Line	Speaker	St Time	Content	En Time
1	ROC_int_01	0.484	Um, I usually say about forty minutes.	3.332
2	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3.371	Okay.	3.748
3	ROC_int_01	3.911	Yeah.	4.166
4	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	4.513	I don't want	5.394
6		5.971	you to be interrupted. I should put my phone on vibrate too.	8.48
7	ROC_int_01	12.186	I like your nails. I love nude color.	14.886
8	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	15.138	Nude is like [the only color] that I	17.274
9	ROC_int_01	15.796	[Mm-hm.]	16.289
10	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	17.492	can really wear and feel good in besides black.	20.258
11	ROC_int_01	20.266	Yeah.	20.709
12	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	20.718	Or gray.	21.194
13	ROC_int_01	21.217	Yeah, that's a good point. [Yeah.]	23.418
14	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	22.901	[I'm like] slowly getting into flesh tones. I feel like I'm growing up [because I- I] can now wear another color.	28.705
15	ROC_int_01	26.3	[<laugh>]	27.304
16		28.747	Yeah.	29.302
17	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	30.037	Okay.	30.793
19		32.975	/Alright, hey/.	33.427
20	ROC_int_01	33.441	Awesome,	33.971
22		34.082	so,	34.786
24		35.108	uh, have you grown up in Rochester your entire life?	38.467
25	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	38.69	Yes, [I] have.	39.712
26	ROC_int_01	39.096	[Okay.]	39.367
27		40.057	Okay cool. And where did- where were you born, I guess which part of the city did you grow up [in?]	43.879
28	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	43.791	[Um], the s- the South Side, the South Wedge.	46.496
29		47.213	/RD-ADDRESS-3/-	48.266
31		49.366	whatever neighborhood.	50.481
33		50.742	That's a silly name, [but]	52.246
34	ROC_int_01	52.066	[Yeah.]	52.5
35	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	52.655	yeah. And then I grew up around there. I've never lived anywhere else	55.729
37		55.962	other then like /RD-ADDRESS-3/.	57.772
38	ROC_int_01	58.243	Okay.	58.677
39	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	59.059	Kind of around like, school.	60.388
40	ROC_int_01	60.718	Yeah,	61.218
42		61.401	[yeah <laugh>]	62.401
43	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	61.464	[Pretty much. I've always] lived around there.	63.077
44		63.339	Except for-	64.299
46		64.784	there was- there were like two years when	66.55
48		67.362	I lived in the hood, but	68.425
49	ROC_int_01	68.52	[Mm-hm.]	68.942
50	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	68.746	[that] ended quickly.	69.866
51	ROC_int_01	69.926	[<laugh>]	70.518
52	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	71.194	And- and then I just moved back over here.	73.166
53	ROC_int_01	73.324	Yeah.	73.688
55		74.154	Okay. And when you say the hood, what's the hood to you?	76.425
56	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	76.658	<ts>	76.775
58		77.008	It was-	78.546
60		79.189	<laugh>	79.627
62		80.201	it was- it was /RD-ADDRESS-4/. It was between /RD-ADDRESS-5/ on the East Side. And there was a memorial literally	85.478
64		86.565	right in front of my porch with like, mad teddy bears and [stuff.]	88.974
65	ROC_int_01	88.862	[Yeah], yeah, [okay.]	90.242
66	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	89.713	[Like, someone] got shot	91.035
67		91.366	right there. [And there was] like a bullet hole in my room. [Like in my wall.]	95.319
68	ROC_int_01	92.212	[Mm-hm.]	92.901
70		94.256	[Oh, wow.]	95.305
71	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	96.242	Um, I guess it went through.	97.595
73		97.985	I've always thought it was kind of cool, but-	99.818
75		100.438	but then on the way to school one day, I got like, chased by some girls who wanted my coat.	103.972
76	ROC_int_01	104.936	Woah.	105.225
77	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	105.487	And then I just ran. I ran and ran and ran until- it was in the morning and I was waiting for the bus. And [I ran and ran] until I caught the bus. And I was like,	111.676
78	ROC_int_01	109.562	[Mm-hm.]	110.111
79	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	111.81	I- maybe I should move, maybe we should move. Like (laughing) [this isn't] working out. Like (laughing).	116.046
80	ROC_int_01	114.163	[Yeah.]	114.639
81		116.256	Yeah, then it was like right away.	117.957
82	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	118.06	But other than that, you know, it wasn't so bad.	119.701
83	ROC_int_01	119.897	[Mm-hm.]	120.433
84	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	119.902	[At all.]	120.438
85		120.648	I just- I think I need to stick to, uh, The Wedge.	123.454
87		123.561	[And-] and Monroe.	124.759
88	ROC_int_01	123.561	[Yeah.]	123.934
89	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	124.946	[<laugh>]	126.108
90	ROC_int_01	124.974	[Yeah, nah, I hear you.]	126.214
91		126.793	And, um, did you grow up with your mom and dad or-	129.575
92	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	129.626	Nope, just my mom.	130.498
93	ROC_int_01	130.498	Your mom, okay, cool. And what does your mom do?	133.03
94	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	133.133	My mom is a preschool teacher.	134.978
95	ROC_int_01	135.03	Oh, okay [cool.]	136.428
96	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	136.181	[Yep.] She works for a not-for-profit, um, on the East Side.	139.287
97		140.266	It's called /RD-WORK-6/.	141.897
98	ROC_int_01	142.046	Okay.	142.489
100		142.904	I've heard of that actually. [That sounds] familiar.	145.347
101	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	144.322	[Yep.]	144.732
102		145.646	She's been there for like ten years. It sucks because	148.141
104		148.547	everything is-	149.109
106		150.004	it works off of funding,	151.082
107	ROC_int_01	151.226	[Mm-hm.]	151.678
108	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	151.391	[so.]	151.944
109		152.745	I don't know. I always felt like she should make more because she does a lot, but	155.93
111		157.268	everyone says teachers make shitty pay. And I guess that's true.	160.68
112	ROC_int_01	160.694	Mm-hm, yeah.	161.911
113	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	162.34	It sucks though. I feel like,	163.826
115		163.934	it's-	164.245
117		164.719	it's so much	165.598
119		165.943	more important than people seem to think. [And] I always think like she comes home tired when they have a cold, she catches the cold, she brings it home. [Like],	172.33
