 83.9028 |
81 | | 84.1249 | I forgot about Claudia Circle, | 85.3949 |
83 | | 85.6561 | now that's where I actually | 87.3142 |
85 | | 87.7022 | remember | 88.7180 |
87 | | 88.8996 | growing up, having birthday parties, | 91.0399 |
89 | | 91.4642 | hanging out with friends, having sleepovers. | 94.2471 |
91 | | 94.5362 | On Claudia Circle. | 95.6739 |
93 | | 96.1868 | And | 96.9087 |
95 | | 97.6781 | I remember back then | 99.5760 |
97 | | 99.7055 | the neighborhood, it was pretty- | 101.2583 |
99 | | 102.1768 | I wouldn't say it was like ghetto, but | 104.1639 |
101 | | 104.6193 | it was a lot of black people that was living in that [neighborhood.] | 107.6875 |
102 | VLD_int_01 | 107.3991 | [Mm-hm.] | 107.7425 |
103 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 108.0177 | And everybody knew everybody in the neighborhood, like I remember next door- my cousins | 112.8149 |
105 | | 113.1497 | lived next door. Mind you, I didn't know they were my cousins until my mom told me later on. | 116.7448 |
107 | | 117.0983 | And then, um, | 118.4831 |
109 | | 119.4708 | my | 119.8671 |
111 | | 120.1376 | Godmother, | 121.0608 |
113 | | 121.2287 | she lived across the street from us, um, /RD-NAME-2/. | 123.6441 |
115 | | 124.2307 | And next door to her was | 125.9839 |
117 | | 126.8736 | her daughter, and the next door beside her was, I think, her cousins. | 131.0703 |
119 | | 131.4508 | So it was- the neighborhood was almost like a family | 134.2672 |
120 | VLD_int_01 | 134.4735 | Mm-hm. | 134.7699 |
121 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 134.7335 | type of situation. But other than that | 136.6499 |
122 | | 137.4837 | it's- | 138.1048 |
124 | | 138.2810 | <exhale> | 138.7800 |
126 | | 139.2836 | to it- well right now people say it was the ghetto, but | 141.4602 |
128 | | 141.6980 | growing up it wasn't the ghetto to me | 143.4411 |
130 | | 143.6556 | because that's how I- | 145.3796 |
132 | | 146.3600 | I didn't think it was ghetto at that time. | 148.2439 |
133 | VLD_int_01 | 148.4668 | Right. | 148.7932 |
134 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 148.8864 | You know. | 149.3201 |
136 | | 149.7164 | But | 150.0895 |
138 | | 150.2946 | looking back now, some people probably say, yeah it was kind of like that. | 154.1919 |
140 | | 154.6433 | But | 155.0956 |
142 | | 155.7810 | I felt like my life was | 157.2825 |
144 | | 157.6173 | pretty easy. My mom made sure | 159.8975 |
146 | | 160.4524 | that I was safe, so I think | 162.8948 |
148 | | 163.5756 | that wasn't ghetto to me, [<laugh>] so. | 166.2938 |
149 | VLD_int_01 | 164.9689 | [Right.] | 165.3878 |
150 | | 166.7455 | Let's see, so it was you- | 168.8997 |
152 | | 169.4257 | how many- wait, let me b- how man siblings do you have? | 171.4261 |
153 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 172.0174 | Um, I have [five.] | 173.5572 |
154 | VLD_int_01 | 173.3603 | [You have] five. [And] | 175.0467 |
155 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 174.0784 | [Mm-hm.] | 174.4701 |
156 | VLD_int_01 | 175.3644 | at that time it was | 177.2353 |
158 | | 178.1100 | you, | 179.1125 |
160 | | 179.5835 | /RD-NAME-2/ and Cedric [right?] | 181.0989 |
161 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 180.8285 | [Right.] | 181.3016 |
162 | | 181.4766 | Mm-hm. | 182.0921 |
163 | VLD_int_01 | 182.1247 | Before it- | 182.7517 |
165 | | 183.5078 | before y'all, and then | 184.6456 |
167 | | 184.7855 | /RD-NAME-3/ and /RD-NAME-3/- /RD-NAME-3/ came- /RD-NAME-3/ was Claudia Circle. | 188.4878 |
168 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 188.4878 | <ts> Right. | 189.0100 |
169 | | 189.1956 | [/RD-NAME-3/ and /RD-NAME-3/] is Claudia Circle, | 190.8557 |
170 | VLD_int_01 | 189.1956 | [Um.] | 189.8864 |
172 | | 190.5927 | [And yeah.] | 191.2287 |
173 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 190.9893 | [mm-hm.] | 191.6555 |
174 | VLD_int_01 | 191.7649 | Um, okay. | 192.7945 |
176 | | 192.9064 | So tell me how- cause you were the baby for a while, cause there's a gap between you and [/RD-NAME-3/] | 196.7863 |
177 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 196.5053 | [Mm-hm.] | 197.4106 |
178 | VLD_int_01 | 196.9783 | [so tell me] about being the baby. | 198.4217 |
179 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 199.6378 | [Um.] | 200.3354 |
180 | VLD_int_01 | 199.6378 | [Or when you] | 200.3179 |
181 | | 200.6268 | lost your | 201.2139 |
183 | | 201.3538 | position. | 201.8107 |
184 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 201.9506 | <laugh> | 203.7962 |
186 | | 204.3698 | Being the baby I can say it was a little hard, | 207.8078 |
188 | | 208.1878 | but | 208.6754 |
190 | | 209.2929 | it was still kind of fun because my older siblings, | 212.0011 |
192 | | 212.2716 | they protected me. | 213.2368 |
194 | | 213.6835 | But I can say it's this one story, like, we was riding our bicycles around the neighborhood | 218.3688 |
196 | | 218.8817 | and I had a tricycle | 220.2806 |
198 | | 220.4112 | because, like, I didn't know how to ride a bicycle. | 222.1076 |
200 | | 222.4480 | And this | 222.9282 |
202 | | 223.0588 | dog literally chased us | 225.3750 |
204 | | 225.8416 | <laugh> | 226.5784 |
206 | | 226.7136 | and my brother and sister, they left me and it was- I was like, wait for me and they up there laughing. But | 231.8279 |
208 | | 232.0042 | that's one of the stories I- I was talking to my mom about it yesterday, | 234.6993 |
210 | | 235.1134 | but, like, little situations like that. | 237.3843 |
212 | | 237.7937 | it was funny at- it was | 239.2798 |
214 | | 239.4490 | funny now, but at the time it wasn't. | 241.0764 |
216 | | 241.5800 | But, um, | 242.4146 |
218 | | 243.0656 | <ts> | 243.1589 |
220 | | 243.2475 | being the baby, it was- it was okay. | 245.3225 |
222 | | 245.8027 | But I felt lonely though at the same time, because | 248.6791 |
224 | | 249.0099 | there's like, a nine year age difference between me and my older sister. | 253.0480 |
226 | | 253.5171 | So it was like | 255.1570 |
228 | | 256.6646 | basically I guess she can- I- I guess you could say like, she was upset that I was the baby, | 261.2846 |
230 | | 261.6203 | because | 262.6101 |
232 | | 263.1582 | like | 263.5685 |
234 | | 264.4125 | it was just only me and my bro- like | 265.9581 |
236 | | 266.3933 | I don't know. | 267.1068 |
238 | | 267.4052 | But | 267.9359 |
240 | | 268.6921 | I don't know. | 269.4056 |
241 | VLD_int_01 | 269.6518 | [Yeah.] | 270.0770 |
242 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 269.8383 | [It- it was-] it's- | 270.6670 |
243 | | 271.0833 | it's like a- <sigh> | 272.4346 |
245 | | 272.5745 | a good and bad situation, I guess. I don't know. | 275.2231 |
246 | VLD_int_01 | 276.3832 | Then what is, um, | 277.9201 |
248 | | 278.1178 | so then how- what's the difference between you and /RD-NAME-3/? | 280.4166 |
249 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 282.3406 | I can say when /RD-NAME-3/ was born, like, I can say I- | 285.7118 |
251 | | 286.2519 | I met my best friend. Like I tell my little sister | 289.3517 |
253 | | 289.5803 | any and everything that's going on in my situ- | 291.8791 |
255 | | 292.1029 | in my life. And | 293.4225 |
257 | | 294.3495 | I had my moments where it's like- I was like, she's here and | 297.5114 |
259 | | 297.7034 | why she's here, I was the baby. But, | 299.8741 |
261 | | 300.2369 | I still can say | 301.4726 |
263 | | 301.7384 | I didn't feel lonely anymore. | 303.2305 |
265 | | 303.8778 | And I felt like I could- I could connect with someone because me and her, we're only like | 307.1907 |
267 | | 307.6538 | four or five years apart, | 308.7542 |
268 | VLD_int_01 | 308.8149 | Mm-hm. | 309.2154 |
269 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 309.3278 | so. | 309.8967 |
271 | | 310.1484 | <ts> Um, | 310.9176 |
273 | | 311.6770 | even though she was a little mean little girl, but | 313.7015 |
275 | | 314.0215 | I can say | 314.9774 |
277 | | 315.1080 | when she came along | 316.2312 |
279 | | 316.8696 | there was some positive things that started to happen. | 319.4062 |
281 | | 320.0908 | And then /RD-NAME-3/ came along and, | 321.9326 |
283 | | 322.2451 | oh, I get two. | 323.0442 |
285 | | 323.4108 | Good. | 323.8853 |
287 | | 324.3410 | Great. | 324.8283 |
289 | | 325.1398 | <laugh> | 326.0677 |
290 | VLD_int_01 | 326.1656 | How- how far is their age difference? | 327.8070 |
291 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 327.8070 | They're a year apart. | 328.7302 |
292 | VLD_int_01 | 328.9671 | Ah, okay. I - I didn't know if it was a year or two. | 331.2893 |
293 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 331.5644 | Yeah. | 332.1376 |
294 | VLD_int_01 | 332.9763 | Um, | 333.6129 |
296 | | 333.7434 | okay. So where'd you- | 336.8564 |
298 | | 338.1317 | did you play outside a lot | 339.2788 |
300 | | 339.4047 | or were you [/inaudible/?] | 341.2838 |
301 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 340.0901 | [Oh my goodness] yes, I was outside all the time. And that's one thing I can say the difference between | 346.9521 |
302 | | 347.1246 | growing up in the nineties, and the kids | 348.9571 |
304 | | 349.3199 | that were growing up in the nineties with me, | 351.0222 |
306 | | 351.2774 | compared to the kids now. | 352.5705 |
308 | | 352.8442 | There are so many kids that's inside instead of going outside, like- | 356.1269 |
310 | | 357.8232 | like, what are you doing? | 358.7637 |
312 | | 359.0067 | But | 359.3378 |
314 | | 359.4077 | being outside back then, I can say I was smaller. | 362.1597 |
316 | | 362.4619 | <laugh> I was (laughing) heavier. | 365.1282 |
318 | | 365.7623 | But | 366.3008 |
320 | | 368.3904 | Mm-mm. | 368.9453 |
322 | | 369.0898 | I don't- I don't understand why kids are indoors | 371.1013 |
324 | | 371.4353 | all the time now, but. | 372.6384 |
325 | VLD_int_01 | 372.7549 | Electronics. | 373.7854 |
326 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 373.8031 | Right. | 374.3627 |
328 | | 374.6005 | But still. | 375.7020 |
330 | | 377.0718 | I don't know. | 377.6873 |
331 | VLD_int_01 | 379.3782 | So let's talk about school a little bit. [Where'd you-] where'd you go to school? | 382.3343 |
332 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 380.9122 | [Mm-hm.] | 381.3331 |
333 | | 382.8837 | I went to school at /RD-SCHOOL-3/ High [School.] | 384.8422 |
334 | VLD_int_01 | 384.4178 | [Let's go] back, we're going back to- let's go to [kid school.] | 386.5861 |
335 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 386.0592 | [Okay-] baby school, [okay.] | 387.5513 |
336 | VLD_int_01 | 387.2995 | [so.] | 388.0083 |
337 | | 388.4410 | And, [so-] | 389.3689 |
338 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 389.0938 | [Ooh.] | 389.7483 |
339 | | 391.0420 | /RD-SCHOOL-5/ | 391.9699 |
340 | VLD_int_01 | 392.1331 | Okay cause you- that's when you were over on that [side, okay.] | 394.6464 |
341 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 394.0496 | [Right.] | 394.8594 |
342 | | 395.0512 | Um, /RD-SCHOOL-5/. Um, | 397.2288 |
344 | | 397.6065 | growing up there it was- | 399.0476 |
346 | | 400.4723 | it was- it was okay. | 401.8713 |
348 | | 402.4261 | Um, | 403.0327 |
350 | | 404.7053 | I don't know. Throughout school I had bad experiences, but lemme just think- talk about the positives. | 409.4000 |
352 | | 409.8849 | Um, | 410.6178 |
354 | | 412.4952 | It was- it was okay. | 414.1412 |
356 | | 415.1102 | Um, | 415.6231 |
358 | | 415.9076 | I remember my first teacher, | 417.5349 |
360 | | 417.8054 | my first kindergarten teacher, Miss /RD-NAME-1/. | 419.7265 |
362 | | 420.1732 | She- | 421.3705 |
364 | | 421.5721 | she was pretty good. | 422.7005 |
366 | | 423.0680 | Um, | 423.5685 |
368 | | 425.0497 | and we had a para-pro, her name was Miss /RD-NAME-1/, she was a black woman. | 428.1869 |
370 | | 428.6850 | And even though Miss /RD-NAME-1/, she had her moments where | 431.7345 |
372 | | 432.5636 | she would show her favoritism to the | 434.9184 |
374 | | 435.2299 | white kids, Miss /RD-NAME-1/ will be there to balance it out. | 438.3529 |
375 | VLD_int_01 | 438.4706 | [Hm.] | 438.8156 |
376 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 438.6431 | [And] like, she would show her | 440.0793 |
377 | | 440.5726 | affection to the black kids and the white kids. | 443.0499 |
379 | | 443.5467 | But, um, | 444.2147 |
381 | | 446.0693 | <ts> what else? | 447.0905 |
382 | VLD_int_01 | 448.4316 | When you say you had bad experiences, was it like, just the way the kids | 451.4998 |
384 | | 451.6396 | treated you? Was it [the-] | 453.0712 |
385 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 452.7168 | [I-] it was both, the kids and some of the teachers. Um, mind you during that time /RD-SCHOOL-5/, it was | 458.7581 |
386 | | 459.1311 | majority of white kids that was going to the school, at the time. Of course there was black kids, but | 463.8677 |
388 | | 464.2865 | I remember from growing up there was a l- there was more white kids that was going. | 467.7976 |
390 | | 468.2863 | But, um, | 469.1072 |
392 | | 469.7412 | I do remember being made fun of all the time, cause I was always taller | 473.5312 |
394 | | 473.8156 | than all of my classmates. And I always got made | 476.0622 |
396 | | 476.2394 | fun of because of that. | 477.4471 |
398 | | 477.9591 | But it- | 478.4907 |
400 | | 478.9570 | in middle school it helped. <laugh> | 481.2687 |
402 | | 481.8005 | But, um, I can say out of all of the- the teachers when I went to /RD-SCHOOL-5/, Miss /RD-NAME-1/ was my favorite teacher. She was hard | 488.1831 |
404 | | 488.5925 | but | 489.1396 |
406 | | 489.2873 | she wanted the best for her kids. | 491.9111 |
408 | | 492.3545 | And I can say she was | 494.0145 |
410 | | 494.3083 | one of my favorite teachers. | 495.7479 |
412 | | 496.3442 | She was very strict and she | 498.6057 |
414 | | 499.0626 | wanted me to | 499.9842 |
416 | | 500.5128 | get stuff down, but | 501.9723 |
418 | | 502.5729 | it was worth it. I wish all the teachers was like that, honestly, | 505.6970 |
420 | | 506.0505 | at /RD-SCHOOL-5/ because | 507.5598 |
422 | | 510.2835 | teachers aren't like that anymore. | 511.8036 |
424 | | 512.0872 | Or at the time. | 512.9260 |
425 | VLD_int_01 | 512.9545 | Was /RD-SCHOOL-2/ built when you were | 514.7264 |
426 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 514.8756 | [<ts} | 515.0192 |
427 | VLD_int_01 | 514.8756 | [was it /RD-SCHOOL-2/-] did you go to /RD-SCHOOL-2/ or [/RD-SCHOOL-3/?] | 516.8611 |
428 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 515.2011 | [Yeah.] | 515.6207 |
430 | | 516.3435 | [I went to /RD-SCHOOL-6/] because, um | 518.7169 |
431 | | 519.0144 | after I went- left /RD-SCHOOL-2/, | 520.6977 |
433 | | 520.9728 | we moved to the Dellwood subdivision. | 522.9686 |
434 | VLD_int_01 | 523.1495 | Okay, [oh let's go back-] I didn't even know you went to [/RD-SCHOOL-2/.] | 525.4297 |
435 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 523.5459 | [And-] | 524.0728 |
437 | | 525.2012 | [Yes.] | 526.1664 |
438 | VLD_int_01 | 525.7971 | [So tell me] about- cause that's a very different kind of | 527.7416 |
439 | | 527.8675 | environment. | 528.5452 |
440 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 528.5452 | Right, um, /RD-SCHOOL-2/ was (laughing) horrible. | 531.8185 |
441 | | 532.3140 | /RD-SCHOOL-2/, it was- <sigh> | 534.5756 |
443 | | 537.1579 | the teachers | 538.0678 |
445 | | 538.3143 | were good, | 539.0863 |
447 | | 539.4287 | um, but I had a horrible experience at /RD-SCHOOL-2/. | 542.7292 |
449 | | 543.1339 | I had- that's when I first experienced having | 545.6612 |