120	ROC_int_01	168.144	[Mm-hm.]	168.578
122		171.911	[Right.]	172.344
123	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	172.759	she'll come home like, bruised because like some little kid- some badass little kid decided to like, punch her. Like, some of them	178.985
125		179.209	are like	179.599
127		179.823	<ts>	179.897
129		180.256	problem children.	181.52
130	ROC_int_01	181.525	Right.	182.047
131	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	182.163	Which I don't think that's true either, but.	184.854
132	ROC_int_01	185.053	Mm-hm.	185.641
133	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	186	They just are a little bit out of control and	188.188
135		188.43	so,	188.788
137		189.906	yeah.	190.321
139		190.778	But I think she should	191.995
141		192.289	make a lot more (whispered).	193.119
143		193.361	but (whispered) that's what she does.	194.13
144	ROC_int_01	194.237	Yeah.	194.708
145	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	194.815	And she likes it, so.	196.107
146	ROC_int_01	196.545	Okay. So did she have any preferences I guess growing up, on where to send you to school?	201.165
148		201.673	Seeing as though like, she's a teacher and what not	203.767
149	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	203.957	<ts>	204.168
151		204.238	Um, she didn't work when I was	205.731
153		205.86	growing up. [She just] took care of me.	207.584
154	ROC_int_01	206.406	[Okay.]	206.672
155	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	207.995	So,	208.592
157		209.207	she didn't work until I was sixteen.	211.413
159		211.898	Um,	212.504
161		212.919	/We had to go/ live with my grandmother. I guess she just really wanted to raise me herself like, she didn't want to put me in daycare.	217.549
162	ROC_int_01	217.577	Mm-hm.	218.127
163	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	218.193	Or anything, um.	219.46
165		220.211	So I grew up a little isolated.	222.439
167		222.701	Like (laughing).	223.241
169		224.029	I guess. And she,	225.627
171		225.855	just,	226.369
173		228.407	she knew that I was always artsy and /RD-SCHOOL-4/ was her first choice.	232.266
174	ROC_int_01	232.294	Mm-hm.	232.803
175	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	233.162	Um,	233.726
177		234.561	cause it was my first choice, I thought it would be fun.	236.965
179		237.399	And so, I got in. That was back when the lottery was a thing.	240.888
180	ROC_int_01	240.887	Right.	241.395
181		241.586	<ts>	241.745
183		241.88	Wait so you've been going since sixth [grade?] Oh, okay I thought you came for high [school.]	246.495
184	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	243.651	[Yeah.]	243.921
186		246.258	[Mm-mm] nope. I was there since sixth grade.	248.556
187	ROC_int_01	248.662	Wow.	249.171
188	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	249.161	It was the best. I would go back right now.	250.849
189	ROC_int_01	250.859	Yeah, [okay.]	251.549
190	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	251.148	[Like], fuck being an adult.	252.413
191	ROC_int_01	252.449	[<laugh> agreed.]	254.57
192	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	253.236	[I would go back right] now, tomorrow, and it would be the best.	256.44
193	ROC_int_01	256.462	Yeah.	256.891
194	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	256.985	I can't think of like a better time period in my life than high school, even though I was not popular.	261.213
195	ROC_int_01	261.399	[Mm-hm.]	261.716
196	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	261.59	[At] all (laughing).	262.635
197	ROC_int_01	262.77	Girl, me and you both [<laugh>.]	265.203
198	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	264.634	[I was] so-	265.926
199		266.327	oh I was ugly [until like the ten grade. Like, I was. I was.] It was horrible. And then I got boobs. And then high school	273.483
200	ROC_int_01	267.208	[/I was telling people/, stop, stop.]	270.229
201	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	273.87	was like	274.528
203		274.774	totally different. But [even before like],	276.742
204	ROC_int_01	275.846	[<laugh>]	276.742
205	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	277.282	even when no one talked to me, like	279.152
207		279.353	it was still the best. I loved it.	281.189
209		281.441	Didn't you love it?	282.229
210	ROC_int_01	282.401	Yeah. I actually miss high school a lot too.	285.255
212		285.815	I mean yeah. I'm not with this being a grown up [stuff.]	288.617
213	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	288.137	[No.]	288.571
214	ROC_int_01	288.785	[Like-]	289.116
215	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	289.031	[No] no, no no, I'm not either (laughing).	291.68
216	ROC_int_01	291.708	You know, but you were like me. I grew up with my mom. My mom was a stay-at-home mom.	296.873
218		297.251	Like most of my life [so.]	298.994
219	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	298.865	[Yeah.]	299.251
220	ROC_int_01	299.438	Yeah.	299.82
221	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	299.829	I'd like to be a stay at home mom.	301.424
222	ROC_int_01	301.573	Yeah.	301.988
223	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	302.36	I really would.	303.017
224	ROC_int_01	303.335	I think it's really beneficial for the kids. I mean,	305.559
226		306.058	society like,	307.152
228		307.6	could look down on it sometimes. And they're like, oh I'll be able to- /if you're a woman and all the-/ I'm like nah,	312.474
229	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	312.481	[No.]	312.978
230	ROC_int_01	312.664	[I loved] it.	313.41
231		313.531	<laugh>	314.088
232	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	314.134	Yeah.	314.647
234		314.918	I- I absolutely agree.	316.771
236		317.037	I-	317.615
238		318.496	It's a job.	319.17
240		319.503	It's, uh, a [legitimate job.]	320.836
241	ROC_int_01	320.256	[Mm-hm.]	320.832
242		321.389	Mm-hm.	321.696
243	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	321.724	Too bad people don't	322.473
245		322.638	see it that way but it is.	323.703
247		323.864	It's just as important as going and punching in somewhere.	326.829
249		326.99	I mean it's way better, cause who even wants to punch in somewhere. Like,	329.51
250	ROC_int_01	329.915	Mm-hm.	330.198
251	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	330.193	I've never been able to keep a job that I punch in at.	332.176
252		332.507	Ever.	332.843
253	ROC_int_01	332.997	Yeah.	333.235
254	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	333.356	Like, I	334.34