451 | | 545.8850 | panic attacks. | 546.9764 |
452 | VLD_int_01 | 547.2131 | Hm. | 547.5534 |
453 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 547.6094 | When I, um, | 548.5140 |
455 | | 548.8544 | went to /RD-SCHOOL-2/ and- | 550.4725 |
457 | | 552.0662 | sorry. | 552.6859 |
458 | VLD_int_01 | 553.0827 | Okay. | 553.5055 |
459 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 553.7169 | Because | 554.5688 |
461 | | 554.7969 | I had some | 555.5316 |
463 | | 556.1314 | bad things happen to me then. | 557.7930 |
465 | | 558.6904 | But, um, | 559.4334 |
467 | | 564.5172 | I'm sorry just give me one [second.] | 566.4067 |
468 | VLD_int_01 | 566.0466 | [Take-] | 566.3422 |
469 | | 566.6636 | take your time. | 567.4067 |
470 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 570.6238 | It's just- kids are just so mean, you know, | 573.1744 |
472 | | 573.4822 | and then when you have teachers | 575.4051 |
474 | | 576.4189 | that | 576.8934 |
476 | | 578.6981 | wouldn't believe you when certain things happen, like they will be on the b- | 582.2792 |
478 | | 582.4275 | the bad kids' side, | 583.6679 |
480 | | 584.1108 | it kind of makes you feel | 585.4866 |
482 | | 585.6254 | vulnerable. And it's like, | 586.8110 |
484 | | 587.2621 | you're my teacher, like, can you help me out, you're my principal, you should help me out. | 590.8376 |
486 | | 590.9495 | But when you're not helping me out it's like, what else can I do? | 593.8290 |
488 | | 594.1847 | But I turn to my mom and I just thank God for my mom so much, because | 598.1146 |
490 | | 598.3048 | if she didn't come out to that school | 599.8022 |
492 | | 600.8601 | Lord knows what would've happened to me, you know. | 603.5028 |
494 | | 603.9834 | But, um- | 604.9368 |
496 | | 606.2533 | and then when I got into fifth grade, I, um, | 608.3916 |
498 | | 609.5593 | I had a teacher named Miss /RD-NAME-3/ it was- <inhale> | 612.0484 |
500 | | 612.4354 | and | 613.0649 |
502 | | 613.4743 | she's the first teacher to ever taught me how to appreciate being black. | 616.9148 |
504 | | 617.1058 | Because every morning, | 618.7238 |
506 | | 619.6844 | we would get up | 620.4025 |
508 | | 620.6627 | after the /Peldge-/ Pledge of Allegiance, we would always sing Lift Every Voice and Sing. | 624.3324 |
510 | | 624.7278 | And that (crying) right there, | 626.0993 |
512 | | 627.0164 | to this day I appreciate her. (crying) | 628.9430 |
514 | | 632.1578 | <inhale> Because growing up being black and dark-skinned, I just | 636.0326 |
516 | | 636.4989 | felt like I wasn't good enough, but- | 638.9922 |
518 | | 640.8523 | <ts> I still have my moments today, but | 642.8806 |
520 | | 644.7131 | she really opened my eyes and | 647.0714 |
522 | | 648.5536 | made me feel like, okay you can be black and you can still be Maya Angelou. You can Martin Luther King. You can be Rosa Parks. | 654.8476 |
524 | | 655.4762 | You can be Thurgood Marshall. | 657.0029 |
526 | | 657.4719 | And be black and be great, | 659.2074 |
528 | | 659.3408 | you know. And | 660.2232 |
530 | | 660.8842 | I can say that was the one experience that | 663.1815 |
532 | | 663.5505 | was so positive out of my entire experience at /RD-SCHOOL-2/, was being in her class | 668.7347 |
534 | | 669.4333 | and appreciating | 670.8252 |
536 | | 671.0233 | being black, | 672.0066 |
538 | | 672.3616 | you know. | 672.8278 |
540 | | 674.0579 | <ts> And then after that | 674.9626 |
542 | | 675.1071 | <laugh> I left /RD-SCHOOL-2/ and | 677.2474 |
544 | | 677.7165 | went to /RD-SCHOOL-6/. And /RD-SCHOOL-6/ | 680.5096 |
546 | | 681.5121 | <exhale> um, was an amazing experience for me because I experienced | 686.0249 |
548 | | 686.4679 | being around | 687.4059 |
550 | | 687.6420 | other kids besides | 689.0586 |
552 | | 689.1752 | black kids. | 690.0154 |
554 | | 690.4202 | I got experience being around Asian kids, um, | 693.0221 |
556 | | 693.9025 | <ts> Latinos, and | 695.2174 |
558 | | 695.6977 | it was- | 696.4190 |
560 | | 697.0639 | it was different for me. | 698.3759 |
562 | | 698.8396 | And I really enjoyed | 700.3588 |
564 | | 700.4754 | that environment. Not only that | 701.9339 |
566 | | 702.3032 | but I've also experienced my- I also learned my talents, like | 705.6736 |
568 | | 706.0932 | I didn't know I could be that good at music | 707.9071 |
570 | | 708.0414 | until I got in middle school. Um, | 709.8816 |
572 | | 710.5314 | I didn't think that I was | 711.9870 |
574 | | 712.9217 | so knowledgable about history until I go in middle school. | 716.1437 |
576 | | 716.3163 | So I can say | 717.7291 |
578 | | 718.3670 | transitioning from /RD-SCHOOL-2/ to /RD-SCHOOL-6/ | 721.4958 |
580 | | 721.8073 | it was a | 722.7959 |
582 | | 723.3041 | huge jump for me. | 724.7496 |
584 | | 725.1591 | And I got to experience, um, | 727.0149 |
586 | | 727.2341 | going out of town, even though that was kind of hard for my mom. You know how my mom [is,] | 730.4552 |
587 | VLD_int_01 | 730.3293 | [I] do. <laugh> | 731.0754 |
588 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 731.1127 | so. <laugh> | 732.3869 |
590 | | 732.9723 | But I can say, um, | 734.8168 |
592 | | 737.0916 | the difference between the schools | 738.8513 |
594 | | 741.5176 | it was a amazing jump. | 742.9770 |
596 | | 743.5255 | But it's- it's kind of sad though, because some of those kids that went to, | 747.0739 |
598 | | 747.6241 | um, /RD-SCHOOL-4/, they didn't experience some of the things I experienced at /RD-SCHOOL-2/- at /RD-SCHOOL-6/ because | 752.9865 |
600 | | 754.4246 | of the, | 755.0634 |
602 | | 755.2919 | you know, like the different sides of towns and | 758.0827 |
604 | | 759.4232 | they uplift one school then they do the other school, | 762.5232 |
606 | | 762.7656 | so. | 763.3316 |
607 | VLD_int_01 | 764.0703 | [Yeah.] | 764.4752 |
608 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 764.3734 | [<ts>] That's a disadvantage of being in this town, | 766.3878 |
609 | | 767.4360 | but | 767.7422 |
611 | | 767.9070 | other than that- | 768.7023 |
613 | | 769.1427 | oh. | 769.4953 |
615 | | 770.6525 | /RD-SCHOOL-5/ | 771.8426 |
617 | | 772.4058 | /RD-SCHOOL-5/ was a little different for me because <exhale> | 775.7153 |
619 | | 776.9652 | <ts> | 777.1994 |
621 | | 778.0507 | I don't know. I- | 779.1139 |
623 | | 779.7145 | I was just going with the flow when I was in high school. | 782.0739 |
625 | | 782.4796 | It was like, look I'm just trying to get to college, I don't care about y'all. | 786.5587 |
627 | | 787.0064 | I was in marching band, I was in Key Club, um, | 790.1109 |
629 | | 791.0007 | <ts> | 791.2212 |
631 | | 791.8680 | I did a lot of things when I was in | 793.4580 |
633 | | 793.7191 | high school, but | 794.7590 |
635 | | 795.1544 | um, | 795.6953 |
637 | | 796.3714 | as far as socializing, I really stayed to myself | 799.9676 |
639 | | 800.3704 | a lot. | 800.8460 |
641 | | 801.2097 | I had a couple of friends but they were upperclassmen, | 803.5598 |
643 | | 803.8396 | and so every time | 804.6835 |
645 | | 804.9251 | an upperclassmen friend would graduate, I would be by myself. | 807.5664 |
647 | | 808.1929 | So it was kind of hard by the time I got to my junior and senior year, I probably only had like, one or two friends | 813.1720 |
649 | | 813.6103 | at the time- excuse me. And | 815.1164 |
651 | | 815.4885 | my other friends were probably like, in band | 817.8169 |
653 | | 818.2807 | but | 818.7237 |
655 | | 818.8636 | band friends are totally different from, | 820.5422 |
657 | | 821.2361 | you know, friends outside of your | 822.6946 |
659 | | 823.6868 | extracurricular activities. | 825.0945 |
661 | | 825.2368 | But, um, | 825.8609 |
663 | | 826.7374 | after high school I went to, um, | 828.5515 |
665 | | 828.7937 | college. | 829.6659 |
667 | | 830.1815 | Actually I forgot to tell you, my mom wanted me to go to /RD-SCHOOL-2/ | 834.2428 |
669 | | 834.6252 | and to become a phlebotomist, | 836.0893 |
671 | | 836.4801 | but I didn't wanna do that. | 837.4640 |
673 | | 838.0469 | I wanted to go to UGA | 839.6070 |
675 | | 840.0463 | and be in the band, | 841.5105 |
677 | | 842.1586 | um, I got accepted into UGA and I had a scholarship at UGA. | 845.8321 |
679 | | 846.5819 | Um, I auditioned at /RD-SCHOOL-8/ | 849.1665 |
681 | | 849.3890 | and | 850.0522 |
683 | | 850.5025 | I had a partial | 851.4071 |
685 | | 851.5423 | at /RD-SCHOOL-8/, | 852.9086 |
687 | | 853.3879 | but my mom didn't want me to do that. She wanted me to do phlebotomy because | 857.0175 |
689 | | 857.4158 | I can get a good job with that. But I didn't wanna do it so | 860.1389 |
691 | | 860.6229 | I went to /RD-SCHOOL-2/ | 862.0931 |
693 | | 862.2689 | for- | 862.9264 |
695 | | 865.4155 | <ts> | 865.7233 |
697 | | 866.4600 | I guess for one semester and I quit, | 868.5338 |
699 | | 868.6600 | <laugh> because I didn't wanna do it. | 870.3200 |
701 | | 870.5709 | I was goofing off and | 872.6258 |
703 | | 873.2940 | I said, | 873.8489 |
705 | | 873.9748 | bump it, forget it. | 875.2104 |
707 | | 875.7225 | And after I left /RD-SCHOOL-2/, um, | 877.8898 |
709 | | 878.1060 | I started working | 879.3932 |
711 | | 880.1093 | for a couple of years and after that, I decided to go back to school and, um, | 884.2677 |
713 | | 885.3440 | go to /RD-SCHOOL-9/ and study sociology and anthropology. And | 889.2086 |
715 | | 889.7775 | that right there, | 890.6354 |
717 | | 890.8639 | that was so amazing. | 892.6446 |
719 | | 893.2318 | And honestly I can't wait til I go back, but | 895.3161 |
721 | | 896.1685 | <ts> right now I don't wanna | 897.2105 |
723 | | 897.7026 | go back right now, because I feel like God is pushing me to do something else, | 900.9517 |
725 | | 901.4507 | at the moment. | 902.1921 |
727 | | 902.4345 | But, um, | 903.1950 |
729 | | 904.8201 | other than that, | 905.6548 |
731 | | 906.4755 | school, | 907.2671 |
733 | | 907.4407 | it was- school was okay growing up. | 909.4923 |
735 | | 910.3401 | But, um, | 911.2283 |
737 | | 912.0654 | I think | 912.7300 |
739 | | 914.4938 | My experiences changed | 916.5430 |
741 | | 917.2953 | when my environment changed. | 919.3010 |
742 | VLD_int_01 | 919.6399 | [Hm.] | 920.0222 |
743 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 919.9056 | [Like,] compared to, um, | 921.3076 |
744 | | 921.7335 | living on Claudia Circle, | 923.2116 |
746 | | 924.0081 | being on that side of town, moving on the good side of town, | 927.5519 |
748 | | 927.9333 | that's when | 928.7954 |
750 | | 930.0317 | my school | 930.9083 |
752 | | 931.6572 | changed and the | 932.8458 |
754 | | 933.8627 | surroundings of the school changed | 935.6376 |
756 | | 936.2128 | to a positive. | 937.2200 |
758 | | 937.6723 | But, | 938.0500 |
760 | | 938.9808 | I wish all the schools | 940.6773 |
762 | | 941.2749 | in the city would | 942.5293 |
764 | | 943.0981 | be on the same level I [guess.] | 945.1256 |
765 | VLD_int_01 | 944.9464 | [Mm.] | 945.3388 |
766 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 945.4660 | And have the same type of | 947.1407 |
768 | | 947.6100 | environment where kids shouldn't have to- | 950.2166 |
770 | | 951.8803 | I don't know. I just wish all the schools was positive instead of | 954.2584 |
772 | | 954.5140 | being negative. | 955.7040 |
774 | | 956.3884 | I don't- I don't know how to describe it but, | 958.3049 |
776 | | 959.1013 | That's the only way how I can | 960.1898 |
778 | | 960.8779 | say it, | 961.4366 |
780 | | 961.9495 | but. | 962.3507 |
781 | VLD_int_01 | 962.7731 | So, <clears throat> | 964.0400 |
783 | | 965.4224 | what do you think- how do you think you could /make/- | 968.6101 |
785 | | 968.9094 | cause you just said something about the- the schools and being different and | 971.3772 |
787 | | 971.6465 | the [different sides] of town. | 972.8262 |
788 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 971.7620 | [Mm-hm] | 972.1085 |
789 | VLD_int_01 | 973.5574 | How do you think we could make that better? | 975.3604 |
791 | | 976.5267 | Or has it changed even now or is it still the same? | 979.3804 |
792 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 979.4448 | Um, it's still the same a little bit because, | 982.5345 |
794 | | 983.0903 | um, | 983.6312 |
796 | | 984.2001 | like I said, I used to track at /RD-WORK-3/, | 986.5548 |
798 | | 987.0249 | and | 987.6497 |
800 | | 988.4331 | talking to the kids, | 989.8350 |
802 | | 990.0175 | um, | 990.5764 |
804 | | 991.0154 | from the two different school districts | 992.8832 |
806 | | 993.8542 | there's a little bit of change, but it's still almost the same. | 997.5650 |
808 | | 998.1665 | Um, | 998.7209 |
810 | | 998.8892 | like I had to track this one kid, he was going to /RD-SCHOOL-4/, | 1001.8726 |
812 | | 1002.3109 | and he was telling me that his teachers really don't care | 1005.7932 |
814 | | 1006.4124 | if he passes or fail this- fail his class. And I had to talk to this one girl | 1010.4692 |
816 | | 1011.0138 | that was going to /RD-SCHOOL-6/, | 1012.3567 |
818 | | 1012.6598 | and her teachers were pushing her like, look you gotta get your stuff together | 1016.2167 |
820 | | 1016.4965 | or you're gonna stay back. | 1017.4430 |
822 | | 1017.8292 | <ts> | 1017.9540 |
824 | | 1018.3234 | And I feel like in order | 1020.4118 |
826 | | 1020.5989 | for us to change this, I think the parents | 1022.8409 |
828 | | 1023.3258 | and community leaders need to actually step up | 1025.5724 |
830 | | 1025.9967 | and talk to the board like, look we need to get this together and | 1029.4324 |
832 | | 1029.7355 | we need to help our kids out. But when you have people in office | 1032.8634 |
834 | | 1033.2084 | that wanna be in office just to have power and to collect a check, | 1036.2151 |
836 | | 1036.6534 | that's when it becomes a problem. | 1038.5139 |
838 | | 1039.4129 | That's just my opinion, | 1040.9125 |
840 | | 1041.1149 | but | 1041.4553 |
842 | | 1042.6947 | <ts> I just- | 1043.4688 |
844 | | 1043.7112 | I think honestly it starts with the parents as well. | 1045.9961 |
846 | | 1046.6797 | But | 1047.0468 |
848 | | 1047.2206 | the problem is there's too many parents that's just | 1049.7806 |
850 | | 1050.5965 | out working and going with the flow, and not paying attention to their kids | 1054.5964 |
852 | | 1054.9321 | as well, | 1055.7155 |
854 | | 1056.3954 | so. | 1056.8293 |
856 | | 1057.4585 | But there's a little change, but it's- it's not- | 1059.9252 |
858 | | 1062.3294 | it's not happening fast enough. | 1064.0967 |
860 | | 1064.3485 | Like it's- it's | 1065.0871 |
862 | | 1065.2717 | taking too long, | 1066.3255 |
864 | | 1066.6333 | to be honest. | 1067.4764 |
865 | VLD_int_01 | 1068.3110 | <ts> Do you think it's about race? Is it about money? | 1071.3363 |
867 | | 1071.5228 | I mean, I know it's sides of town, and we know the [sides of town] are- | 1073.9140 |
868 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1073.0281 | [Mm-hm.] | 1073.5520 |
869 | VLD_int_01 | 1074.0446 | but do you think it's more about race or more about money? | 1076.1755 |
870 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1076.4879 | <ts> | 1076.5625 |
872 | | 1076.6698 | Um, | 1077.3217 |
874 | | 1079.8154 | honestly I think it's | 1081.1390 |
876 | | 1081.3542 | a little bit of both, | 1083.0416 |
877 | VLD_int_01 | 1082.8871 | Mm-hm. | 1083.2753 |
878 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1084.0578 | because- | 1085.0490 |
880 | | 1085.4613 | and you have to realize we live in a football town, | 1087.8338 |
882 | | 1088.3654 | so- and that plays a part too. That football brings in the money, | 1092.0761 |
884 | | 1092.7942 | because you have people from California come to the Winnersville Classic and | 1096.1208 |