256		334.827	unintentionally just,	335.766
258		335.941	like I think mess it up, because I can't do it.	338.398
259	ROC_int_01	338.547	Mm.	339.084
261		339.167	[Yeah, yeah.]	339.724
262	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	339.17	[I think- I] think it's slowly just grows and grows. Like the resentment, or whatever of being like in a place, where you're monitored, like,	346.41
263		346.554	uh, I'm gonna punch in now, I'm gonna punch out, like I- it feels so normal that it's terrible.	350.57
264	ROC_int_01	350.638	Mm-hm.	351.074
265	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	351.151	So eventually, like	352.132
267		352.573	I get fired or I quit (laughing).	353.79
268	ROC_int_01	353.934	Yeah.	354.414
269	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	354.505	But,	354.799
271		355.202	Yeah.	355.696
273		356.113	I w- I would like to be a stay-at-home mom someday.	358.009
274	ROC_int_01	358.223	Yeah. Nah I'm- I don't blame you. [<laugh>]	360.734
275	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	360.594	[Before] my ovaries, like atrophy, [and die], hopefully	364.417
276	ROC_int_01	362.969	[<laugh>]	363.818
277		364.417	Girl, you still got time.	365.538
278	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	365.549	<psh> Mm-mm, where?	366.769
279	ROC_int_01	366.951	<laugh>	367.675
280	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	367.68	Where? (laughing)	368.37
281	ROC_int_01	368.472	You still got time. I [mean-]	369.948
282	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	369.783	[<laugh>]	370.668
283	ROC_int_01	370.808	Yeah.	371.344
285		371.919	But [<laugh> right I don't know about here, but]	375.921
286	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	372.39	[Mm-hm, I don't know. No, no, no.]	375.569
287		376.744	I don't know.	377.351
288	ROC_int_01	378.409	Well, in high school you said-	380.306
290		380.505	did you mostly hang out by yourself then, from, [like, six to tenth or-]	383.928
291	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	382.726	[Um.]	383.094
293		383.514	[Yeah], I did.	385.853
294	ROC_int_01	386.125	[Mm.]	386.591
295	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	386.577	[I-] I-	387.391
296		387.546	from like, tenth on, I had like a couple of friends that I	390.206
298		390.329	finally felt like I fit in with, but	391.749
300		392.85	I didn't	393.437
302		394.232	have like,	395.176
304		395.92	I didn't have	396.576
306		396.796	a place where I felt like I belonged. It [wasn't.]	399.246
307	ROC_int_01	398.635	[Mm-hm.]	399.211
308	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	400.024	Like, I kind of got like the shitty end of the stick in high school.	403.418
310		403.608	<laugh>	404.014
311	ROC_int_01	403.987	Mm.	404.536
312	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	404.571	[For-] for a while. [Like],	405.751
313	ROC_int_01	405.677	[Yeah.]	406.047
314	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	406.071	I loved school. I loved actual school. [Like I never] hated school, but,	409.852
315	ROC_int_01	408.299	[Yeah.]	408.555
316	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	410.675	uh,	411.202
318		411.378	it took a while to find people who I think	413.766
320		413.949	like,	414.285
322		414.414	wanted to be friend and by tenth grade, I think	416.822
324		417.069	maybe I found them.	418.003
325	ROC_int_01	418.36	Mm-hm.	418.943
327		419.43	Do you still talk with them or-	420.963
328	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	421.061	<ts>	421.178
330		421.302	Yeah I do, actually.	423.246
332		423.383	Um,	423.961
334		424.783	I talk to at least a couple of them. And it's funny cause we are still	428.215
336		428.324	really close.	429.111
337	ROC_int_01	429.129	Okay.	429.463
339		429.677	[That's good.]	430.173
340	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	429.805	[Um.]	430.346
341		430.595	and-it- it's funny how it turned out that way, but	432.432
343		432.588	I think we always will be.	433.882
344	ROC_int_01	434.083	Mm-hm.	434.579
345	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	435.005	Yeah there is	435.805
347		436.033	someone that I don't talk to anymore. And	438.658
349		439.846	um,	440.467
351		440.749	and then obviously, like,	442.138
353		442.98	I dated /RD-NAME-1/ after high [school.]	444.849
354	ROC_int_01	444.336	[Oh yeah.]	444.847
355	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	444.968	[Forever.]	445.525
356	ROC_int_01	444.975	[Right.]	445.528
357		445.646	[Mm-hm.]	446.038
358	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	445.672	[We're- we're] good. We're just not together. [But],	447.777
359	ROC_int_01	447.562	[Yeah.]	447.866
360	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	448.313	um,	448.793
362		449.668	and that was funny	450.512
364		450.623	too cause that,	451.717
366		452.136	I thought we were gonna get married. And I was like, am I really gonna marry someone that I met in fucking high school, like,	457.451
367	ROC_int_01	457.661	Mm-hm.	457.959
368	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	458.026	I've known him for so long. <laugh>	460.057
369	ROC_int_01	460.136	[Yeah.]	460.537
370	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	460.358	[How] are we s- how are we still like, in contact. In a- in a thing. How?	464.463
371	ROC_int_01	464.487	Mm-hm.	465.075
372	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	465.006	But	465.274
373		465.467	it's just like that, I feel like,	466.875
375		467.197	I don't know, if it was like the class of o-seven.	469.227
377		469.835	or- uh- something about us, [but]	471.576
378	ROC_int_01	471.182	[Mm-hm.]	471.695
379	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	472.577	yeah I'm still pretty close to a lot of	474.977
381		475.682	the people who I was back then.	476.952
382	ROC_int_01	477.355	And was your major, art?	478.758
384		479.129	Right? [Or visual?]	480.108
385	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	479.414	[It was theater.]	480.439
386	ROC_int_01	481.316	Theater, okay.	482.362
387	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	482.695	[Mm-hm.]	483.204
388	ROC_int_01	482.882	[I didn't] know that.	483.987
389	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	484.006	It was.	484.598
390	ROC_int_01	484.621	Yeah, okay.	485.639
392		485.779	Cool.	486.36
394		486.696	And, um,	487.934
396		488.271	what'd you like, I guess about, the theater program at /RD-SCHOOL-4/?	491.765
397	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	492.56	Um, I liked, the fact that I didn't have to take gym, cause they made us take gym cause they made us take dance.	497.416