886 | | 1096.4910 | check these kids out on the field. | 1098.1967 |
888 | | 1098.6350 | But I honestly think it's a little bit of both because | 1101.5027 |
890 | | 1102.2992 | just seeing how- | 1104.0291 |
892 | | 1107.0218 | going to/RD-SCHOOL-5/, just seeing how | 1109.2544 |
894 | | 1109.6974 | teachers will pass along athletes before they'll pass along | 1113.1284 |
896 | | 1113.5853 | a regular-degular student, | 1115.1237 |
898 | | 1115.3517 | you know, who is trying their best | 1117.3194 |
900 | | 1117.6272 | to do what they have to do. | 1118.7170 |
902 | | 1119.6266 | You know, they'll give this football player an A and he /have any-/ did any work to | 1123.8876 |
904 | | 1124.1627 | receive that A, when you have this one student | 1126.1389 |
906 | | 1126.4979 | who's busting their behind | 1127.7616 |
908 | | 1128.0367 | and then you give them a C. | 1129.5852 |
910 | | 1130.5258 | It's like, | 1131.3298 |
912 | | 1131.8500 | come on, like, can we | 1132.9820 |
914 | | 1133.6024 | find some balance here but | 1135.1509 |
916 | | 1136.2360 | you can't fault that teacher, | 1137.5976 |
918 | | 1138.0079 | because, you know, you have the coaches and | 1140.3897 |
920 | | 1141.0426 | people on the Touch Down Club is telling them like, look, you need to pass so and so or you'll get fired. | 1145.6952 |
922 | | 1146.1047 | So I- I think it's a- it's- | 1148.0537 |
924 | | 1149.0749 | it's a little bit of both. | 1150.2631 |
925 | VLD_int_01 | 1150.2631 | It's a little bit of both. | 1151.0977 |
926 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1151.0977 | [Mm-hm.] | 1151.6619 |
927 | VLD_int_01 | 1151.5873 | [Tell] me about | 1152.3913 |
928 | | 1152.7950 | <clears throat> couple of things. | 1154.2349 |
930 | | 1154.3655 | Tell me about when you discovered music. | 1156.4312 |
932 | | 1157.8011 | When you [discovered] | 1158.6871 |
933 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1158.3700 | [<exhale>] | 1158.9404 |
934 | VLD_int_01 | 1159.1907 | you were good at it. | 1160.2690 |
935 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1160.4814 | Um, I discovered music when I was in the fourth grade. | 1164.2910 |
937 | | 1164.9616 | And, um, | 1166.3910 |
939 | | 1168.4662 | my mom and dad bought me a keyboard from Toys R Us. | 1171.9774 |
941 | | 1172.4950 | And | 1173.1437 |
943 | | 1173.8612 | I don't know why they bought it, but | 1175.2685 |
945 | | 1175.5623 | I- I just started toying with it a little bit | 1178.0010 |
947 | | 1178.4617 | and I taught myself how to play, um, | 1181.1697 |
949 | | 1182.6751 | <ts> I forgot the name of this song, it's from Beethoven. | 1185.7666 |
951 | | 1186.3215 | But, um, | 1187.0629 |
953 | | 1188.0785 | I wasn't | 1188.7037 |
955 | | 1188.9318 | serious about it, it was just something that | 1191.0068 |
957 | | 1191.1665 | just | 1191.7622 |
959 | | 1192.7583 | came at me naturally. | 1194.2835 |
961 | | 1194.8799 | And <exhale> I went to the fifth grade, and we went to | 1198.1905 |
963 | | 1199.6398 | <ts> I think the Music Hall of Fame. | 1201.1447 |
965 | | 1201.7652 | I think it's in Macon, Georgia. I'm not sure, I forgot. | 1204.0780 |
967 | | 1204.5853 | And | 1205.3687 |
969 | | 1205.5506 | I got behind this piano, it was this beautiful grand piano, | 1208.5301 |
971 | | 1208.8939 | and I started playing the song, and all the kids was like, | 1211.3261 |
973 | | 1211.6152 | oh my God, /RD-NAME-3/ is playing the piano. | 1213.8021 |
975 | | 1214.1975 | And I'm like, | 1214.9343 |
977 | | 1215.1721 | I'm just tapping on some keys, you know. | 1217.4860 |
979 | | 1217.8570 | And that's when I realized maybe | 1219.9163 |
981 | | 1220.1418 | I can do this. | 1221.0884 |
983 | | 1221.2376 | But, | 1221.6526 |
985 | | 1222.0816 | um, | 1222.5866 |
987 | | 1222.9293 | when I got to middle school, that's when I really knew | 1225.3447 |
989 | | 1225.8110 | I had a gift, because, | 1227.2742 |
991 | | 1227.7498 | um, | 1228.3028 |
993 | | 1230.7239 | I started playing the clarinet at the time and I didn't know anything about the notes, | 1235.1341 |
995 | | 1235.8149 | and I just started playing a song. And my band director came up to me and he was like, what are you playing? | 1240.7333 |
997 | | 1241.2071 | I said, I don't know. | 1242.0697 |
999 | | 1242.1583 | He was like, that sounds really good. | 1243.8434 |
1001 | | 1243.9442 | (laughing) And I'm like, | 1244.7163 |
1003 | | 1245.2498 | thank you. <laugh> | 1246.5601 |
1005 | | 1247.0217 | But | 1247.4405 |
1007 | | 1247.5850 | he was like, | 1248.2612 |
1009 | | 1248.4570 | do you know the notes that you're playing? I said, no sir. And he was like, | 1252.0512 |
1011 | | 1252.3916 | You have a talent but you gotta learn the notes sweetheart, before you get to do (laughing) anything. | 1257.2354 |
1012 | VLD_int_01 | 1257.2867 | Is this Mr. /RD-NAME-2/? | 1258.2852 |
1013 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1258.4329 | Um, Mr. /RD-NAME-2/, | 1259.6998 |
1014 | VLD_int_01 | 1259.7991 | [Mr. Mi- okay.] | 1260.4577 |
1015 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1260.1013 | [at the] time. | 1260.7448 |
1016 | | 1260.9779 | But, um- | 1261.7384 |
1018 | | 1262.5726 | but yeah, that's when I really found out that I had | 1264.9507 |
1020 | | 1265.0888 | a gift | 1265.7696 |
1022 | | 1266.6462 | When it come down to music. And my mom | 1268.1735 |
1024 | | 1268.3295 | heard about that she was like, I'm putting you in piano lessons, | 1270.6983 |
1026 | | 1271.5274 | so. | 1271.9517 |
1028 | | 1272.2688 | Yeah. | 1272.6465 |
1029 | VLD_int_01 | 1272.6838 | What'd you- where'd you take piano lessons? | 1274.3111 |
1030 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1274.3111 | <ts> | 1274.4128 |
1031 | | 1274.8604 | Um, | 1275.7137 |
1033 | | 1277.6349 | I took private lessons with the, um, lady named Miss Barbara- | 1282.1265 |
1035 | | 1282.6223 | /RD-NAME-2/? | 1283.3404 |
1036 | VLD_int_01 | 1283.3404 | /RD-NAME-2/, | 1283.8860 |
1037 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1284.3103 | [Is /RD-NAME-2/- /RD-NAME-4/. I don't know why I'm thinking Barbara.] | 1287.0932 |
1038 | VLD_int_01 | 1284.3103 | [was it /RD-NAME-4/?] | 1285.2755 |
1040 | | 1285.7736 | [Mm-hm. I took lessons with her] too. | 1287.4848 |
1041 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1287.7264 | Oh my gosh. | 1288.9600 |
1043 | | 1289.1486 | That lady right there, | 1290.5824 |
1045 | | 1290.9252 | she was so hard on me, but | 1292.8090 |
1047 | | 1293.2268 | I guess she saw the talent that was in me and she wanted to pull it out of me. | 1297.1157 |
1049 | | 1297.4374 | But I will- I will always pull it back in. I guess cause I was nervous around her | 1301.4373 |
1051 | | 1301.7404 | because she- she really intimidated me when she- | 1304.5978 |
1053 | | 1305.5388 | she was playing some type of | 1307.2035 |
1055 | | 1307.6231 | gospel song, and her fingers was just going. I'm like, oh my God this woman is amazing. | 1312.4343 |
1057 | | 1312.8624 | So, but I can say she taught me a lot when it comes down to music, and to this day when I'm at church | 1318.4803 |
1059 | | 1318.9792 | I remember some of the things that she told me. If you don't know the notes to a song, | 1322.4429 |
1061 | | 1323.0304 | they way how you can wing it is play chords. Until this day, that's all I do when I'm at church, I just play chords. | 1328.6520 |
1063 | | 1328.7733 | <laugh> | 1330.1162 |
1065 | | 1330.3764 | But, yeah. | 1331.2064 |
1066 | VLD_int_01 | 1332.5577 | So why'd you play clarinet? | 1334.3776 |
1067 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1335.4208 | Because that's the only instrument my mom had in her house. [<laugh>] Exactly. | 1340.3672 |
1068 | VLD_int_01 | 1338.0544 | [Cause your sister played it?] | 1339.1844 |
1069 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1340.4931 | But, um, | 1341.3557 |
1071 | | 1342.2688 | if it was up to me, I probably would've | 1344.1458 |
1073 | | 1344.4501 | been a percussionist. | 1345.6345 |
1074 | VLD_int_01 | 1346.2220 | Ah, that makes sense. | 1347.5136 |
1075 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1347.5360 | [<laugh>] | 1348.8976 |
1076 | VLD_int_01 | 1347.6339 | [Because the piano is just like] the, | 1349.2986 |
1077 | | 1349.8861 | [um,] | 1350.3990 |
1078 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1350.2172 | [The xylophone, right.] | 1351.8078 |
1079 | VLD_int_01 | 1350.7234 | [vibraphone, yep.] | 1351.6198 |
1080 | | 1352.0164 | [Mm.] | 1352.5850 |
1081 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1352.2586 | [But, yeah.] | 1352.8368 |
1082 | VLD_int_01 | 1353.7825 | So talk about, um, some of your experiences in band. Like [some of the things you] got to do because you were in the band. | 1359.7631 |
1083 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1357.7497 | [Mm-hm.] | 1358.1880 |
1084 | | 1359.8807 | Oh, man. Um, | 1361.1360 |
1086 | | 1361.8475 | of course I got to travel a lot, | 1363.5150 |
1088 | | 1363.8665 | [um.] | 1364.4267 |
1089 | VLD_int_01 | 1363.8665 | [Where'd you go?] | 1364.4267 |
1090 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1366.5841 | Everywhere in Georgia: Atlanta, Savannah, | 1369.3203 |
1092 | | 1369.4649 | Waycross, um, | 1371.3300 |
1094 | | 1372.0528 | Bainbridge. | 1373.1731 |
1096 | | 1373.5393 | I've been to l- Orlando | 1375.4744 |
1098 | | 1375.9025 | maybe five different times. | 1377.5584 |
1100 | | 1378.0474 | Um, | 1378.7295 |
1102 | | 1378.8914 | New York City, | 1380.1134 |
1104 | | 1380.7977 | um, | 1381.5233 |
1106 | | 1382.3868 | yeah. | 1382.8298 |
1107 | VLD_int_01 | 1382.8484 | What'd y'all go to New York City for? | 1384.0022 |
1108 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1384.5457 | Just to go, | 1385.2902 |
1109 | VLD_int_01 | 1385.4354 | [<laugh>] | 1386.6851 |
1110 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1386.3400 | [we didn't] perform or anything. | 1387.6596 |
1111 | VLD_int_01 | 1388.5260 | Wow, the whole band? | 1389.5565 |
1112 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1389.5798 | Mm-hm- well not the whole band, but everybody that | 1391.7434 |
1114 | | 1392.9782 | wanted [to go.] | 1393.8501 |
1115 | VLD_int_01 | 1393.4771 | [To go, wow.] | 1394.5380 |
1116 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1394.0413 | [Yeah.] | 1394.5812 |
1117 | VLD_int_01 | 1395.0103 | Spoiled. | 1395.7329 |
1118 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1396.0222 | <laugh> | 1396.8568 |
1119 | VLD_int_01 | 1397.1879 | Um, when was that? | 1398.0412 |
1120 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1398.7826 | Um, | 1399.6079 |
1122 | | 1400.8380 | it was either my junior or senior year. | 1402.9028 |
1123 | VLD_int_01 | 1403.0194 | So that's your first time going to New York? | 1404.2317 |
1125 | | 1404.6700 | Tell me about it. | 1405.4247 |
1126 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1408.6279 | It was okay. | 1409.5248 |
1128 | | 1409.9932 | I don't like New York. | 1411.3781 |
1130 | | 1411.9890 | [<laugh>] | 1412.6275 |
1131 | VLD_int_01 | 1412.1988 | [Why?] | 1412.5718 |
1132 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1413.5790 | I don't like the noise, I don't- | 1415.7324 |
1134 | | 1416.3665 | Mm. | 1417.1067 |
1136 | | 1417.5089 | I- I don't- I don't like New York. | 1419.3592 |
1138 | | 1419.5364 | Maybe that I'm a Southern girl and I like the- | 1422.1427 |
1140 | | 1422.5804 | the space, but New York is just too | 1425.1534 |
1142 | | 1426.8740 | mm-mm. | 1427.3079 |
1143 | VLD_int_01 | 1427.3079 | What'd y'all do? So tell me a little bit about the trip. | 1429.4423 |
1144 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1429.4890 | We went to see Phantom of the Opera, now that was fun, | 1432.9153 |
1146 | | 1433.0692 | we ate a lot, | 1434.2535 |
1148 | | 1434.7152 | uh, | 1435.4698 |
1150 | | 1436.7370 | what else did we do- we seen another show. | 1438.5700 |
1152 | | 1439.7959 | It was some | 1440.5793 |
1154 | | 1440.9103 | knock-off show we went to go see. | 1442.5694 |
1156 | | 1443.2595 | We met <laugh> | 1445.0268 |
1158 | | 1445.7253 | it's this one band director, I forgot his name, I think his name was | 1449.2271 |
1160 | | 1449.6506 | Pierre LaPlante. | 1450.8740 |
1162 | | 1451.0162 | We watched his, um, | 1452.3876 |
1164 | | 1453.8276 | his band play | 1454.9930 |
1166 | | 1456.5638 | from what I remember, | 1457.5826 |
1168 | | 1458.4103 | [yeah.] | 1458.8515 |
1169 | VLD_int_01 | 1458.5083 | [W-] was it good? | 1459.4487 |
1170 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1459.7430 | Oh, he- hoo. | 1460.8621 |
1172 | | 1460.9973 | His band was awesome. | 1462.2097 |
1174 | | 1462.9688 | But other than that- | 1463.9775 |
1176 | | 1464.3948 | that- | 1464.8984 |
1178 | | 1465.5372 | it was a short trip so it wasn't | 1467.5829 |
1180 | | 1468.0645 | all that grandiose, so. | 1469.8097 |
1181 | VLD_int_01 | 1469.8495 | Did y'all fly or take the train? | 1471.1293 |
1182 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1471.1458 | We, um, we actually took a bus there, | 1473.2711 |
1183 | VLD_int_01 | 1474.0965 | Ooh. | 1474.5511 |
1184 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1474.8472 | so. | 1475.4885 |
1186 | | 1477.1358 | Yeah. | 1477.6391 |
1187 | VLD_int_01 | 1477.9518 | So you're not moving to New York, that's what you're telling me? | 1479.8673 |
1188 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1479.8673 | That's- yes. I'm- you don't have to worry about me moving there. | 1482.2180 |
1189 | | 1482.5383 | Hm-mm. | 1483.0185 |
1191 | | 1483.5455 | [<laugh>] | 1484.8651 |
1192 | VLD_int_01 | 1484.4827 | [So let's] back up, let's- so when- I think, | 1486.7116 |
1193 | | 1486.8552 | well, | 1487.2205 |
1195 | | 1487.4987 | I will tell you when I think our relationship changed. When do you think | 1489.7546 |
1197 | | 1489.8992 | we got close? | 1491.3198 |
1198 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1492.7007 | Um, | 1493.6845 |
1200 | | 1495.1021 | <ts> Girls of [Grace.] | 1496.3279 |
1201 | VLD_int_01 | 1495.8575 | [Yup.] | 1496.2585 |
1202 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1496.7938 | Girls of Grace, [that's when I knew-] | 1498.2875 |
1203 | VLD_int_01 | 1497.6191 | [So talk a little bit] about it, [like I know about it but can you tell me some stories] about it. | 1501.5320 |
1204 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1498.9527 | [Oh my gosh.] | 1500.5847 |
1205 | | 1502.1123 | Oh, Lord. | 1503.6791 |
1207 | | 1503.9495 | I can say Girls of Grace- | 1506.0569 |
1209 | | 1506.2250 | okay, | 1506.6867 |
1211 | | 1507.0224 | I remember doing a lot of, | 1509.4648 |
1213 | | 1510.3741 | um, | 1511.0560 |
1215 | | 1512.5359 | well specifically I remember going to the food bank. | 1515.2310 |
1217 | | 1515.9584 | Um, | 1516.6765 |
1219 | | 1516.8537 | I remember having | 1518.2153 |
1221 | | 1518.6434 | little workshops and classes, and | 1521.6323 |
1223 | | 1521.9904 | now this- <laugh> | 1523.1269 |
1225 | | 1523.5898 | this may be a little bit too inappropriate but | 1525.3710 |
1227 | | 1525.6732 | I remember having this one discussion about (laughing) sex. | 1529.0990 |
1228 | VLD_int_01 | 1529.4959 | Oh when [the nurse came in?] | 1530.8761 |
1229 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1529.8503 | [/And being-/] | 1530.6702 |
1231 | | 1530.8761 | yes, | 1531.6073 |
1232 | | 1531.6865 | oh my gosh. | 1533.1647 |
1234 | | 1533.6962 | Like, | 1534.4610 |
1236 | | 1535.2901 | I was like, I don't want my virginity taken. (laughing) | 1538.2930 |