398	ROC_int_01	497.455	Oh.	498.098
400		498.258	[Yeah.]	498.689
401	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	498.453	[And] they also taught you how to sing.	500.563
402		500.731	And I-	501.283
404		501.88	It was like a bunch of majors in one.	503.518
405	ROC_int_01	503.528	Mm-hm.	504.068
406	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	504.108	W- we had to take dance everyday.	505.593
408		506.197	And we also, like	507.5
410		507.815	had to take voice lessons.	509.029
411	ROC_int_01	509.098	[Right.]	509.693
412	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	509.122	[so it's kind of like], a little bit of vocal, and it was a lot of dance actually.	511.871
413	ROC_int_01	511.912	Mm-hm.	512.406
414	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	512.437	And it was interesting, and it was fun. And	514.794
416		515.863	that's what attracted me to it.	517.647
417	ROC_int_01	517.824	Yeah, did you have favorite shows while you were there or-	520.924
418	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	521.022	I couldn't.	521.537
420		522.194	I- I couldn't participate in all the shows. And I really wanted too, [cause I didn't have a] ride back	526.84
421	ROC_int_01	525.616	[Mm-hm.]	526.126
422	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	527.122	from like, late [rehearsals]	528.414
423	ROC_int_01	527.992	[Okay.]	528.528
424	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	528.502	and my mom, I guess was a little overprotective, and she worried. /And/	531.74
425		532.341	she couldn't like, drive me home	534.213
427		534.836	at the times when	536.076
429		536.201	rehearsals would end	537.952
430	ROC_int_01	538.036	[Mm-hm.]	538.656
431	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	538.069	[And]	538.887
432		539.968	I guess I always kind of resented her for that, cause I would have been on the stage a lot more.	543.229
434		543.7	[But.]	544.141
435	ROC_int_01	543.759	[Yeah.]	544.15
436	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	544.502	I mean,	545.15
438		545.385	we- we had to see all of the shows too anyway.	548.558
439	ROC_int_01	548.681	Mm-hm.	549.206
440	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	549.276	So we could like, write about them. And	551.013
442		551.217	so we got to see them all anyway.	552.916
444		553.267	I don't know if I had a favorite show.	554.826
446		555.307	I swore we were gonna do Grease one day,	557.208
447	ROC_int_01	557.39	Yeah.	557.747
448	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	557.749	so I learned all the songs, just because I thought we were gonna do it. And I was like,	561.202
450		561.265	wait, I was like when we do it,	562.833
452		563.148	like in September when we found out all the shows that were gonna happen. I was like watch, one day, I'm gonna come to school, like one year,	568.745
454		569.178	and they're gonna say Grease, and I'm gonna kill [everything. because I know], every song. And like,	573.399
455	ROC_int_01	571.37	[<laugh>]	572.284
456	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	573.508	it [n- never] happened but-	574.984
457	ROC_int_01	573.613	[Yeah.]	574.168
458		575.385	[Mm-hm.]	575.921
459	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	575.874	[So] I always hoped we would do Grease, but we didn't.	577.581
460		577.934	I was in one play.	578.762
462		579.228	And I was in the ninth grade.	580.447
464		581.083	And I was a second lead.	582.038
465	ROC_int_01	582.271	[Mm-hm.]	582.752
466	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	582.724	[Which] I guess was okay, but it wasn't good enough.	584.453
467	ROC_int_01	584.648	Mm, [y- yeah.]	586.2
468	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	584.997	[You know it wasn't good enough for me.]	586.2
469	ROC_int_01	586.755	[Yeah, yeah,]	587.786
470	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	586.76	[<laugh>]	587.602
471		588.152	[You know] I wanted to go further, but I didn't really get a chance to-	591.044
472	ROC_int_01	588.168	[right.]	588.455
473	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	591.552	to do a lot more plays, but that's okay. [Cause]	593.716
474	ROC_int_01	593.497	[Mm-hm.]	594.024
475	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	594.035	watching them	594.844
477		595.029	was just as fun.	595.973
478	ROC_int_01	596.503	Yeah.	596.937
479	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	597.268	Maybe.	597.697
480	ROC_int_01	597.874	[<laugh>]	598.522
481	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	597.879	[Not really], but it was still fun.	599.438
482	ROC_int_01	599.543	Yeah.	600.042
484		600.187	I always said, I would have liked to be in theater if I wasn't in creative writing,	603.837
485	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	604.606	I [should] have been a creative writing major.	606.485
486	ROC_int_01	604.699	[so.]	605.03
488		606.299	[You] should. [You really should've.]	608.308
489	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	607.222	[I should've.]	608.164
490		608.643	I should've, but I was,	610.177
492		610.522	like,	610.848
494		611.473	I was stuck on drama. I wanted to get noticed and nobody ever noticed me [until-]	615.244
495	ROC_int_01	615.064	[Mm-hm.]	615.51
496	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	616.079	Like they noticed me for the wrong reasons. Like,	617.986
497	ROC_int_01	617.986	Mm.	618.266
498	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	618.266	when I was almost done with high school. And I always knew it was the wrong reasons, but	621.692
499		622.102	[looking-]	622.858
500	ROC_int_01	622.102	[When you say wrong], what do you mean by wrong?	624.149
501	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	624.331	Um.	625.017
503		625.795	Well I feel like	627.475
505		627.682	when I grew boobs, [people] like- like boys started to look at me. And like,	632.164
506	ROC_int_01	629.11	[Okay.]	629.436
507	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	632.582	I'd have a crush on a boy forever, but like,	634.591
509		634.811	I don't know, my clothes were fucked up. And like,	636.709
511		637.087	I was kind of broke and, grew up kind of poor. So I never really looked my best.	640.83
513		641.576	And maybe- I mean I was like skinny, and I was a stick figure. I didn't [have anything.] So I don't think I was really like,	649.371
514	ROC_int_01	646.214	[Mm-hm.]	646.872
515	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	650.186	noticed until,	651.624
517		651.757	oh, of course	652.699
519		652.998	you got boobs. now it's like, oh, it's like there's a new person in class. I've been here since the sixth grade. Like,	658.136
521		658.578	you know,	658.942
522	ROC_int_01	659.24	Mm-hm.	659.641
523	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	659.632	I've been here like, and no one looked, but-	661.891
524		662.091	but	662.439
526		662.932	<ts>	663.025
528		663.091	i- it all balanced out and evened out.	664.956
530		665.725	[And] it still was like the best experience.	667.819
531	ROC_int_01	665.732	[Yeah.]	666.047
532		668.041	Mm-hm,	668.548
534		668.905	yeah.	669.338
535	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	670.154	So,	670.596
536	ROC_int_01	671.924	Would you, um,	673.305
538		673.729	how would you describe I guess, your image	675.807
540		676.003	of transition out of high school to like, I guess being an adult.	680.024
542		680.377	How have you felt like [you've changed?]	682.214
543	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	681.342	[Um.]	682.014
544		683.408	I can't even really say that I've changed, cause I was still	686.364
546		687.426	developing. They were formative years. [So] like, I can't say I was something and now I'm something [else.]	692.658
547	ROC_int_01	689.487	[Mm-hm.]	689.837
549		692.344	[Yeah.]	692.641
550	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	692.969	I didn't even think I was ready, to pop out of any type of shell, like.	696.024
551	ROC_int_01	696.089	Yeah.	696.499
552	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	697.026	Like I lost my virginity like,	698.778
554		699.184	two months before we graduated.	700.601
555	ROC_int_01	700.769	Mm.	701.138
556	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	701.152	And like, I had to listen to everyone else talking about sex forever, and I was just like, I'm not ready, I'm not ready, I'm not ready. How could you do that? Like,	707.114
557	ROC_int_01	707.17	Mm-hm.	707.641
558	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	707.65	I didn't get kissed till I was sixteen, almost [seventeen.] Like not even one kiss. So I feel like I was a late bloomer in that aspect.	714.247
559	ROC_int_01	709.757	[Mm-hm.]	710.233
560	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	714.854	And so, I can't even say I was something. I think [when I] graduated,	719.655
561	ROC_int_01	718.438	[Mm.]	718.788
562	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	720.577	my- my mom finally let me cut my hair. Cause I wanted to cut it forever.	723.846
564		724.606	And then I-	725.105
566		725.403	I cut my hair and I started modeling and then I shaved my head (laughing).	729.165
568		729.715	And then it just, I li- I just did what I wanted.	732.476
569	ROC_int_01	732.993	[Mm-hm.]	733.345
570	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	733.231	[And-] and I didn't really-	735.086
571		736.182	I think once I was like, free from my	738.24
573		738.528	kind of	738.94
575		739.33	restricted	740.298
577		740.806	home life. I just did exactly what I wanted to do.	743.338
578	ROC_int_01	743.576	Mm-hm.	744.038
579	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	744.317	I don't know, I've always done exactly what I wanted to do and that's probably changed.	747.534
580	ROC_int_01	747.795	Yeah.	748.247
581	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	748.21	[But], what I've been doing hasn't changed.	749.826
582	ROC_int_01	749.889	Okay.	750.27
583	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	750.63	But what I've- what I've want has- has changed slightly, so I just go with that.	754.121
584	ROC_int_01	754.317	Mm-hm.	754.729
586		755.124	Yeah,	755.517
588		755.776	yeah.	756.187
590		756.63	And how did you get into the modeling stuff	758.821
592		759.196	after, high school?	760.414
593	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	760.092	<ts>	760.19
594		760.89	Um,	761.639
596		761.819	started in high school.	763.586
598		764.289	I did one of those stupid- you remember In Control?	766.163
599	ROC_int_01	766.779	Yes, I do.	767.539
600	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	767.548	So I did one of their [stupid fashion shows. That wasn't really] a fashion show.	770.913
601	ROC_int_01	768.201	[<laugh>]	770.15
602	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	771.552	But like, for us it was, I [guess back then.]	773.94
603	ROC_int_01	773.04	[/Yeah I think it was/] yeah a lot of-	774.69
604	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	774.895	And then /RD-NAME-2/'s mom	776.406
606		776.704	<ts> wanted me to do her	778.741
608		779.483	her hair show. And I	780.644
610		780.844	did her hair show [for like three] years straight. And then it just went on from there.	784.14
611	ROC_int_01	781.623	[Mm-hm.]	782.122
612	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	784.779	And-	785.417
614		786.714	and it- I started off really small. And I'm still doing it,	790.418
616		790.569	but	790.942
618		792.765	I know I can't do it forever, I don't really wanna do it for much longer.	795.454
619	ROC_int_01	795.576	Mm-hm.	796.079
620	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	796.27	I'm twenty-six now, and I've been doing it for nine years and eh, it's really not the greatest	803.077
622		803.31	honestly.	804.084
623	ROC_int_01	804.112	Yeah.	804.462
624	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	804.882	You worry about your body and [it makes] you look at yourself	808.314
625	ROC_int_01	806.755	[Mm-hm.]	807.142
626	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	809.035	under like a- a- a far stricter like,	811.693
628		814.317	magnifying glass than you would if you	816.168
630		816.686	weren't	817.255
632		818.345	in this field.	819.366
633	ROC_int_01	819.552	[Yeah.]	819.79
634	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	819.691	[And-] and you didn't have to worry about	822.126
635		823.166	like	823.516
637		824.074	you're chosen because you look at certain way. That's fucked up.	826.35
638	ROC_int_01	826.485	Mm-hm.	826.97
639	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	826.97	That is fucked up.	827.944
640	ROC_int_01	828.056	[Mm-hm, yeah.]	828.886
641	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	828.368	[I don't know] why anyone would want [to] actually do that.	831.096
642	ROC_int_01	830	[Mm.]	830.159
643		831.217	Mm-hm.	831.684
644	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	832.598	But,	832.961