1238 | | 1538.6138 | And I remember you had this piece of paper, I think it was a piece of paper or | 1542.5055 |
1240 | | 1542.6510 | candy wrapper, | 1543.6255 |
1242 | | 1544.1757 | and | 1544.8658 |
1244 | | 1545.2249 | <laugh> this is your hymen | 1547.5041 |
1246 | | 1547.6160 | and if you poke this. And I was like, oh my God, like. <laugh> | 1552.3060 |
1248 | | 1552.4785 | I remember that til this day and I'm like, | 1555.2468 |
1250 | | 1555.7230 | okay. | 1556.6647 |
1252 | | 1557.3532 | But yeah, it- oh my gosh. | 1559.6380 |
1254 | | 1560.1836 | Girls of Grace was awesome. | 1561.5835 |
1256 | | 1562.7249 | You should do that again. | 1563.7870 |
1257 | VLD_int_01 | 1564.8307 | Hm-mm, okay hold on. Let [the Lord lead us in that issue.] | 1567.9490 |
1258 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1566.3042 | [<laugh>] | 1569.4423 |
1259 | VLD_int_01 | 1568.5004 | [Um,] | 1569.0087 |
1260 | | 1569.5729 | apparently that is not | 1570.6886 |
1262 | | 1570.8869 | my ministry, but we gonna | 1572.3464 |
1263 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1572.3464 | [<laugh>] | 1574.3374 |
1264 | VLD_int_01 | 1572.5189 | [let the Lord see what He can do.] | 1574.1556 |
1265 | | 1574.5548 | Um, | 1575.0906 |
1267 | | 1575.4641 | so tell me- okay, | 1577.0633 |
1269 | | 1577.2499 | because, like, someone else who is listening to this may not what it is, [so tell me] what it is. | 1581.7674 |
1270 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1580.2939 | [Mm-hm.] | 1580.8134 |
1271 | VLD_int_01 | 1581.9772 | And then you talked about the food bank, | 1583.5430 |
1273 | | 1583.7249 | maybe tell me some other things y'all did. | 1585.2673 |
1274 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1586.0517 | Um, | 1586.5225 |
1276 | | 1587.0253 | oh man, my memory is- | 1588.7832 |
1278 | | 1589.8371 | we did a lot of things, though. We did, | 1591.8459 |
1280 | | 1592.0604 | um, | 1592.8251 |
1282 | | 1594.2837 | I wouldn't say it was like a Vacation Bible School, but | 1597.7342 |
1284 | | 1598.2462 | it was almost where | 1599.8292 |
1286 | | 1600.3632 | you had a group of girls and we would do like, group activities as far as team building. | 1605.0345 |
1288 | | 1605.4905 | We did a lot of | 1606.9920 |
1290 | | 1608.4832 | yeah, Bible study. | 1609.6766 |
1292 | | 1609.8308 | Um, | 1610.5302 |
1294 | | 1611.5505 | <ts> | 1611.7210 |
1296 | | 1612.8375 | what else? | 1613.5882 |
1298 | | 1614.7399 | Basically- I felt like, to me personally, I felt like you brought in | 1618.4460 |
1300 | | 1619.2565 | a lot of people that, | 1620.5341 |
1302 | | 1620.7206 | um, | 1621.3035 |
1304 | | 1621.8304 | talked to us about, | 1622.8370 |
1306 | | 1623.5081 | you know, how it is to be a woman. | 1625.3428 |
1308 | | 1625.9226 | Periods, sex, um, | 1627.8757 |
1310 | | 1630.2675 | yeah the whole nine yards as far as, um, | 1633.0746 |
1312 | | 1634.2581 | <sigh> I can't think of it. | 1635.4704 |
1314 | | 1637.6797 | You know the class, Gender, Sex, and Race? | 1639.8471 |
1315 | VLD_int_01 | 1640.0336 | Mm-hm. | 1640.6505 |
1316 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1640.7610 | That's what Girls of Grace | 1642.2484 |
1318 | | 1642.6495 | makes me think of | 1643.9564 |
1320 | | 1644.3636 | as a whole. But it was more to it besides that. | 1647.5390 |
1322 | | 1648.1266 | Um, | 1648.7029 |
1324 | | 1648.9845 | oh we- we | 1649.6886 |
1326 | | 1649.8239 | learned about different cultures, like the African, um, | 1652.6114 |
1328 | | 1654.2658 | <ts> what did we do with that? I think it was the African [party, or?] | 1657.6035 |
1329 | VLD_int_01 | 1656.4028 | [The compe- yeah. The competition] so [each team had a different] country. | 1660.1581 |
1330 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1658.2750 | [Yeah, the competition.] | 1659.6459 |
1331 | | 1660.4190 | Right, now I remember that because we had Nigeria. | 1663.2278 |
1333 | | 1663.4863 | I thought /Souf/ A- South Africa was gonna win cause they did a good job. I remember that. | 1667.4235 |
1335 | | 1667.9944 | Um, what else did we do? | 1669.2356 |
1337 | | 1669.4212 | Um, | 1669.8109 |
1338 | VLD_int_01 | 1670.0834 | But [didn't y'all win?] | 1671.0057 |
1339 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1670.2830 | [We went to Spelman-] | 1671.6119 |
1340 | | 1671.7425 | yes we did. | 1672.7730 |
1342 | | 1673.2532 | We did. | 1673.8134 |
1343 | VLD_int_01 | 1673.9014 | Mm-hm I thought so. | 1674.8674 |
1344 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1674.8674 | We went to Spelman, | 1676.2393 |
1345 | | 1676.3625 | um, | 1677.0606 |
1347 | | 1677.2111 | we toured Spelman and I think we went somewhere else. | 1680.2797 |
1349 | | 1680.8464 | We went to the Coca Cola factory | 1682.5810 |
1351 | | 1683.1545 | and, um, | 1684.1368 |
1353 | | 1685.4991 | but yeah. | 1685.9699 |
1354 | VLD_int_01 | 1686.8653 | Oh, the Coca Cola factory was the year y'all had to do the | 1689.5782 |
1356 | | 1689.9885 | Coca Cola project. | 1691.4247 |
1358 | | 1692.2771 | Do you remember? It was a project cause Coca Cola was failing or something. | 1695.5892 |
1359 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1695.8573 | [Mm-hm.] | 1696.3795 |
1360 | VLD_int_01 | 1695.9739 | [And y'all had to] come up with like, a whole marketing plan. | 1698.5797 |
1361 | | 1699.0039 | And then present it to, um, | 1701.3726 |
1363 | | 1701.8007 | Miss /RD-NAME-2/ the judge- | 1703.7246 |
1365 | | 1703.9083 | I mean the attorney. | 1704.9761 |
1366 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1705.1757 | Mm-hm. | 1705.5654 |
1367 | VLD_int_01 | 1705.6327 | The jewelry [lady-] | 1706.9336 |
1368 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1706.7751 | [You see,] I don't remember none [of that. <laugh>] | 1709.2324 |
1369 | VLD_int_01 | 1707.5305 | [/inaudible/] | 1707.7590 |
1371 | | 1708.4388 | [but that's oh-] cause that's when- I remember us going to Atlanta cause I wanted y'all to | 1711.5723 |
1372 | | 1711.8885 | like, understand like, Coke. | 1713.6184 |
1373 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1713.8143 | [Mm-hm.] | 1714.3095 |
1374 | VLD_int_01 | 1714.1174 | [And so] then you had the whole project. Cause my best friend did the project with us | 1717.8468 |
1375 | | 1718.3961 | and she was in marketing. | 1719.9348 |
1377 | | 1720.1027 | She | 1720.5898 |
1379 | | 1721.1798 | did marketing, | 1721.8970 |
1381 | | 1721.9996 | and so the whole project was around marketing like, come up with a new slogan for Coke. I don't remember who won that one. But I do [remember that-] | 1727.9812 |
1382 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1727.5056 | [I remember] now. [Okay, yeah] I remember that. | 1730.5985 |
1383 | VLD_int_01 | 1728.7879 | [Mm-hm.] | 1729.5293 |
1384 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1731.0252 | Yeah. | 1731.4402 |
1386 | | 1732.6572 | I remember now. | 1733.4852 |
1388 | | 1734.1111 | Yeah. | 1735.0771 |
1390 | | 1735.5519 | I remember that now, because I- it- it took me the longest to try to figure out | 1739.7083 |
1392 | | 1740.0694 | a slogan. That was so hard for me. | 1741.9942 |
1394 | | 1742.4372 | I remember that now. | 1743.5190 |
1396 | | 1743.7335 | Yeah. | 1744.2278 |
1398 | | 1745.1968 | But as far as Girls of Grace, | 1746.8447 |
1400 | | 1747.0060 | I- that was- that was pretty good. I didn't- some of the stuff that | 1750.3722 |
1402 | | 1750.9490 | that you taught us and | 1752.1179 |
1404 | | 1752.5250 | the people that you brought in like, I didn't know. Like, I didn't know you had to fill out scholarships and stuff, | 1757.2336 |
1406 | | 1757.5554 | I didn't know anything about the process of | 1759.8533 |
1408 | | 1760.2403 | trying to go to college because I wasn't taught that | 1762.7650 |
1409 | VLD_int_01 | 1763.2983 | [Hm.] | 1763.7039 |
1410 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1763.5454 | [in] high school. | 1764.4034 |
1411 | | 1765.1299 | Well, | 1765.5195 |
1413 | | 1765.6708 | and middle school too. But, um, | 1767.2456 |
1415 | | 1768.2438 | <ts> yeah. | 1768.8445 |
1416 | VLD_int_01 | 1769.7219 | Two things I'm gonna ask you about. | 1771.1339 |
1417 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1771.1339 | Mm-hm. | 1771.5116 |
1418 | VLD_int_01 | 1772.6633 | So we had the- remember we had the themes each year. | 1775.5823 |
1419 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1775.8658 | Mm-hm. | 1776.3135 |
1420 | VLD_int_01 | 1776.3135 | Um, | 1777.6750 |
1422 | | 1778.0938 | <ts> | 1778.3922 |
1424 | | 1780.2061 | what was our- the one I wanted to ask you, | 1782.9012 |
1426 | | 1783.5345 | remember when you | 1784.5137 |
1428 | | 1785.0779 | played the piano and we made the whole song? | 1787.2965 |
1429 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1787.3245 | Mm-hm. | 1787.9577 |
1430 | VLD_int_01 | 1791.2349 | You- I think you were playing like, Fur Elise. | 1793.1020 |
1431 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1793.6782 | <ts> | 1793.8649 |
1433 | | 1794.0111 | It was Moonlight [Sonata.] | 1795.4446 |
1434 | VLD_int_01 | 1795.1834 | [Oh.] | 1795.7896 |
1435 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1795.6684 | [I] remember, | 1796.7724 |
1436 | | 1797.2165 | girls are great, <imitates music> yeah I remember that. [<laugh>] | 1801.7199 |
1437 | VLD_int_01 | 1801.1371 | [<laugh>] | 1801.9245 |
1438 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1802.1527 | That was crazy but it was- | 1804.0924 |
1440 | | 1804.1904 | it was kind of like- | 1805.5948 |
1442 | | 1806.6561 | it was awesome because | 1808.1417 |
1444 | | 1809.5229 | that was my first time experiencing | 1811.8122 |
1446 | | 1812.1099 | people using their creative juices to come up with something that's so simple | 1816.5296 |
1448 | | 1817.1589 | like a song like that. | 1818.7350 |
1450 | | 1819.1220 | And then we had this one girl | 1820.8799 |
1452 | | 1821.6755 | she was the soloist, and I think she came up with her own lyrics | 1824.8658 |
1454 | | 1825.3265 | for one part, I believe. | 1826.7394 |
1456 | | 1827.3633 | But | 1827.7205 |
1458 | | 1828.2726 | I remember that song to this day. As we grow in his grace- | 1831.4304 |
1460 | | 1833.6750 | I forgot the rest, I think. | 1835.1444 |
1462 | | 1839.4981 | (whispering) For his grace, | 1840.9187 |
1464 | | 1842.4628 | wasn't there, there's no time to waste? | 1844.4669 |
1465 | VLD_int_01 | 1844.4669 | [Mm-hm.] | 1844.9519 |
1466 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1844.8866 | [Come] on you Girls of Grace, or something [like that.] | 1847.2164 |
1467 | VLD_int_01 | 1846.6165 | [/Like that/.] | 1847.0475 |
1468 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1847.4083 | [<laugh>] | 1848.6860 |
1469 | VLD_int_01 | 1848.1544 | [Um,] | 1848.6658 |
1470 | | 1849.0963 | Because /RD-NAME-2/ did- I did- didn't /RD-NAME-2/ do like, a rap? | 1851.6609 |
1472 | | 1852.7371 | In the- | 1853.3153 |
1473 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1853.4132 | She did. | 1854.5497 |
1474 | VLD_int_01 | 1854.5497 | [mm-hm.] | 1855.4090 |
1475 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1855.1758 | [She] did. | 1856.1012 |
1476 | | 1856.4572 | Yup. | 1856.9524 |
1477 | VLD_int_01 | 1857.9904 | Um, and then do you remember your name? | 1860.2309 |
1478 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1860.7695 | Tranquility. | 1861.5569 |
1480 | | 1862.3773 | I still have that butterfly on my wall. | 1864.5772 |
1481 | VLD_int_01 | 1865.8269 | Wow. | 1866.4098 |
1482 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1866.4098 | [Mm-hm.] | 1867.2378 |
1483 | VLD_int_01 | 1867.1325 | From- | 1867.8739 |
1484 | | 1869.0341 | so you're twenty-eight, so you had to be, what, fifteen, sixteen? [So that was like,] twelve- wow. That's a long [time.] | 1874.2743 |
1485 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1871.5325 | [Yeah.] | 1872.1413 |
1487 | | 1873.9106 | [Twelve or] thirteen years ago. | 1875.2037 |
1488 | VLD_int_01 | 1876.1012 | Wow. | 1876.5883 |
1489 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1876.5883 | Yeah, and I still actually have, | 1878.2931 |
1490 | | 1878.5026 | um, | 1879.0249 |
1492 | | 1879.5975 | you know, at the end of | 1880.9451 |
1494 | | 1881.1502 | the, um, program, we would have to write- | 1883.0574 |
1496 | | 1883.2197 | write to, um, we had to write notes to, um, | 1885.2294 |
1498 | | 1885.6817 | all the girls and, um, | 1887.5935 |
1500 | | 1888.4030 | put 'em inside of like, I think it was a bag? | 1890.3474 |
1501 | VLD_int_01 | 1890.3474 | Mm-hm. | 1890.9157 |
1502 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1890.9489 | I think I have all my notes. | 1892.5806 |
1503 | VLD_int_01 | 1892.8094 | Wow. And that was what, three years of- | 1895.2519 |
1505 | | 1895.5223 | cause how- you did it for a long time but I don't think [we started the notes] until like, the | 1898.8647 |
1506 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1897.3959 | [Mm-hm.] | 1898.0859 |
1507 | VLD_int_01 | 1899.2462 | second year. | 1900.3233 |
1508 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1900.3233 | Yeah, I still have all of my notes. | 1902.5895 |
1509 | | 1903.8103 | [Mm-hm] it's in a little box. | 1905.3608 |
1510 | VLD_int_01 | 1903.8103 | [Wow.] | 1904.3138 |
1511 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1905.7220 | Because it's like, sometimes I have to go back and look. Like, | 1908.5842 |
1513 | | 1908.6821 | I wonder what these girls are doing. | 1909.8385 |
1514 | VLD_int_01 | 1910.5743 | Hm. | 1911.0046 |
1515 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1911.2131 | You know, | 1911.7327 |
1517 | | 1911.9592 | so. | 1912.4441 |
1518 | VLD_int_01 | 1912.8405 | /RD-NAME-2/ passed away. | 1914.0659 |
1519 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1914.0659 | And [/RD-NAME-2/.] | 1915.0658 |
1520 | VLD_int_01 | 1914.7420 | [And /RD-NAME-2/] got killed. | 1916.4692 |
1521 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1916.9196 | Yeah, that broke my heart. | 1918.0891 |
1523 | | 1918.3875 | Um, | 1918.8259 |
1525 | | 1919.1103 | because, | 1919.7435 |
1527 | | 1920.1501 | um, I used to see /RD-NAME-2/ before she moved. | 1923.0563 |
1529 | | 1923.4086 | I used to see her all the time. | 1925.0383 |
1531 | | 1925.4640 | And the last time I saw her, | 1927.0064 |
1533 | | 1927.1846 | she gave me a hug and she was just cheesing- and you know she's a jokester. | 1930.5223 |
1534 | VLD_int_01 | 1930.5806 | Mm. | 1930.9730 |
1535 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1931.0017 | She was like, oh, you're getting a little fat. <laugh> You know, but I didn't take it serious cause she's- | 1935.4422 |
1537 | | 1935.8689 | she's a little jokester, but | 1937.2570 |
1539 | | 1937.9616 | yeah. That- | 1938.8680 |
1541 | | 1939.0247 | that broke my heart when | 1939.9745 |
1543 | | 1940.4423 | I found out they passed away. | 1941.9297 |
1544 | VLD_int_01 | 1943.7940 | Um, who else was in your group? | 1945.5332 |
1545 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1947.2390 | Mm. <exhale> | 1948.6098 |
1547 | | 1950.2783 | <ts> | 1950.3757 |
1549 | | 1950.5627 | I remember /RD-NAME-4/. | 1952.3812 |
1551 | | 1952.5258 | I remember | 1953.5892 |
1553 | | 1954.2501 | [of course /RD-NAME-4/.] | 1955.3804 |
1554 | VLD_int_01 | 1954.2595 | [I could not remember her name.] | 1955.7096 |
1555 | | 1956.0724 | I could not remember [/RD-NAME-4/.] | 1957.4573 |
1556 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1957.2148 | [Well I] remember her as Moo. | 1958.4319 |