646		834.34	sometimes like, the finished product. The piece of art is really nice.	837.353
647	ROC_int_01	837.758	[Mm-hm.]	838.127
648	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	838.029	[And] you were a part of it.	839.39
649		839.899	And I	840.211
651		840.615	take that seriously,	841.758
652	ROC_int_01	841.805	Yeah.	842.108
653	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	842.602	but.	842.928
654	ROC_int_01	842.961	Cause you're and artist. [<cough>]	844.08
655	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	844.15	Like, I don't-	845.334
657		846.788	I think people make the mistake of like, thinking that pretty girls don't need to be told they're pretty.	850.807
658	ROC_int_01	851.222	Mm.	851.843
659	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	851.916	N-no. Nobody tell pretty girls they're pretty.	854.122
660	ROC_int_01	854.224	Mm-hm.	854.574
661	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	854.583	Because	855.096
663		855.441	people like you, think she doesn't need to hear it, cause people like you think other people tell her all the time, [but really nobody] tells her	861.489
664	ROC_int_01	860.024	[Mm.]	860.588
665		861.525	[Mm-hm]	861.991
666	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	861.693	[Because] everybody thinks that she's hearing it from some-	863.65
667		863.836	somewhere else.	864.62
668	ROC_int_01	864.634	Yeah.	864.989
669	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	864.97	And	865.296
670		865.996	then she ends up hearing it from nowhere.	867.362
671	ROC_int_01	867.642	Mm-hm.	868.164
672	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	868.173	So if you combine that with,	869.595
674		870.895	uh,	871.669
676		872.056	a career goal,	873.6
678		874.257	that	874.607
680		875.553	it- it- it only reaches success if someone	878.266
682		878.779	likes the way you look.	880.019
684		881.022	You could be	881.745
686		882.825	good at eighty-five thousand things, but if you don't look like this, [it's like], bye.	887.693
687	ROC_int_01	886.737	[Mm.]	887.111
688	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	888.574	And that,	889.11
690		889.455	like completely messes you up.	891.119
691	ROC_int_01	891.357	Yeah.	891.572
692	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	891.861	<ts>	891.945
694		892.145	So,	892.514
696		892.887	it's not fun.	893.698
698		894.322	But if you can separate	895.632
700		896.042	yourself from all that and just-	897.618
702		898.42	like I found the art to focus on. That part of it is fun.	900.592
703	ROC_int_01	900.951	Mm-hm.	901.436
704	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	901.632	And I think as long as people wanna photograph me,	903.819
706		904.304	I'll just let them	905.045
708		905.549	until-	906.136
710		907.016	until I really don't want to anymore.	908.844
711	ROC_int_01	908.975	Yeah.	909.437
712	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	909.469	But at this point it's about-	910.64
714		911.46	like, I- I'm not even really trying too hard anymore.	914.234
716		914.425	[I take] what comes like,	915.987
717	ROC_int_01	914.581	[Mm.]	914.924
718	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	916.295	people- if people approach me and they're like, I think that	918.723
720		919.268	you should do this,	920.212
722		920.692	like, now I'm at the point where I've been doing it for nine years, so people know that, that's what I do.	924.975
723	ROC_int_01	925.194	Mm-hm.	925.693
724	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	925.916	So I don't have to like	926.568
726		926.799	run around and- and a- I don't audition for [things]	930.014
727	ROC_int_01	929.558	[Right.]	930.062
728	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	930.171	here anymore. That would be silly.	932.247
730		932.849	Here like, <exhale> I'm not gonna do that here.	934.831
732		935.404	But,	935.694
734		935.953	now I just- I kind of like have- I more relaxed about it.	938.704
735	ROC_int_01	939.115	[Mm-hm.]	939.548
736	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	939.273	[And I'll] just take whatever comes. And if it doesn't come for a while,	942.071
737		942.867	an- um- then I-	943.727
739		943.937	maybe I'll decide to stop.	945.129
740	ROC_int_01	946.038	Yeah.	946.374
741	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	947.069	But,	947.26
743		947.711	it's a really not a big deal and it sucks.	949.52
744	ROC_int_01	949.786	Yeah, well.	950.611
745	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	950.672	<laugh> Not fun.	952.005
746	ROC_int_01	952.606	Do you have any preference of types of shoots you like to do or [is it all just-]	957.766
747	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	957.077	[I like to get] dirty [like, I like] to	959.101
748	ROC_int_01	958.318	[Yeah.]	958.691
749	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	959.711	have weird, /I/ like the weirder the better.	961.996
750	ROC_int_01	962.042	Yeah.	962.359
751	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	963.11	I-	963.641
753		963.872	I- I'm not tall,	965.163
755		965.35	I'm not [thin],	966.183
756	ROC_int_01	965.721	[Mm.]	965.955
757	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	966.341	so	966.835
759		967.772	I'm	968.159
761		968.816	fairly like, modified, as far as my outside.	971.586
762	ROC_int_01	971.726	Mm-hm.	972.314
763	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	972.48	So, and then my hair is really short. So it's just like, I- I- even though, you would think that would limit you, And- and I guess it does,	979.166
765		979.716	but I always knew I couldn't be like a Victoria Secret model.	981.977
766	ROC_int_01	981.973	Mm-hm.	982.355
767	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	982.388	So, in the world of like the alternative, I guess if you wanna call it the alternative,	986.537
769		987.031	which I also think is silly, but whatever.	989.264
770	ROC_int_01	989.283	Yeah.	989.847
771	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	989.95	Um,	990.467
773		991.198	it- it hasn't been so difficult really.	993.259
775		994.066	I like to get dirty though. Like,	995.418
777		996.62	get weird.	997.194
779		997.646	I- I-	998.225
781		998.452	I would shoot out in the cold,	1000.239
783		1000.719	or in water, or I've been covered in baby powder and like, completely topless. [Like],	1005.6
784	ROC_int_01	1005.492	[Mm-hm.]	1006.024
785	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1007.474	I've done plenty of nude shoots,	1009.655
787		1009.844	or,	1010.285
789		1010.868	uh, implied nude.	1011.847