1557 | VLD_int_01 | 1958.8235 | Yep, and that's- that's all I can think [of.] | 1960.6785 |
1558 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1960.2681 | [<laugh>] | 1961.4777 |
1559 | VLD_int_01 | 1961.7323 | I couldn't think of her real name. I thought- I was like, all I can think of was Moo, and I was like, that is not that girl's [name.] | 1965.7331 |
1560 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1965.2845 | [Mm-hm.] | 1966.2343 |
1561 | | 1966.8737 | <ts> I remember Ashley and Angela. | 1969.4470 |
1563 | | 1970.6963 | Um, | 1971.4594 |
1565 | | 1973.9699 | /RD-NAME-3/ and /RD-NAME-1/. | 1975.1797 |
1566 | VLD_int_01 | 1975.9913 | /RD-NAME-1/ was on [TV.] | 1977.1293 |
1567 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1977.0314 | [Yeah, I saw] it, I saw it. Yup. | 1980.4353 |
1568 | VLD_int_01 | 1977.4686 | [Did you see it?] | 1978.3696 |
1569 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1980.9222 | I- I subscribed to her YouTube channel. | 1982.9291 |
1571 | | 1983.1389 | Um, | 1983.5285 |
1573 | | 1984.1871 | she's doing a good job. | 1985.1570 |
1574 | VLD_int_01 | 1986.3740 | [And you were like, I was in Girls] of Grace with her. | 1987.8271 |
1575 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1986.4160 | [<ts>] | 1986.6031 |
1577 | | 1986.7144 | [Yeah.] | 1987.0473 |
1578 | | 1988.0191 | Right. <laugh> | 1989.6278 |
1580 | | 1990.3273 | Yep. | 1990.6910 |
1581 | VLD_int_01 | 1991.4221 | So talk about- <clears throat> | 1993.9252 |
1583 | | 1995.0210 | because you have a- faith is really big in your life, so [talk about kind] of | 1999.2074 |
1584 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 1998.3401 | [Mm-hm.] | 1998.7947 |
1585 | VLD_int_01 | 2000.7173 | your church | 2002.0089 |
1587 | | 2002.2001 | experiences, | 2003.4917 |
1589 | | 2003.9999 | then and even now. Like, what do you do with your church now. | 2007.0905 |
1590 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2007.3461 | Um, right now at my church I am, um, | 2010.5029 |
1592 | | 2011.1268 | the youth leader. | 2012.1009 |
1594 | | 2012.2599 | Um, | 2012.8800 |
1596 | | 2013.7334 | I attend New Harvest United Methodist- | 2016.0406 |
1598 | | 2016.1945 | I know that's crazy. | 2016.9125 |
1600 | | 2017.4255 | I was born in a Baptist church. <laugh> | 2019.9612 |
1602 | | 2020.5067 | But, um, transitioning from a Baptist to a Methodist | 2023.3155 |
1604 | | 2023.7596 | it's- it's pretty much all the same. We worship the same God, you know, we believe in Jesus Christ, but | 2028.9215 |
1606 | | 2030.1609 | the church that I'm located | 2031.7520 |
1608 | | 2031.8759 | (whispering) it's nothing but white people. So it's a little- it can be a little bit | 2035.4950 |
1610 | | 2038.5616 | harsh, I guess. [Because sometimes] they tend to flip-flop like pancakes. | 2043.0265 |
1611 | VLD_int_01 | 2039.9782 | [Hm.] | 2040.4958 |
1612 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2043.4325 | As far as attitude and, you know, | 2045.4842 |
1614 | | 2045.9916 | comunicating wise. But other than that, | 2047.9313 |
1616 | | 2048.5235 | um, | 2049.0187 |
1618 | | 2050.2059 | but yes I'm a youth leader at the church. | 2052.2273 |
1620 | | 2052.6399 | And what I do now is- what I'm trying to do because, | 2056.0215 |
1622 | | 2056.5092 | um, | 2056.9720 |
1624 | | 2057.3943 | I'm trying to bring in more youth at our church, | 2059.5672 |
1626 | | 2059.9682 | the church right now is dying out because it's nothing but older people. | 2063.1521 |
1627 | VLD_int_01 | 2063.2712 | Mm-hm. | 2063.8222 |
1628 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2063.9578 | And, um, | 2065.2308 |
1630 | | 2067.2038 | my plan is to, um, | 2069.0303 |
1632 | | 2069.7249 | I guess to start a youth brunch | 2071.9087 |
1634 | | 2072.1487 | to bring in some more youth, and then | 2074.4380 |
1636 | | 2074.7973 | have movie nights and parties and have Wednesday night Bible study | 2079.3138 |
1638 | | 2079.7941 | with 'em. And, um, | 2081.3284 |
1640 | | 2081.7982 | eventually plan a trip | 2083.1864 |
1642 | | 2083.6447 | with some of the kids. | 2084.6676 |
1644 | | 2085.2479 | But, um, | 2085.9135 |
1646 | | 2087.6120 | compared to the- | 2088.7824 |
1648 | | 2089.8026 | the church I'm at now to the church I was growing up in, | 2092.8046 |
1650 | | 2093.2569 | I can say the church that I was growing up in, it was more family oriented | 2096.7345 |
1652 | | 2097.3500 | because it's like, | 2098.3199 |
1654 | | 2100.1096 | most of us l- (laughing) lived around each other, | 2102.4410 |
1656 | | 2102.7525 | (laughing) you know. | 2103.5126 |
1658 | | 2103.9229 | So it's like, | 2104.9214 |
1660 | | 2106.4540 | that's my family. | 2107.3551 |
1662 | | 2108.1177 | Compared to this church, | 2109.4606 |
1664 | | 2109.6149 | they're still family, but | 2111.7986 |
1666 | | 2112.2155 | I can say I was closer to the people | 2114.8361 |
1668 | | 2115.4096 | at the church I was growing up with. | 2117.0640 |
1670 | | 2117.8987 | Um, | 2118.4101 |
1672 | | 2120.3225 | but yeah. | 2120.7690 |
1673 | VLD_int_01 | 2121.5908 | Do you think- how- well let me ask you, how'd you get to New Harvest? | 2125.0165 |
1674 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2125.2969 | Um, oh Lord. | 2126.9205 |
1676 | | 2127.4129 | You might say my mom is a | 2128.4631 |
1678 | | 2128.7325 | church hopper. | 2129.4144 |
1680 | | 2129.7879 | But, (laughing) | 2130.5651 |
1682 | | 2131.1517 | um, | 2131.6646 |
1684 | | 2133.7247 | we were attending- but first it was First Antioch, then after First Antioch we went to | 2138.3438 |
1686 | | 2138.6012 | New Life Ministries. | 2140.0543 |
1688 | | 2140.5643 | Um, | 2141.1812 |
1690 | | 2142.0033 | <ts> after New Life Ministries we went to | 2144.1545 |
1692 | | 2144.5212 | New Harvest. We left New Life because, um, | 2147.6047 |
1694 | | 2149.2663 | it was a whole bunch of drama. | 2150.6278 |
1696 | | 2150.7631 | And my mom, she doesn't like to be around drama like that, especially when it comes down to business. | 2155.0529 |
1698 | | 2155.8625 | And, um, | 2156.9178 |
1700 | | 2157.2427 | basically somebody | 2158.5483 |
1702 | | 2159.1591 | stole an idea of hers, | 2160.5393 |
1704 | | 2160.6746 | um, | 2161.1409 |
1706 | | 2162.3010 | about having some type of women's group. | 2164.2725 |
1708 | | 2164.5430 | And the lady stole the idea and my mom was like, okay that's fine I'm'a still continue to go to church. | 2169.3488 |
1710 | | 2169.8205 | But then when the lady start | 2171.4665 |
1712 | | 2172.0624 | regurgitating lies, and that's when my mama said, okay it's time for me to go. | 2175.4290 |
1713 | VLD_int_01 | 2175.6714 | Mm-hm. | 2176.0175 |
1714 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2176.1080 | And we, um, | 2177.0903 |
1716 | | 2178.3835 | we were visiting other churches before we left, | 2180.3745 |
1718 | | 2180.8875 | um, New Life, and, | 2182.8972 |
1720 | | 2183.5118 | um, | 2184.0946 |
1722 | | 2185.4329 | at the time my little sister was playing Upward Basketball. | 2188.9073 |
1724 | | 2189.4039 | And | 2190.0533 |
1726 | | 2190.5183 | that's when we met | 2191.5302 |
1728 | | 2191.7819 | the pastor of New Harvest Methodist, | 2194.1218 |
1730 | | 2194.7093 | because his daughter was playing basketball with my little sister. And he, | 2197.7300 |
1732 | | 2197.8979 | you know, invited us to go to New Harvest | 2199.7304 |
1734 | | 2200.2471 | and that's when we went. | 2201.6433 |
1736 | | 2202.1868 | It was something totally different because I'm not be- I'm not used to being a whole bunch of white people (laughing) like that. | 2207.1659 |
1737 | VLD_int_01 | 2207.2612 | Mm-hm. | 2207.6073 |
1738 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2207.5986 | But other than that, | 2208.4835 |
1739 | | 2209.2633 | um, | 2209.7991 |
1741 | | 2210.8384 | it was a little strange at first, | 2213.1699 |
1743 | | 2213.6679 | but the pastor and his wife, they were so warm and welcoming. | 2217.1749 |
1745 | | 2217.8590 | The people weren't so welcoming | 2219.9340 |
1747 | | 2220.6567 | that much, | 2221.4279 |
1749 | | 2221.6164 | but | 2222.0314 |
1751 | | 2222.8325 | I guess what made us stay | 2224.2304 |
1753 | | 2224.4085 | was | 2225.1126 |
1755 | | 2226.0545 | the preacher's faith and, you know, | 2228.6929 |
1757 | | 2229.1638 | his tenacity in wanting to | 2230.9903 |
1759 | | 2231.2845 | grow the church and make it bigger and make it | 2233.8351 |
1761 | | 2234.2492 | culturally diverse. | 2235.5562 |
1763 | | 2235.7600 | And that's what made us stay because | 2237.2334 |
1765 | | 2237.4713 | we saw his vision and we wanted to h- well | 2239.6759 |
1767 | | 2240.8183 | I'm saying we like I'm m- like I'm'a- like I'm m- my parents. But at the time, my parents | 2244.8135 |
1769 | | 2245.0737 | saw his vision | 2246.1940 |
1771 | | 2246.4539 | and | 2247.1347 |
1773 | | 2247.4098 | they was like, okay we'll help you out with this. We're gonna- | 2249.3067 |
1775 | | 2249.6378 | we're gonna stay. | 2250.3998 |
1777 | | 2250.8688 | But, um, | 2251.5776 |
1779 | | 2252.4067 | he's no longer there and we have this new pastor | 2254.8989 |
1781 | | 2255.4282 | and, um, | 2256.1426 |
1783 | | 2256.9745 | <ts> our new pastor, he's really good but | 2258.8350 |
1785 | | 2259.2407 | again, it's still | 2260.6255 |
1787 | | 2260.9193 | too much drama there. | 2262.5420 |
1789 | | 2263.1044 | But, um, | 2263.9324 |
1791 | | 2265.1980 | <ts> I just feel like | 2266.3824 |
1793 | | 2266.7414 | God is telling me, personally, | 2268.5367 |
1795 | | 2268.9368 | to stay at New Harvest because | 2270.7646 |
1797 | | 2272.1915 | there's just so much that | 2273.9065 |
1799 | | 2274.7692 | God wants to | 2276.1820 |
1801 | | 2276.7873 | do to this church. | 2278.0276 |
1803 | | 2278.1209 | Like I, | 2278.5805 |
1805 | | 2278.6944 | me personally, I feel like God wants this church to grow | 2281.3001 |
1807 | | 2281.5798 | and to manifest and to actually- | 2283.5850 |
1809 | | 2285.1032 | <sigh> it just so much | 2286.6212 |
1811 | | 2287.1735 | I feel personally. Like I don't- | 2288.9676 |
1813 | | 2289.2532 | I don't know, it's kind of- it's kind of hard to explain | 2291.3879 |
1815 | | 2291.8262 | to be honest. | 2292.5443 |
1817 | | 2293.1318 | [Because-] | 2293.6858 |
1818 | VLD_int_01 | 2293.1318 | [So why don't you] start a Girls of Grace? | 2294.8888 |
1819 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2296.3809 | See the way how my- (laughing) /unintelligible/. | 2299.6674 |
1820 | VLD_int_01 | 2300.1663 | People always find a reason, [and make some] excuses. | 2302.8939 |
1821 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2301.3498 | [Right.] | 2302.1005 |
1822 | | 2303.4014 | I guess, the only reason why I wouldn't start a Girls of Grace because | 2307.0609 |
1824 | | 2307.6522 | I'm just now getting into the youth ministry. | 2310.8789 |
1826 | | 2311.6521 | Um, | 2312.3015 |
1828 | | 2312.8644 | and I feel like I am- I'm still learning myself. | 2315.6379 |
1829 | VLD_int_01 | 2316.3607 | Bianca. | 2317.0994 |
1830 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2317.5162 | [<laugh>] | 2318.9079 |
1831 | VLD_int_01 | 2317.5162 | [Ah.] | 2318.2224 |
1832 | | 2318.9430 | Okay, I was what, | 2320.2533 |
1834 | | 2320.8921 | four or five years older than you guys. Like, it wasn't like I was | 2323.6847 |
1836 | | 2324.3464 | super understood all about youth ministry, but it was about making that [connection.] | 2328.2903 |
1837 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2328.0991 | [It] m- it seemed like you did, you did a good job. (laughing) [<laugh>] | 2332.7649 |
1838 | VLD_int_01 | 2332.0990 | [<laugh>] | 2332.5551 |
1839 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2333.3478 | Like this woman know her stuff. | 2334.9713 |
1841 | | 2335.4274 | But me, personally, it's like, | 2337.1322 |
1843 | | 2338.1310 | I don't know. I guess another reason is fear. | 2340.4429 |
1845 | | 2341.0351 | And fear, that's- | 2342.1542 |
1847 | | 2342.2940 | that's- | 2342.9282 |
1849 | | 2343.2621 | oh my God I hate | 2344.2525 |
1851 | | 2344.4978 | being so fearful. | 2345.5612 |
1853 | | 2345.8687 | But that's what's really holding me back, is fear. | 2348.4612 |
1855 | | 2348.9275 | Um, but | 2349.7715 |
1857 | | 2350.4701 | I thank God for being, um, | 2352.3212 |
1859 | | 2352.5870 | for working at /RD-WORK-3/ because | 2354.3440 |
1861 | | 2356.0740 | growing up | 2356.8247 |
1863 | | 2357.3591 | I was- | 2357.8394 |
1865 | | 2357.9420 | I've | 2358.4595 |
1867 | | 2358.6740 | always been shy and quiet, and it's like | 2361.5650 |
1869 | | 2361.8681 | usually when I first meet someone, I'm usually quiet and reserved | 2365.5276 |
1871 | | 2366.1105 | until, you know, | 2367.2388 |
1873 | | 2367.4656 | we continue to talk and it's like I open up. | 2369.7177 |
1875 | | 2370.0301 | But it's like, now I can talk to anybody and be okay with it. | 2373.1823 |
1877 | | 2373.9834 | Thanks to that job, | 2375.5175 |
1879 | | 2375.9325 | but, um. | 2376.4874 |
1880 | VLD_int_01 | 2376.5340 | Tell me a little bit of more about the job. | 2378.0261 |
1881 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2378.1036 | <ts> | 2378.2740 |
1883 | | 2378.4346 | Okay, [basically-] | 2379.9268 |
1884 | VLD_int_01 | 2379.1994 | [And then we gonna come] back to the church cause I ain't forgot. | 2381.3993 |
1885 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2381.5961 | [<laugh>] | 2382.6331 |
1886 | VLD_int_01 | 2381.5961 | [Then we'll come back.] | 2382.3561 |
1887 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2383.2747 | basically /RD-WORK-3/, um, we were up on a contract with, um, | 2387.8108 |
1889 | | 2389.0214 | the J- the | 2390.2390 |
1891 | | 2390.5974 | Juvenile Justice Department | 2392.5185 |
1892 | VLD_int_01 | 2392.5185 | Mm-hm. | 2393.0175 |
1893 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2393.1014 | and, um, | 2393.9781 |
1895 | | 2394.8677 | <ts> we would track kids that were on- | 2397.0733 |
1897 | | 2397.5116 | that was on house arrest. | 2398.8105 |
1899 | | 2399.2724 | And what we would do is we would just come by and see if they still had they ankle monitor on, | 2403.4270 |
1901 | | 2403.9539 | remind them to charge it up, | 2405.6444 |
1903 | | 2405.7715 | and to remind them like, look okay | 2407.7719 |
1905 | | 2408.6150 | you need to do the right thing | 2409.9113 |
1907 | | 2410.1025 | or you still gonna have this ankle monitor on. We were basically almost like mentors as well. | 2414.0370 |
1909 | | 2414.7132 | Um, | 2415.2447 |
1911 | | 2416.3583 | <ts> what else? (whispered) | 2416.9738 |
1913 | | 2418.3167 | Yeah, pretty much. And like we'll always keep a case load of different things that will go on with the kids. | 2423.8544 |
1915 | | 2424.4373 | Um, | 2425.1273 |
1917 | | 2425.4444 | but me, personally, I took the job more serious | 2428.3205 |
1919 | | 2428.6050 | than everybody else because | 2430.0824 |
1921 | | 2430.7761 | just watching how some of these kids | 2432.8697 |
1923 | | 2433.4200 | were living | 2434.3059 |
1925 | | 2434.4505 | it's like, oh my gosh I wanna help these kids get out their situation. | 2437.9747 |
1927 | | 2438.3058 | Even if that means like, look | 2439.7913 |
1929 | | 2440.2819 | telling Jimmy | 2441.0729 |
1931 | | 2441.3917 | dude, do whatchu have to do. If you need a- | 2443.1939 |
1933 | | 2443.8202 | a tutor or something, I'll- I'll hook you up with a tutor, you know. I will- I will go over and beyond to help some of these kids. | 2449.6097 |
1935 | | 2450.1506 | And | 2450.9461 |
1937 | | 2452.4074 | like this one story, this one kid, | 2454.2530 |