791		1012.155	I don't know, I just feel like	1013.316
793		1014.131	<ts>	1014.2
795		1014.345	that's the fun part.	1015.156
796	ROC_int_01	1015.413	Yeah.	1015.888
797	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1015.986	And I think if you try and you push yourself,	1017.791
799		1018.434	um,	1018.864
801		1019.057	versus, saying like, nah don't cut my hair. I've cut my hair every time somebody wanted to- me to cut my hair for a- a picture.	1025.041
802	ROC_int_01	1025.302	Mm-hm.	1025.614
803	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1025.642	It's just hair.	1026.118
804	ROC_int_01	1026.312	Yeah.	1026.732
805	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1027.18	I- it's just hair and it grows back. [And so] like,	1030.057
806	ROC_int_01	1029.236	[Mm-hm.]	1029.628
807	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1030.574	I just feel like if I don't go for it, then	1032.699
809		1033.268	what's the point of ever having done it, you know. Like, I'm never gonna be on- on a runway on television. But	1038.746
811		1039.413	f- for	1040
813		1040.481	you know, as far as just like, being a functional	1042.43
815		1043.125	model,	1043.815
817		1044.284	that's	1044.694
819		1045.048	what it actually takes. So,	1046.807
821		1047.679	so	1048.005
823		1048.546	that's what I would prefer. I like extreme	1050.55
825		1051.152	shoots. I'd probably cut my hair again	1053.091
826	ROC_int_01	1053.115	[Mm-hm.]	1053.525
827	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1053.367	[if] someone asked me to. If it was worth it.	1054.966
828	ROC_int_01	1055.367	Mm-hm.	1055.964
829	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1056.213	Yeah. So,	1057.183
830	ROC_int_01	1057.976	Yeah, I love your hair.	1059.095
832		1059.263	[You look fabulous /always/.]	1060.788
833	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1059.491	[Thank you. I finally] love my hair. Finally.	1062.12
834		1062.591	I hated it for so [long.]	1064.078
835	ROC_int_01	1063.856	[Really?]	1064.479
836	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1064.526	Yeah, it wasn't kinky and it wasn't straight.	1067.01
837	ROC_int_01	1067.159	Mm.	1067.724
838	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1068.059	And so,	1068.983
840		1069.258	I was like, well my hair is stupid. W- like it [doesn't do] anything. Like,	1073.439
841	ROC_int_01	1072	[<laugh>]	1072.489
842	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1074.125	I couldn't ever really get a handle on it. I always wanted to- to cut my hair, my mom never let me.	1078.223
843	ROC_int_01	1078.236	Mm-hm.	1078.768
844	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1078.8	And I just had like,	1079.901
846		1080.661	big curly hair. And I guess now looking back it was	1083.212
848		1083.594	probably beautiful, but at the time it did not feel [beautiful to me.]	1086.861
849	ROC_int_01	1086.33	[Yeah.]	1086.885
850		1087.248	Right.	1087.673
851	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1087.925	I always wanted hair I couldn't have.	1089.71
852	ROC_int_01	1090.572	[Mm-hm.]	1091.155
853	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1090.577	[So.]	1090.936
854		1091.56	I finally like my hair now I think though.	1093.524
856		1094.302	Finally. I think I'm gonna leave it alone for a while and see what [happens.]	1097.514
857	ROC_int_01	1096.931	[<laugh>]	1097.495
858		1098.083	Yeah, let the curls come in. I remember you were telling me a while ago you [were thinking of loose curls.]	1103.215
859	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1102.106	[I love your hair.]	1103.253
860	ROC_int_01	1103.626	What? [Girl <laugh>]	1105.332
861	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1104.139	[I do love your hair.]	1105.346
862	ROC_int_01	1105.593	[Thank you.]	1106.298
863	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1105.701	[you have-] there's this picture of you that's on facebook and it was like you	1108.87
864		1109.309	and it was like	1109.859
866		1110.502	big. It was- like you had like the [big fro one] and /it was-/ I could like see the curls in it. Oh so pretty.	1115.212
867	ROC_int_01	1112.046	[Mm-hm.]	1112.727
868	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1115.317	[It was so pretty.]	1116.181
869	ROC_int_01	1115.528	[Thank you.] Thank you. Yeah.	1117.673
870		1117.911	I think it's the same thing of like	1119.678
872		1120.581	when I was younger I didn't like my hair and then	1123.522
874		1123.694	like, not until I cut off the perm did I really know what my hair looked like. You know, [it's just like],	1128.726
875	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1128.246	[Yeah.]	1128.739
876	ROC_int_01	1129.967	it's- it was permed all my life. [And then]	1132.82
877	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1132.303	[Mm-hm.]	1132.755
878	ROC_int_01	1133.449	oh, it wasn't really long,	1135.048
880		1135.407	but it wasn't like short cut [so it's just]	1137.701
881	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1137.156	[Yeah.]	1137.701
882	ROC_int_01	1137.969	stupid weird /one/ (laughing).	1139.658
883	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1139.845	I understand what you mean, I do.	1141.747
885		1141.897	I don't think anyone likes their hair in high school. I really don't.	1144.73
886	ROC_int_01	1144.73	Yeah. I wear weaves all the time.	1146.745
887	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1147.234	I've never had one.	1148.475
888	ROC_int_01	1148.68	Oh really.	1149.571
889	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1149.756	No. I've never had one. I might try my first one out this week. Just cause I wanna try it. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna snatch it out of my [head immediately.]	1156.708
890	ROC_int_01	1155.925	[Yeah. <laugh>]	1157.08
891		1157.313	I feel like that too.	1158.488
892	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1158.488	I can't. I- I just- I've had like	1161.226
893		1161.701	tracks. Like a track or two glued in, like [for a photoshoot] and I just-	1165.337
894	ROC_int_01	1163.985	[Mm-hm.]	1164.572
895	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1165.538	I couldn't even stand it for a day, I had to rip it out.	1168.606
896	ROC_int_01	1168.606	Yeah.	1169.141
897	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1169.145	Feels unnatural to me.	1170.493
898	ROC_int_01	1170.703	Mm-hm.	1171.328
899	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1171.346	I feel incredibly ridiculous walking around with hair glued in my head.	1175.197