1939 | | 2455.4141 | none of my coworkers knew he was getting raped. | 2457.5004 |
1941 | | 2458.1914 | I'm the only person he told | 2460.0145 |
1943 | | 2460.1404 | that he was getting raped. | 2461.0637 |
1945 | | 2461.4880 | And- | 2462.0238 |
1947 | | 2463.0632 | I don't wanna cry again, shut up. (whispered) | 2464.7761 |
1949 | | 2465.9122 | <sigh> | 2466.8075 |
1951 | | 2468.4946 | Um, but his mom was a addict, | 2470.4672 |
1953 | | 2470.8167 | his stepdad- | 2471.8425 |
1955 | | 2472.4002 | he finally told me at the last minute | 2473.9914 |
1957 | | 2474.2607 | that his stepdad was raping him. | 2475.9006 |
1959 | | 2476.3171 | So, um, | 2477.3849 |
1961 | | 2480.2927 | it took everything in me to not | 2482.5982 |
1963 | | 2483.1045 | jump on that man, | 2484.2247 |
1965 | | 2484.4800 | because I've been sexually assaulted when I was young | 2487.0017 |
1967 | | 2487.4027 | so | 2488.0359 |
1969 | | 2488.8016 | I called my manager | 2489.9012 |
1971 | | 2490.2276 | and she called the cops. | 2491.5238 |
1973 | | 2492.1627 | And | 2492.7502 |
1975 | | 2494.7021 | to this day, I don't know what happened to that young man because | 2497.2836 |
1977 | | 2497.6398 | I left the job, | 2498.8087 |
1979 | | 2499.4396 | but | 2499.7987 |
1981 | | 2500.1801 | I just pray and hope that he's okay. | 2501.8588 |
1983 | | 2502.0465 | Because | 2502.8193 |
1985 | | 2504.6361 | just watching him like, | 2505.9430 |
1987 | | 2506.5105 | we're not supposed to touch and hug kids, but he | 2509.0352 |
1989 | | 2509.4015 | actually ran up to me the night | 2511.0657 |
1991 | | 2512.0865 | after | 2512.6304 |
1993 | | 2512.8605 | the situation happened. Like, | 2514.2818 |
1995 | | 2515.1398 | w- not after but during- | 2516.4386 |
1997 | | 2516.8501 | after the dad did his | 2518.7254 |
1999 | | 2518.9624 | do with that kid, he actually ran up to me | 2521.8037 |
2001 | | 2522.0250 | and he grabbed and hugged me. And it's like- | 2524.5578 |
2003 | | 2526.9333 | it's like, why would you do that to a kid, he didn't ask- | 2529.1481 |
2005 | | 2529.7030 | he didn't ask for that. Like, | 2530.9611 |
2007 | | 2533.7253 | the only thing he could say was, | 2535.1229 |
2009 | | 2535.5858 | Miss /RD-NAME-2/ can you please help me? | 2537.9536 |
2011 | | 2538.3313 | Can you please help me? And I'm like, what's going on? | 2541.5245 |
2013 | | 2541.9815 | He was like, he did it again, he did it again. | 2544.4109 |
2015 | | 2545.0161 | And | 2545.5384 |
2017 | | 2545.9114 | I was so livid, like I got that kid and I drove off | 2549.3797 |
2019 | | 2549.6175 | because | 2550.3263 |
2021 | | 2557.5566 | I probably woulda killed that man, | 2559.2017 |
2023 | | 2559.3416 | to be honest. | 2560.2136 |
2025 | | 2560.9130 | <cough> I probably woulda killed him. | 2562.4042 |
2027 | | 2563.0337 | <ts> | 2563.2109 |
2029 | | 2563.3508 | But, um, | 2564.0875 |
2031 | | 2566.6232 | yeah. | 2566.9823 |
2033 | | 2567.8682 | Working at /RD-WORK-3/, it was- | 2569.7432 |
2035 | | 2569.9003 | it was little bit of traumatic, but at the same time | 2572.6048 |
2037 | | 2572.8874 | I can say I | 2573.8247 |
2039 | | 2574.1324 | helped a lot of kids, | 2575.5173 |
2041 | | 2575.7272 | as far as, um, | 2576.9651 |
2043 | | 2577.4478 | mentoring them and | 2578.8656 |
2045 | | 2579.1264 | telling them | 2579.9555 |
2047 | | 2580.1047 | what to do. | 2580.9673 |
2049 | | 2581.6108 | Um, | 2582.1611 |
2051 | | 2583.4704 | and how to | 2584.1583 |
2053 | | 2584.6455 | <ts> live their life right. But it's this one kid I still | 2587.5869 |
2055 | | 2587.8060 | keep in touch with, um, | 2589.1354 |
2057 | | 2589.9780 | he was | 2590.7660 |
2059 | | 2591.4608 | strung out on drugs. And | 2593.4612 |
2061 | | 2594.6624 | his mom, | 2595.5064 |
2063 | | 2595.8048 | um, | 2596.2665 |
2065 | | 2596.5742 | text me sometimes and | 2598.1409 |
2067 | | 2598.9383 | she, um, talks to my sister | 2600.8772 |
2069 | | 2601.0357 | at times and | 2602.0942 |
2071 | | 2603.1806 | <ts> right now he's doing a whole lot better. | 2604.9376 |
2073 | | 2605.8749 | He's in college | 2607.1650 |
2075 | | 2607.3381 | and | 2608.0049 |
2077 | | 2608.9655 | he's just doing his thing. | 2610.1308 |
2079 | | 2610.3261 | And I- I couldn't be | 2611.5046 |
2081 | | 2612.3405 | prouder, | 2612.9514 |
2083 | | 2613.9585 | but. | 2614.2648 |
2084 | VLD_int_01 | 2616.0271 | So how is | 2616.9453 |
2086 | | 2617.5565 | that any different from what I did? | 2619.4707 |
2087 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2619.9998 | I- you have a point there. <laugh> | 2622.6055 |
2088 | VLD_int_01 | 2622.9552 | H- how is that any- when you guys needed hugs, | 2625.2531 |
2090 | | 2625.4256 | when we did our a little one-on-one session and we stayed up talking til four AM. | 2628.9079 |
2091 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2629.0665 | [Yeah.] | 2629.5367 |
2092 | VLD_int_01 | 2629.1644 | [Like how] is that any different from that? | 2631.1366 |
2093 | | 2632.1011 | It's not. | 2632.9690 |
2095 | | 2634.2132 | It's just we call it something different, right? | 2636.2278 |
2096 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2636.2828 | Yeah. | 2636.7165 |
2097 | VLD_int_01 | 2636.7165 | But everything that you just- is what I did for you girls. When there was an [issue, you guys] called me at one o'clock in the morning, | 2642.6832 |
2098 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2640.2491 | [Mm-hm.] | 2640.8786 |
2099 | VLD_int_01 | 2642.9443 | when there- you know, it was beyond that week in the summer, right? [Like,] | 2646.2235 |
2100 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2646.1468 | [Right.] | 2646.6317 |
2101 | VLD_int_01 | 2646.5058 | [it was] so much more than that, | 2648.0620 |
2102 | | 2648.4540 | but that's exactly whatchu were doing for those young people. | 2650.6251 |
2104 | | 2650.7808 | And that's- it's- that's the same thing, | 2652.6703 |
2106 | | 2653.0414 | I had to get up early and do my Bible study so that I could be able to teach you guys like, right? That's the same thing that you're doing for- | 2658.2583 |
2108 | | 2658.7619 | what you're doing- whatchu did at the job, also what you're doing for these young people. Like, you're giving them a lifeline, you're making them- that's why I started Girls of Grace, is to get the | 2665.8685 |
2110 | | 2666.5649 | girls excited to come to church. | 2668.1969 |
2111 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2668.3274 | [Right.] | 2668.7937 |
2112 | VLD_int_01 | 2668.4711 | [Right,] and be- and know each other cause we were all in- and nobody seemed to really know each other. | 2672.6957 |
2113 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2672.9186 | [Mm-hm.] | 2673.8652 |
2114 | VLD_int_01 | 2672.9186 | [<clears throat> Like the older children-] like me, /RD-NAME-2/, /RD-NAME1/- like cause we all were cousins, | 2677.0960 |
2115 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2677.1190 | [Mm-hm.] | 2677.7624 |
2116 | VLD_int_01 | 2677.3941 | [and so] like, we all knew each other cause my mom was the choir director. | 2680.3457 |
2117 | | 2680.6656 | But then after that group, like y'all's age, nobody really- and /RD-NAME-3/, like we were all in that group, but then nobody- | 2685.8135 |
2119 | | 2686.0046 | the- the next group, y'all didn't know each other so that was the whole point. | 2689.0999 |
2121 | | 2689.4030 | Was- I'm not gonna have y'all sitting in here on [Sundays acting like y'all don't know each other, it's- it's not gonna happen.] | 2694.0745 |
2122 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2691.4957 | [<laugh>] | 2693.9577 |
2123 | | 2694.1433 | [Right.] | 2694.5677 |
2124 | VLD_int_01 | 2694.4651 | [And] so that was the whole thing of making it | 2697.4811 |
2125 | | 2697.6116 | about | 2698.2318 |
2127 | | 2698.5862 | community. | 2699.2320 |
2129 | | 2699.5607 | [And to me,] that's what you're trying to do. | 2701.6607 |
2130 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2699.5785 | [Mm-hm.] | 2700.3618 |
2131 | | 2702.0685 | Yeah. | 2702.4648 |
2133 | | 2704.0773 | [<laugh>] | 2707.3931 |
2134 | VLD_int_01 | 2704.0773 | [We- it's no different. I'm sorry, I just wanted to make sure you understood] that it was, | 2707.9651 |
2135 | | 2708.4315 | cause I think you miss it. It's no different. | 2710.3759 |
2136 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2710.6510 | Right. | 2710.9979 |
2137 | VLD_int_01 | 2711.2526 | So, | 2711.7765 |
2139 | | 2712.1003 | this is one thing I've a- stop being afraid to succeed. | 2714.8001 |
2141 | | 2715.1303 | Stop being afraid of being amazing. | 2717.8674 |
2143 | | 2718.7524 | You're the only one standing in your way. | 2720.6492 |
2145 | | 2722.1601 | You're the- and I told you that | 2723.4090 |
2147 | | 2723.5403 | fifteen years ago. | 2724.6077 |
2149 | | 2725.6098 | And I'm telling you now, you're the only one standing in [/RD-NAME-8/'s way.] | 2729.6842 |
2151 | | 2729.8652 | You're the only one. | 2731.1894 |
2153 | | 2732.9427 | And I think | 2733.6934 |
2155 | | 2733.8240 | you have so much to give. | 2736.2430 |
2157 | | 2736.9688 | And you can't be afraid to do that. | 2739.0921 |
2159 | | 2742.6994 | Like, you are one of the most | 2744.4612 |
2161 | | 2745.1474 | amazing, compassionate, | 2747.3931 |
2163 | | 2748.0553 | thoughtful, | 2748.9226 |
2165 | | 2749.4396 | people | 2750.1289 |
2167 | | 2750.5266 | that I know. And I know I haven't chat with you as much, like as you've grown, but just seeing the things that you're doing and | 2756.2284 |
2169 | | 2756.5912 | I think | 2757.0995 |
2170 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2757.3839 | <clears throat> | 2757.7017 |
2171 | VLD_int_01 | 2757.7017 | at the- | 2758.0080 |
2173 | | 2758.2093 | at the essence of who people are, they don't change you they are, right. | 2761.3083 |
2174 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2761.3620 | [Right.] | 2761.7606 |
2175 | VLD_int_01 | 2761.4342 | [Things] happen to you and | 2763.0569 |
2176 | | 2763.2574 | you can, you know, life will | 2765.0946 |
2178 | | 2765.3650 | change your path, | 2766.4002 |
2180 | | 2766.7397 | but the core of who you are? An apple is still an apple everyday of the week. A dog is a dog, right? | 2771.4750 |
2181 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2771.4750 | Right. | 2771.8857 |
2182 | VLD_int_01 | 2772.0302 | A zebra will have stripes everyday of the week, it might put on like a little- you might put something over it, but it will still have the stripes. | 2777.4112 |
2184 | | 2777.7321 | You can't change who you are, so stop being afraid to be wonderful. | 2781.0598 |
2185 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2783.0506 | [Yeah.] | 2783.6064 |
2186 | VLD_int_01 | 2783.2138 | [You have-] you have so much | 2784.6686 |
2187 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2784.6733 | <laugh> | 2785.2515 |
2188 | VLD_int_01 | 2785.9836 | to share. | 2787.0234 |
2190 | | 2787.5541 | Um, | 2788.4587 |
2192 | | 2789.0415 | <ts> so when I talk to you again | 2790.9300 |
2194 | | 2791.2042 | you're gonna tell me that y'all started Girls of [Grace at the- or you can call it whatever you wanna call it.] | 2795.8793 |
2195 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2793.0638 | [<laugh>] | 2795.8793 |
2196 | VLD_int_01 | 2796.4491 | Um, [with the kids] I think- because I think ultimately it's about | 2800.0339 |
2197 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2797.2269 | [<laugh>] | 2797.9815 |
2198 | VLD_int_01 | 2800.2102 | experience, [right? And] | 2801.8749 |
2199 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2801.2281 | [Right.] | 2801.7117 |
2200 | VLD_int_01 | 2802.2479 | doing new things and, | 2804.1681 |
2202 | | 2804.3593 | um, or even old things, like we went to the peach field. | 2807.3715 |
2204 | | 2807.7539 | But we went and it was hot, and we wanted to complain, but we had fun | 2811.6689 |
2206 | | 2811.8508 | doing- picking peaches. | 2813.1877 |
2208 | | 2814.5310 | That doesn't take a lot of money, that takes | 2816.0519 |
2210 | | 2816.8252 | five dollars to- for gas to ride down [there.] | 2819.2944 |
2211 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2819.1650 | [Right.] | 2819.6686 |
2212 | VLD_int_01 | 2820.3960 | Um, | 2821.1362 |
2214 | | 2821.4592 | so | 2821.9192 |
2216 | | 2822.1679 | that's what I think. | 2823.1882 |
2217 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2823.5799 | <ts> Yeah. | 2824.2933 |
2219 | | 2824.9452 | I just have to get over the whole f- | 2826.4793 |
2221 | | 2826.8663 | fear and | 2828.1420 |
2223 | | 2829.1083 | fear of failing. | 2830.6495 |
2225 | | 2831.7792 | Because | 2832.5760 |
2227 | | 2833.0289 | throughout my life, only thing I've seen is | 2835.6803 |
2229 | | 2837.6955 | failing and failure, it's like, dang girl you can't- | 2841.0286 |
2231 | | 2841.4156 | you can't even get a simple bachelor's degree. And I guess because | 2845.4621 |
2233 | | 2846.0310 | I'm- | 2846.4227 |
2235 | | 2846.5999 | my mom and my dad- | 2848.3662 |
2237 | | 2848.7392 | well my dad doesn't care. My dad feels like | 2850.8653 |
2239 | | 2851.2414 | if you have a business and you make money, that's success. | 2853.6316 |
2241 | | 2854.0205 | But in my mom's opinion, she believes that having | 2857.0607 |
2243 | | 2857.3955 | degrees means success. | 2859.1115 |
2245 | | 2859.4705 | And I can understand that because she doesn't have a high school diploma, | 2862.0715 |
2247 | | 2862.7709 | and she wants the best for her kids. | 2865.4419 |
2249 | | 2865.8988 | But | 2866.4444 |
2251 | | 2866.8874 | I try to tell her like, | 2868.3096 |
2253 | | 2868.7143 | school is not for everybody. (laughing) | 2870.6587 |
2255 | | 2871.4226 | But, | 2872.0031 |
2257 | | 2872.8867 | I don't wanna keep saying that to myself because then I wouldn't wanna go back to school, but I feel like me, personally, | 2879.0204 |
2259 | | 2879.5295 | eventually I'm'a have to go back to school. | 2881.3668 |
2261 | | 2882.0233 | But | 2882.4243 |
2263 | | 2884.2195 | just being on this pedestal of | 2886.2330 |
2265 | | 2886.7552 | you need to do this, you need to do that, you need to be married by this | 2890.5763 |
2267 | | 2890.7186 | age, you need to have kids by this age- | 2893.0538 |
2269 | | 2893.9249 | it's a little bit difficult, especially coming from your mom and your grandma. | 2898.2119 |
2271 | | 2898.7361 | It's like, | 2899.5895 |
2273 | | 2900.2265 | come on girl get it together. | 2901.6153 |
2275 | | 2902.3341 | And then when your birth father comes in and | 2904.6735 |
2277 | | 2905.4527 | puts all that expectation on you, it's like, | 2908.3577 |
2279 | | 2908.8100 | well Jesus. Can I just be me for once? You know, instead of | 2912.8751 |
2281 | | 2913.3125 | doing what everybody else wants me to do, can I do what I wanna do for once, so. | 2917.9139 |
2283 | | 2918.5154 | I'm in that space right now, | 2920.8214 |
2285 | | 2921.2982 | in my life, | 2922.1167 |
2287 | | 2922.8598 | so. | 2923.2836 |
2288 | VLD_int_01 | 2923.7454 | And what's that? What do you want to do? What is- what do you want to do? | 2926.9348 |
2289 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2927.1390 | What I want to is actually what I'm doing a little bit now, | 2930.6455 |
2291 | | 2930.7929 | as far as misson work | 2932.2851 |
2293 | | 2932.6021 | and | 2933.3249 |
2295 | | 2933.7306 | dipping- dipping my toe inside of youth ministry. | 2936.6356 |
2297 | | 2937.3387 | Um, | 2937.8627 |
2299 | | 2938.1128 | that's what I really wanna do. | 2939.4552 |
2301 | | 2939.8978 | I really wanna | 2940.9195 |
2303 | | 2941.1754 | give back to the community. | 2942.4297 |
2305 | | 2942.7748 | This might sound crazy but | 2944.2847 |
2307 | | 2944.5225 | I actually wanna have a organization where I feed the homeless | 2947.5860 |
2309 | | 2947.8462 | in our city. | 2948.6109 |
2311 | | 2949.0959 | Um, | 2949.6414 |
2313 | | 2950.0191 | just stuff like that. That's what I really | 2952.2937 |
2315 | | 2952.5269 | want to do, but | 2953.7677 |
2317 | | 2954.5496 | it takes <laugh> money and that's something I don't have at the moment. | 2957.9978 |
2319 | | 2958.4656 | And | 2959.0127 |
2321 | | 2959.3375 | I already owe like, | 2960.2095 |
2323 | | 2960.3680 | twenty thousand for school. (laughing) | 2962.2603 |
2325 | | 2962.6053 | And I guess that's another reason why I haven't been back to school, because | 2964.9636 |
2327 | | 2965.8405 | it's just too much. | 2966.9318 |
2329 | | 2967.4865 | But | 2967.8548 |
2331 | | 2968.1160 | that's what I really want to do. I wanna | 2970.2880 |
2333 | | 2970.6797 | continue to do mission work and, | 2972.5029 |
2335 | | 2973.2984 | um, | 2973.8354 |
2337 | | 2974.6087 | do th- youth ministry and, | 2976.8002 |
2339 | | 2978.4649 | <ts> um, | 2979.0570 |
2341 | | 2979.5738 | homeless- | 2980.2921 |
2343 | | 2980.9213 | homeslessness stuff, like feeding the homeless, | 2983.0523 |
2345 | | 2983.1997 | so. | 2983.5668 |
2346 | VLD_int_01 | 2986.3285 | Why did you say, it sounds crazy, when you said | 2988.7066 |
2348 | | 2989.0321 | whatchu wanted to do. That doesn't sound crazy. | 2990.9477 |
2350 | | 2991.7412 | Sounds amazing. | 2992.7643 |
2351 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2993.8992 | I guess it sounds crazy- <sigh> I don't know. | 2996.4685 |
2353 | | 2996.9199 | I don't know. | 2997.5454 |
2355 | | 2997.6799 | <laugh> | 2998.2517 |
2356 | VLD_int_01 | 2998.3327 | Once again, [stop- stop] being in your own way. | 3001.4340 |
2357 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 2999.1525 | [<laugh>] | 2999.6188 |
2358 | VLD_int_01 | 3001.6425 | Because think | 3002.4958 |
2360 | | 3002.6767 | all the things that you're trying to do, right, you- | 3004.6398 |
2361 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3004.6398 | [Mm-hm.] | 3005.0241 |
2362 | VLD_int_01 | 3004.9569 | [it's] clear, like all of them have the same message. You wanna | 3007.3410 |
2363 | | 3008.0606 | <ts> | 3008.2231 |
2365 | | 3008.5409 | help people. | 3009.4682 |
2367 | | 3009.8325 | You wanna, you know, make people lives as | 3012.2059 |
2369 | | 3012.5836 | much- better as it- as you can, like whatchu, you know, you can only control whatchu can control. | 3017.1158 |
2370 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3017.2549 | Mm-hm. | 3017.6961 |
2371 | VLD_int_01 | 3017.6961 | Um, | 3018.4043 |
2373 | | 3018.5541 | and I think- I think it's part of- | 3020.8156 |
2375 | | 3021.0301 | and then the definition of success, I think that was really interesting what you said, you know, for you dad it was really about making money, | 3026.1257 |
2377 | | 3026.3495 | and then for your mom. | 3027.3660 |
2379 | | 3028.5681 | Our parents want us to be better than they were, right? | 3030.4893 |
2380 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3030.4893 | Right. | 3030.8622 |
2381 | VLD_int_01 | 3030.8940 | And because she didn't graduate from high school, | 3033.1536 |
2383 | | 3033.4204 | um, she wants | 3034.5908 |
2385 | | 3034.7493 | you- like the definition of success [for her. Like,] | 3037.3885 |
2386 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3036.7591 | [Mm-hm.] | 3037.4382 |
2387 | VLD_int_01 | 3037.5517 | these pieces of paper. | 3038.7023 |
2389 | | 3039.5372 | Um, | 3040.2693 |
2391 | | 3040.3766 | I have a lot of pieces of paper, | 3041.9526 |
2392 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3042.2455 | [Mm-hm.] | 3042.7853 |
2393 | VLD_int_01 | 3042.2455 | [doesn't mean I'm] successful. | 3043.6807 |
2394 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3043.8075 | Mm-hm. | 3044.2039 |
2395 | VLD_int_01 | 3044.2039 | Um, | 3044.9127 |
2397 | | 3045.4806 | d- you know, cause definitions are gonna change, | 3048.0841 |
2399 | | 3048.3987 | and so what I want you to do | 3050.5017 |
2401 | | 3050.8607 | is | 3051.3991 |
2403 | | 3052.3752 | think about what defines success | 3054.3103 |
2405 | | 3054.6041 | for you. | 3055.3035 |
2407 | | 3056.8367 | And I get it, I totally get it, you- you know, you want your parents to be happy, all that. | 3061.4008 |
2409 | | 3062.1646 | I want my mom to be happy, | 3063.3720 |
2411 | | 3063.6194 | you know, | 3064.0773 |
2413 | | 3064.9344 | but at the end of the day | 3066.0981 |
2415 | | 3066.4909 | you're only going to be successful | 3068.0132 |
2417 | | 3068.2068 | when you define your success and you're working toward that. And when you're really | 3071.2508 |
2419 | | 3071.6565 | like, living your best life. | 3073.1817 |
2420 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3073.3986 | [Right.] | 3073.7856 |
2421 | VLD_int_01 | 3073.4032 | [In-] in the path that you're like, this is where I feel good, | 3076.1780 |
2422 | | 3076.4061 | right? | 3076.7791 |
2424 | | 3076.9097 | We talked about the mission trip, like that and- or doing mission work. | 3080.1365 |
2425 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3080.3118 | [Mm-hm.] | 3080.6529 |
2426 | VLD_int_01 | 3080.3118 | [And so how'd] you get into mission work, and then what do you have coming up that's exciting? | 3083.4044 |
2427 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3083.5199 | Um, <exhale> | 3084.8884 |
2429 | | 3085.4783 | when did I get into mission work? | 3087.3575 |
2431 | | 3088.3022 | I can say it started with Girls of Grace, | 3090.3259 |
2433 | | 3090.6663 | my first experience with (laughing) mission work. | 3092.9931 |
2435 | | 3093.3746 | It always go back to Girls of Grace. | 3094.6842 |
2437 | | 3095.0579 | But, um, Girls of Grace, um, | 3097.2672 |
2439 | | 3097.4537 | but more recently | 3098.8666 |
2441 | | 3098.9645 | I got into mission work two years ago | 3100.9730 |
2443 | | 3101.4060 | with | 3101.8283 |
2445 | | 3101.9656 | our pastor. | 3102.8610 |
2447 | | 3103.3458 | We change pastors at that church like drawers. (whispered) | 3105.6306 |
2449 | | 3105.9757 | But, (laughing) | 3106.6751 |
2451 | | 3106.9502 | we, um, | 3107.7469 |
2453 | | 3108.8229 | <ts> | 3109.0327 |
2455 | | 3109.5270 | our old pastor, she would go to Mexico or, um, | 3114.0780 |
2457 | | 3115.1542 | where else did she go? (whispered) | 3115.9982 |
2459 | | 3116.1381 | Panama, | 3116.7287 |
2461 | | 3117.3262 | and two years ago she went to the Dominican Republic. | 3120.0820 |
2463 | | 3120.4923 | And in the Dominican Republic, the United Methodist Church | 3123.3298 |
2465 | | 3123.5680 | has, um, | 3124.8132 |
2467 | | 3125.9927 | ties | 3126.8460 |
2469 | | 3127.2097 | with the United Methodist Church, | 3128.7379 |
2471 | | 3128.8875 | um, | 3129.4564 |
2473 | | 3130.1791 | with an- nother church in the Dominican Republic, I think that's how it goes. | 3133.6754 |
2475 | | 3134.2023 | But, um, | 3134.9526 |
2477 | | 3135.3858 | our district basically | 3137.0504 |
2479 | | 3137.3115 | sends them money | 3138.4306 |
2481 | | 3138.7850 | and | 3139.5701 |
2483 | | 3139.8417 | sometimes they send people to show them how to build certain things. | 3143.8238 |
2485 | | 3144.4020 | So the first time I went down there, | 3146.5816 |
2487 | | 3146.9228 | we went to do Bible study, | 3148.4382 |
2489 | | 3148.7320 | um, | 3149.1950 |
2491 | | 3149.3429 | and Vacation Bible School | 3150.8863 |
2493 | | 3151.3339 | with the kids. Um, | 3152.9846 |
2495 | | 3153.5796 | <ts> We also did a little bit of building too, but they didn't want the women | 3156.8856 |
2497 | | 3157.3193 | to do too much building because of, | 3159.2823 |
2499 | | 3159.6638 | you know, they feel like women shouldn't | 3161.1000 |
2501 | | 3161.4217 | have a hammer in they hands. | 3162.7227 |
2503 | | 3162.9278 | And I can understand that, you gotta respect their culture. | 3164.9087 |
2505 | | 3165.4076 | But, um, | 3166.0476 |
2507 | | 3167.0751 | that's what we were doing there last time. This go around, we're going back | 3170.8147 |
2509 | | 3171.2857 | and we're basically doing the same thing, | 3173.1723 |
2511 | | 3173.5658 | um, | 3174.0788 |
2513 | | 3174.2961 | but I'm gonna teach the kids how to make jump ropes out of t-shirts. | 3177.9985 |
2515 | | 3178.6186 | Where they can make the jump ropes and they can possibly sell the jump ropes, | 3182.7387 |
2517 | | 3183.1640 | because | 3183.7844 |
2519 | | 3183.9894 | they need to learn how to | 3184.8978 |
2521 | | 3185.2241 | build their economy down there. | 3186.6230 |
2523 | | 3187.2152 | Um, I'm also gonna teach them how to make | 3189.4245 |
2525 | | 3189.7089 | homemade maracas. | 3191.2255 |
2527 | | 3191.6898 | And, | 3192.3298 |
2529 | | 3192.5524 | um, we're gonna do Bible studies with 'em. | 3194.1937 |
2531 | | 3194.7393 | Um, then we're gonna go to, um, two of the poor schools. | 3197.4569 |
2533 | | 3197.8579 | We're gonna build I think six benches | 3200.6454 |
2535 | | 3201.0417 | and nine tables? | 3202.8920 |
2537 | | 3203.5999 | <ts> I think, | 3204.0890 |
2539 | | 3205.2048 | so. <exhale> | 3206.4582 |
2541 | | 3206.8919 | Yeah. | 3207.3162 |
2543 | | 3207.4794 | That's what we're doing | 3208.3347 |
2545 | | 3208.4484 | down there. | 3208.9706 |
2547 | | 3209.4229 | Um, two of the poor schools, they are really poor. They don't have | 3212.7933 |
2549 | | 3213.3109 | running water, | 3214.6351 |
2551 | | 3215.5817 | I don't- I don't even think they have a outhouse | 3217.5112 |
2553 | | 3218.2060 | in their facility. Um, | 3219.8464 |
2555 | | 3221.0355 | <ts> | 3221.1707 |
2557 | | 3221.3246 | but we did help them buy, uh, | 3223.6437 |
2559 | | 3224.9887 | this like- some type of, uh, | 3226.9276 |
2561 | | 3228.0597 | I don't know how to describe it, but it's like, basically they back their breads in it. | 3231.5569 |
2563 | | 3231.9066 | It's like, some type of clay | 3233.3755 |
2565 | | 3233.6114 | dome. | 3234.2969 |
2567 | | 3234.6839 | We did help them, um, | 3236.2797 |
2569 | | 3237.5283 | buy that. | 3238.3863 |
2571 | | 3238.9318 | But, um, | 3239.7039 |
2573 | | 3240.1199 | we're gonna go down there and help them do that, and we probably gonna | 3243.5052 |
2575 | | 3243.6582 | give them some money | 3244.7120 |
2577 | | 3244.9871 | so they can buy an outhouse. | 3246.6735 |
2578 | VLD_int_01 | 3246.8768 | Mm. | 3247.3068 |
2579 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3247.3410 | So they can go to the bathroom at least, instead of digging a hole somewhere and | 3251.1823 |
2581 | | 3251.4714 | using the bathroom | 3252.6651 |
2583 | | 3253.0008 | God knows where. | 3254.0173 |
2585 | | 3254.5611 | So, um, | 3255.3631 |
2587 | | 3256.3563 | that's what I'm gonna be doing in the next | 3258.2867 |
2589 | | 3259.0328 | two weeks. | 3259.8815 |
2591 | | 3260.8644 | Yeah, I'll be leaving in two weeks. | 3262.3659 |
2593 | | 3263.7647 | So, yeah. | 3264.4135 |
2594 | VLD_int_01 | 3264.5061 | What's your ultimate dream job? | 3266.1746 |
2595 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3267.2610 | Oh, man. (sighing) | 3269.3864 |
2597 | | 3270.5465 | <ts> | 3270.6888 |
2599 | | 3271.0874 | My ultimate dream job | 3273.0925 |
2601 | | 3274.7562 | /RD-NAME-2/ why you got me doing this? | 3276.8545 |
2603 | | 3279.2961 | My ultimate dream job, I would say is to have an organization where- | 3284.0103 |
2605 | | 3285.6554 | just a building where I can have | 3287.5289 |
2607 | | 3288.6769 | people to come in if they're hungry, if they need supplies, if they need help | 3293.1072 |
2609 | | 3293.8696 | applying for college, if they need help | 3296.3587 |
2611 | | 3298.0597 | with anything. With living assistance, anything, they can come in for free | 3302.1864 |
2613 | | 3303.1554 | and we'll help them with that. | 3304.7314 |
2615 | | 3306.0501 | That's my dream job. (crying) | 3307.3697 |
2617 | | 3315.7136 | So, | 3316.3217 |
2619 | | 3318.4554 | yeah. | 3319.1346 |
2621 | | 3329.4525 | [<laugh>] | 3330.8551 |
2622 | VLD_int_01 | 3330.3608 | [You know there's] money out there for that, right? | 3332.1612 |
2623 | | 3332.3162 | <clears throat> | 3333.1119 |
2624 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3333.4756 | No I did not. | 3334.4535 |
2625 | VLD_int_01 | 3335.6197 | There is. | 3336.4628 |
2627 | | 3337.7310 | There's a lot of money, um, private and | 3341.4138 |
2629 | | 3341.9361 | government- | 3342.9806 |
2631 | | 3343.4926 | Mm, /??/ goes with the government right now, but | 3345.7587 |
2632 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3346.0726 | [Right. <laugh>] | 3347.7687 |
2633 | VLD_int_01 | 3346.0758 | [They were-] | 3346.5468 |
2634 | | 3347.9541 | Um, there is a lot of money out | 3350.5466 |
2636 | | 3350.6903 | there to do those types of things and [get that] support. Especially, | 3354.1035 |
2637 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3352.7183 | [Mm-hm.] | 3353.0690 |
2638 | VLD_int_01 | 3354.3124 | um, because the ROI is going to be high, right? | 3356.6121 |
2640 | | 3356.8770 | When you're saving someone's life, | 3358.6714 |
2642 | | 3358.9371 | there's money, you know, cause people want- | 3360.7836 |
2644 | | 3361.6780 | well you have to l- get like, the | 3363.0955 |
2646 | | 3363.2401 | s- humanitarian centers and things like that, but people | 3365.8504 |
2648 | | 3366.2824 | give money to help | 3367.3172 |
2650 | | 3367.4918 | do those types of things. | 3368.8580 |
2652 | | 3369.2292 | And so I think, ultimately, | 3371.1736 |
2654 | | 3371.7239 | when you decide | 3372.7683 |
2656 | | 3372.9595 | how you wanna succeed, | 3374.4441 |
2658 | | 3376.4362 | then | 3377.3035 |
2660 | | 3378.0356 | you can start looking for | 3379.4345 |
2662 | | 3379.7655 | things that help you get to that | 3381.2790 |
2663 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3381.4442 | [Mm-hm.] | 3381.8350 |
2664 | VLD_int_01 | 3381.5421 | [level of] success. When your definition of success is what | 3384.2142 |
2665 | | 3384.5674 | is your definition of success, | 3386.0927 |
2667 | | 3386.4354 | and you're working and you're walking in | 3388.2306 |
2669 | | 3388.3985 | your light and your path, | 3389.9571 |
2671 | | 3390.3196 | there's money there, right. And so all these things that you're doing now are just setting you up for that, setting you up for that, right? Because [now you're learning] how to- | 3397.0557 |
2672 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3395.7361 | [Right.] | 3396.1105 |
2673 | VLD_int_01 | 3397.4894 | like you're teaching these kids how to make money so they can go and have money in their pockets or give to their families. | 3402.9301 |
2675 | | 3403.9783 | What's something that like- that | 3405.1509 |
2677 | | 3405.4051 | at the end of the day, all of them will have old, ratty t-shirts, right, or [old, ratty] clothes. | 3409.2511 |
2678 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3408.2346 | [Right.] | 3408.7237 |
2679 | VLD_int_01 | 3409.4703 | Okay, so turn that into something that can be profitable. | 3411.6703 |
2680 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3411.7309 | Mm-hm. | 3412.2485 |
2681 | VLD_int_01 | 3412.7614 | You're giving those skills, right. People with pay- | 3415.1945 |
2683 | | 3415.3251 | for like, work for- that's like you're teaching them kind of how to be entrepreneurs. How to, | 3419.4182 |
2685 | | 3419.6420 | um, make money, /say/ to stimulate the economy. All those things are available to- | 3423.6092 |
2687 | | 3424.6295 | <ts> there i- there is money to help, so I mean you'll have to frame it differently, right? Like you'll have to think about | 3429.1385 |
2689 | | 3429.3941 | how, you know, you have to say, what is this person want to hear for them to give me the money. | 3433.3287 |
2691 | | 3433.5292 | So they're- if this person's more interested in | 3435.7991 |
2693 | | 3436.2048 | me feeding the homeless, well part of my facility | 3438.9736 |
2695 | | 3439.1975 | will be, um, | 3440.3889 |
2697 | | 3440.5497 | you know, homeless outreach. If this [person's more] interested in making sure that, you know, people | 3444.7859 |
2698 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3442.5436 | [Mm-hm.] | 3442.9353 |
2699 | VLD_int_01 | 3444.9916 | have job skills, part of my facility will be | 3447.6821 |
2701 | | 3449.0335 | resume writing and interview skills, | 3452.0762 |
2702 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3452.0821 | [Right.] | 3452.3572 |
2703 | VLD_int_01 | 3452.3012 | [right.] And it could- all those things, it could be like you take one guy, | 3455.4898 |
2704 | | 3455.6110 | you know, you take Bobby | 3456.7114 |
2706 | | 3456.8280 | and Bobby comes in. Bobby's homeless, he doesn't have any food, you give him food, and- | 3460.1900 |
2708 | | 3460.3523 | and then he goes to workshops like, you know. | 3462.5102 |
2710 | | 3462.7201 | All those things could be housed under one thing, it's really just about how you're going to market | 3466.4868 |
2712 | | 3466.8365 | yourself and your ideas, so people will give you money. Because it's not- these aren't thing that- | 3470.9842 |
2714 | | 3472.4591 | that are like, you're trying to, you know, | 3474.4353 |
2716 | | 3474.6358 | take this water bottle to Mars tomorrow. | 3476.5429 |
2717 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3476.6119 | [Right.] | 3477.1248 |
2718 | VLD_int_01 | 3476.7565 | [Like these are] things that are very tangible | 3478.6263 |
2719 | | 3479.3071 | things that will be very helpful to the community, and I [think you can do] it. | 3482.6961 |
2720 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3481.9733 | [Right.] | 3482.4490 |
2721 | VLD_int_01 | 3482.9805 | Actually I- no, I know you [can do it.] | 3485.0188 |
2722 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3484.3459 | [<laugh>] | 3485.3675 |
2723 | VLD_int_01 | 3485.5946 | When- when you're ready to really get serious about it, | 3488.6162 |
2724 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3488.7421 | [Mm-hm.] | 3489.1804 |
2725 | VLD_int_01 | 3488.7421 | [let's have a] conversation. | 3489.8239 |
2726 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3490.4151 | [Mkay.] | 3490.8068 |
2727 | VLD_int_01 | 3490.4151 | [Um,] and let's think about | 3492.3408 |
2728 | | 3493.0021 | ways that we can get you, you know, you're a non-profit so you can do- you can get your five-o-one C three so you can get- apply for grants, | 3499.7298 |
2730 | | 3500.1262 | and- and start thinking about like, h- | 3502.0426 |
2732 | | 3502.2236 | like, what- | 3502.9043 |
2734 | | 3503.0909 | even to start small and then, you know, build up and build up. | 3505.9483 |
2735 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3506.3493 | [Right.] | 3506.7194 |
2736 | VLD_int_01 | 3506.4799 | [How did] you get into- one of the things- cause I know that | 3509.7197 |
2737 | | 3510.3492 | food and like, | 3512.0007 |
2739 | | 3513.0248 | um, | 3513.5517 |
2741 | | 3513.9294 | fellowship around food is really important to you. | 3515.9227 |
2742 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3515.9428 | [Mm-hm.] | 3516.3205 |
2743 | VLD_int_01 | 3516.2599 | [How] did that come about, was it a family tradition or something that you, just? | 3519.4677 |
2744 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3519.8867 | It was a family tradition. In growing up, | 3522.1194 |
2746 | | 3522.3059 | that's all we did. Like, um, | 3524.7306 |
2748 | | 3525.5690 | <ts> of course, you know, my mom used to be a caterer. | 3527.3969 |
2750 | | 3527.8165 | And | 3528.6046 |
2752 | | 3529.0979 | during the holidays sometimes my mom, | 3531.1064 |
2754 | | 3531.6345 | she would make this big spread and she would invite the entire family over or | 3536.0536 |
2756 | | 3536.3740 | neighbors over, | 3537.4305 |
2758 | | 3537.5630 | but | 3537.8475 |
2760 | | 3538.0060 | that's where it started at. It started at home | 3539.8758 |
2762 | | 3540.2255 | and | 3540.7843 |
2764 | | 3541.5824 | yeah. | 3542.0207 |
2766 | | 3542.9897 | Mom, thanks mom. | 3544.0296 |
2768 | | 3544.1834 | [<laugh>] | 3545.2059 |
2769 | VLD_int_01 | 3544.8036 | [Did she teach you] how to cook? | 3545.8285 |
2770 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3545.8285 | Oh yeah, I learn everything from my mom. | 3547.7543 |
2771 | VLD_int_01 | 3548.7475 | Tell me about- | 3549.7053 |
2773 | | 3550.2658 | do you have like, a memory of like, when you first- or even | 3553.0542 |
2774 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3553.3480 | Mmm-hm. | 3553.5718 |
2775 | VLD_int_01 | 3553.5718 | one of your favorite times cooking with your mom? | 3555.1653 |
2776 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3555.3204 | <ts> | 3555.4463 |
2778 | | 3556.1364 | Um, | 3556.9708 |
2780 | | 3560.0001 | I can say when I was younger I enjoyed cooking with my mom. Like, my first time- | 3564.7501 |
2782 | | 3565.1191 | I think the first dish she taught me how to cook was macaroni and cheese. | 3568.8485 |
2784 | | 3569.9947 | When I was younger, | 3570.9785 |
2786 | | 3571.1511 | aroung thirteen, fourteen- it was fun. But now | 3573.6109 |
2788 | | 3573.9535 | it's so aggravating, because my mom like, no you don't do that you do this, you know. | 3577.8603 |
2790 | | 3578.3161 | It's a little different now, it's like- | 3580.1393 |
2792 | | 3583.7242 | like, mom lemme do this I'm an adult now. I- I know my taste buds, let me- let me do it, mkay, you just sit back now. | 3589.8215 |
2794 | | 3590.3111 | But, um, | 3591.0571 |
2796 | | 3591.6950 | <ts> making macaroni and cheese at the time, | 3593.5742 |
2798 | | 3594.3669 | it was really fun because | 3596.1359 |
2800 | | 3598.3416 | she was also | 3600.0622 |
2802 | | 3600.4353 | talking to- well she was teaching me how to make the recipe | 3603.1304 |
2804 | | 3603.4661 | but she was also telling me things about life. | 3606.2910 |
2806 | | 3606.5474 | You know, it's almost like a | 3608.0454 |
2808 | | 3608.6131 | counseling session, I guess. | 3610.3849 |
2810 | | 3610.7515 | Like, you- we would cook and talk about life, | 3613.5912 |
2812 | | 3614.1228 | and | 3614.7149 |
2814 | | 3615.6010 | that's one the things I can remember about | 3617.7543 |
2816 | | 3618.2439 | making that dish with my mom. I- I remember most the things that we were | 3621.2832 |
2818 | | 3621.6423 | talking about, instead of | 3623.2920 |
2820 | | 3623.5252 | <laugh> the recipe of the mac and cheese. | 3625.4902 |
2822 | | 3625.8146 | Granted, I still remember the recipe, but | 3627.9930 |
2824 | | 3628.4343 | just | 3629.0917 |
2826 | | 3629.8378 | talking to her about | 3631.0111 |
2828 | | 3631.4960 | you know, growing up and | 3633.1795 |
2830 | | 3633.7575 | talking about how to be a woman. Talking about, | 3636.1207 |
2832 | | 3636.2186 | you know, whatchu gotta do when you get married and have kids, like, stuff like that I remember. | 3640.9552 |
2833 | VLD_int_01 | 3641.7806 | How old were you when your mom got remarried? | 3643.5151 |
2834 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3643.8779 | <ts> | 3644.0411 |
2836 | | 3645.2442 | Mm, | 3646.2775 |
2838 | | 3648.4560 | <ts> | 3649.4912 |
2840 | | 3650.4135 | I think I was four, | 3651.9383 |
2842 | | 3652.4699 | four or five | 3653.6216 |
2844 | | 3654.3061 | around that time. | 3655.2714 |
2846 | | 3655.7750 | Because me and /RD-NAME-3/ are four years ap- | 3657.1093 |
2848 | | 3657.2111 | no, | 3657.4583 |
2850 | | 3657.7698 | five years apart, | 3658.8785 |
2852 | | 3659.1220 | so I think around that time. | 3660.4034 |
2853 | VLD_int_01 | 3660.4500 | Do you remember it? | 3661.2250 |
2854 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3663.3457 | Not [really.] | 3663.9929 |
2855 | VLD_int_01 | 3663.8810 | [Not] really? | 3664.5292 |
2856 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3664.5385 | Not really. | 3665.3452 |
2858 | | 3666.6881 | [Mm-mm.] | 3667.4099 |
2859 | VLD_int_01 | 3666.6881 | [Do you have a close relationship] with Mr. /RD-NAME-1/? | 3668.3705 |
2860 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3670.5341 | Um, <exhale> | 3672.2025 |
2862 | | 3673.5174 | somewhat. It's not as close like | 3676.0718 |
2864 | | 3676.1697 | him and /RD-NAME-3/. | 3677.0579 |
2865 | VLD_int_01 | 3677.4380 | [Mm.] | 3677.9439 |
2866 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3678.0153 | You know, it's- it's different. | 3679.4041 |
2868 | | 3680.6032 | Um, | 3681.2980 |
2870 | | 3682.9804 | I wish it was closer, but it's- it's just not. | 3686.2762 |
2872 | | 3686.9896 | But, um, | 3687.5631 |
2874 | | 3687.8373 | he still my dad and I still love him. | 3689.7123 |
2875 | VLD_int_01 | 3691.0734 | Um, | 3691.7816 |
2877 | | 3692.1309 | so | 3693.0309 |
2879 | | 3693.3200 | talk about- | 3694.2712 |
2881 | | 3694.6909 | how did you- mm. | 3695.7822 |
2883 | | 3696.2940 | Let me back up. | 3697.0541 |
2885 | | 3697.3618 | Thinking about kind of | 3698.8653 |
2887 | | 3702.0322 | being | 3703.0208 |
2889 | | 3703.2959 | like, the family dinners [and things] like that, | 3705.9392 |
2890 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3704.8346 | [Mm-hm.] | 3705.2963 |
2891 | VLD_int_01 | 3707.9346 | how do you- do you think that made you guys stronger | 3710.4646 |
2893 | | 3710.5626 | as a family, or was it just something you had to do because your mom said we gonna do this? | 3715.0030 |
2894 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3715.1089 | <laugh> That's a good question. | 3717.1690 |
2896 | | 3717.6400 | Um, | 3718.4607 |
2898 | | 3719.4678 | <ts> | 3719.6171 |
2900 | | 3720.2792 | I can say it made us stronger even though | 3722.7303 |
2902 | | 3723.0844 | today now, we | 3724.1743 |
2904 | | 3724.5299 | don't eat together. | 3725.4952 |
2906 | | 3725.6724 | But, | 3726.0407 |
2908 | | 3726.4082 | you know, we still will go to war for each other. | 3728.8236 |
2910 | | 3729.3038 | Um, | 3729.8916 |
2912 | | 3730.5060 | <ts> not only that, I am grateful that we had that experience | 3733.9472 |
2914 | | 3734.4023 | of sitting at the table and eating around each other, because | 3737.3213 |
2916 | | 3738.7901 | it did make us stronger. It did make us, you know, | 3741.4960 |
2918 | | 3741.8388 | unified, and we | 3743.0796 |
2920 | | 3743.4568 | actually learned a lot about each other, sitting at the table and fellowshipping. | 3747.1154 |
2922 | | 3747.5956 | Where now it's like, | 3748.9572 |
2924 | | 3749.0551 | okay well I know she's gonna eat this last piece of pork chop, or if she wants hocks on the pork chop, | 3753.3254 |
2926 | | 3753.5679 | so I'm just gonna leave it there on the side for her. | 3755.3669 |
2928 | | 3755.6513 | But, <laugh> | 3756.5512 |
2930 | | 3757.0082 | we- | 3757.8630 |
2932 | | 3758.1739 | it did make us stronger | 3759.3901 |
2934 | | 3759.5159 | growing up, | 3760.1128 |
2936 | | 3760.8589 | because | 3761.5070 |
2938 | | 3762.3445 | kids nowadays | 3763.4356 |
2940 | | 3763.7247 | they- they don't even experience that, | 3765.7158 |
2941 | VLD_int_01 | 3765.9862 | Mm-hm. | 3766.6117 |
2942 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3766.6117 | you know. | 3767.1893 |
2943 | | 3767.5250 | But, um, | 3768.1638 |
2945 | | 3769.5991 | <ts> yeah. | 3770.0887 |
2946 | VLD_int_01 | 3771.6554 | So I'm gonna ask you a serious question, then I'm [gonna ask you some-] | 3773.8026 |
2947 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3773.0627 | [Mm-hm.] | 3773.5710 |
2948 | VLD_int_01 | 3773.9570 | <clears throat> couple of fun questions. | 3775.4541 |
2949 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3775.4541 | Mm-hm. | 3775.9112 |
2950 | VLD_int_01 | 3777.1456 | Was there ever a time | 3778.5398 |
2952 | | 3779.1133 | that you were like, oh my God I'm about to die? | 3781.0217 |
2954 | | 3781.6873 | This is it. Like, something's gonna happen to me, I'm about to die. [Tell me about it.] | 3785.0949 |
2955 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3784.4048 | [Mm-hm.] | 3784.9084 |
2956 | | 3785.9809 | Um, | 3786.8720 |
2958 | | 3788.4140 | <ts> I was- I think I was in middle school, I had | 3791.5606 |
2960 | | 3791.6865 | the strep throat, and my temperature was like- | 3793.7512 |
2962 | | 3795.6770 | it was up there. It was like, one o three | 3797.7015 |
2964 | | 3797.8723 | I believe, to where the point | 3799.3458 |
2966 | | 3799.8168 | where they thought I was gonna die. | 3801.0721 |
2968 | | 3801.2613 | Um, | 3801.8209 |
2970 | | 3803.2617 | only thing I remember is | 3804.8509 |
2972 | | 3804.9628 | blacking out and not | 3806.2370 |
2974 | | 3808.0301 | feel anything. Like, I thought I was sleep but | 3810.9282 |
2976 | | 3811.1300 | apparently | 3811.9693 |
2978 | | 3813.1910 | something else was going on. | 3814.5044 |
2980 | | 3814.9900 | But, um, | 3815.6847 |
2982 | | 3818.4070 | <ts> yeah. | 3818.9618 |
2984 | | 3819.2183 | I remember going to the hospital | 3820.7338 |
2986 | | 3820.9995 | and | 3821.6794 |
2988 | | 3822.5141 | the doctors was- wa- rushing in, and they was like, we gotta get her temp down because something | 3827.2451 |
2990 | | 3827.8513 | bad is gonna happen. And m- I just remember my mom, | 3830.7396 |
2992 | | 3831.6693 | you know, having her hands on me and | 3833.4500 |
2994 | | 3834.4381 | praying over me, and I- | 3836.2153 |
2996 | | 3836.9654 | yeah. | 3837.4081 |
2998 | | 3838.0286 | That's all I r- remember really, but, | 3840.2192 |
3000 | | 3840.8432 | um, | 3841.3934 |
3002 | | 3842.0462 | I remember leaving the hospital. My mom, (laughing) | 3844.3310 |
3004 | | 3844.7544 | she said, girl you almost died on us, you know, and | 3847.6594 |
3006 | | 3848.0697 | I'm happy I prayed over you cause | 3849.8272 |
3008 | | 3850.1019 | they didn't think you were gonna make it out. (laughing) | 3851.8082 |
3010 | | 3852.0127 | [And,] (laughing) | 3852.9538 |
3011 | VLD_int_01 | 3852.4138 | [Hm.] | 3852.9966 |
3012 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3853.0983 | But, um, | 3854.0576 |
3014 | | 3854.2920 | yeah. That's- that's pretty much all I remember. | 3857.1899 |
3016 | | 3857.8078 | Um, | 3858.4275 |
3018 | | 3858.9960 | but before going to the hospital, I do remember passing out several times. | 3862.3672 |
3020 | | 3862.8793 | Um, | 3863.3828 |
3022 | | 3864.9076 | but yeah. It was almost | 3866.4445 |
3024 | | 3866.7430 | like a blur, | 3867.6149 |
3026 | | 3867.8434 | to be honest. | 3868.6373 |
3028 | | 3869.3262 | And I was almost a little bit at peace. | 3871.5612 |
3030 | | 3872.5483 | You know, I really- honestly I felt like I didn't wanna | 3875.0654 |
3032 | | 3875.2938 | leave that peace | 3876.5724 |
3034 | | 3876.8588 | If that makes any [sense.] | 3878.0898 |
3035 | VLD_int_01 | 3877.5116 | [Mm-hm.] | 3878.3975 |
3036 | VLD_se0_ag2_f_01 | 3878.6633 | But, um, | 3879.3860 |
3038 | | 3879.9456 | yeah. | 3880.3868 |
3040 | | 3881.2745 | That's what | 3882.0206 |
3042 | | 3882.1885 | I remember | 3882.9065 |
3044 | | 3883.1070 | almost dying. <laugh> | 3885.0226 |
3045 | VLD_int_01 | 3885.0972 | Wow. (whispered) | 3885.9215 |