901		1175.523	And that's not knocking other people who do it.	1177.272
902	ROC_int_01	1177.412	Mm-hm, [right.]	1178.218
903	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1177.85	[Like] I wanna try it seriously and try to commit to it for at least a week.	1181.243
904	ROC_int_01	1181.271	Mm-hm.	1181.84
905	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1181.887	But I just feel like everyone can see it.	1183.822
907		1184.19	Like, oh my god,	1185.188
909		1185.501	how stupid does that girl look with h- with hair glued into her head. [Like],	1189.799
910	ROC_int_01	1189.51	[Mm-hm.]	1190.092
911	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1190.228	she has hair an- let in- and that's where like,	1193.234
913		1193.966	that's what got me.	1194.903
914	ROC_int_01	1195.057	Mm-hm.	1195.542
915	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1195.584	It was like mental for me. Which made me feel like it was like itching and I had to rip it out.	1200.619
916	ROC_int_01	1200.805	Yeah.	1201.379
917	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1201.547	But,	1201.85
919		1204.176	I don't know, natural hair comes in a lot of different- I- it took me a long time to realize that natural hair can be straight if that's your texture.	1209.617
920	ROC_int_01	1209.641	Yeah, [right.]	1210.424
921	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1210.205	[Like], I am not gonna feel shitty because my hair doesn't really curl.	1213.034
922	ROC_int_01	1213.099	Mm-hm.	1213.626
923	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1213.659	It just is what it [is.] And I'm not gonna feel	1216.377
924	ROC_int_01	1214.56	[Yeah.]	1214.958
925	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1216.749	bad about it. [Like],	1217.826
926	ROC_int_01	1217.71	[Mm-hm.]	1217.975
927	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1218.512	It was funny cause I	1219.775
929		1220.12	auditioned for a black hair show	1221.67
931		1221.831	and I	1222.231
933		1222.539	was told I- they wouldn't let me in.	1224.269
934	ROC_int_01	1224.474	Ugh.	1224.95
935	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1225.188	Because my hair wasn't kinky enough.	1226.675
936	ROC_int_01	1227.039	Oh no.	1228.219
937	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1228.586	And it was crazy. I was like,	1229.947
939		1230.311	but I don't have a perm. They thought I had a perm and I didn't.	1232.703
941		1232.885	[And like I] let them like, I let them go through my head and everything. Like it was kind of	1236.791
942	ROC_int_01	1232.904	[Yeah.]	1233.351
943	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1237.649	demeaning.	1238.316
944	ROC_int_01	1238.363	Yeah.	1238.964
945	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1239.826	And they were like, no, like, you can't.	1241.453
947		1241.92	We can't let you in the show. Like we feel like little girls are gonna look at you	1245.006
949		1245.3	and	1245.692
951		1245.958	they're not gonna see their own hair. [and I] was like, but that's not fair because,	1250.33
952	ROC_int_01	1247.966	[Ugh.]	1248.283
953	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1251.496	because,	1251.836
955		1252.712	like, w-	1253.242
957		1253.491	w- how- how could you say that we only come in like one,	1256.401
959		1256.737	or two	1257.375
961		1258.283	uh- like, [versions.] I don't even know what to [say. Like and it was crazy.] And I wanted to do it because I felt like I hadn't done work like that in a while.	1265.878
962	ROC_int_01	1259.509	[Yes.]	1259.906
964		1261.398	[No, yes]	1262.643
965	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1266.605	Like,	1266.908
967		1268.741	it was for charity.	1269.771
968	ROC_int_01	1269.92	[Mm-hm.]	1270.401
969	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1270.03	[And] also I thought it would be really-	1272.097
970		1272.325	I wanted to do it, cause I hadn't done- I hadn't worked with, like	1275.417
972		1275.738	uh, a staff that-	1277.029
974		1277.197	like a staff of color in while on a [photoshoot or anything.]	1279.528
975	ROC_int_01	1278.591	[Mm-hm.]	1279.188
976	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1279.943	And I was like, this might be fun. I just wanna like get back to this. I started off doing black hair shows.	1284.745
977	ROC_int_01	1284.978	Yeah.	1285.328
978	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1285.738	But this one that was like specifically actually for, like it was supposed to uplift and be positive. And it was like	1291.761
980		1291.939	their whole message was like, we want little girls and boys to look on the runway and like see themselves. And I was like,	1296.666
982		1297.244	there are little girls and boys out there who feel exactly this [way.]	1301.197
983	ROC_int_01	1301.117	[Mm-hm.]	1301.602
984	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1302.311	[And] you're basically	1303.985
985	ROC_int_01	1302.348	[Yeah.]	1302.731
986	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1304.577	telling them the same thing. Like what if a little mixed girl comes to this runway show.	1307.98
987	ROC_int_01	1308.465	Mm-hm.	1309.085
988	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1310.221	She might see one person who she identifies with and that might be me.	1313.83
989	ROC_int_01	1314.034	Mm-hm.	1314.533
990	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1314.589	You can't just discount that you know.	1316.011
992		1316.288	But like, that's why I've had like, I've had issues with my hair forever.	1319.266
993	ROC_int_01	1319.266	[Mm-hm.]	1319.872
994	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1319.471	[And like], I felt the worst. Like, I wanted to cry.	1322.118
995	ROC_int_01	1322.142	No.	1322.813
996	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1322.809	I did. I did. Like, I don't know. It was-	1325.377
997		1326.48	taken me so long to get used to it. I think that's why I always shave it off. [I hate it.]	1330.086
998	ROC_int_01	1329.522	[Mm-hm.]	1330.077
999		1330.417	I love [it.]	1331.107
1000	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1330.93	[It's] never good enough for whatever-	1332.893
1001	ROC_int_01	1333.093	Mm.	1333.797
1002	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1333.941	Whatever. I don't even know what's [standard.]	1335.769
1003	ROC_int_01	1335.452	[Mm-hm.]	1336.231
1004		1336.562	Do you feel like, at least like	1338.091
1006		1338.957	at the- in these like sort of black events that you're still kind of	1342.884
1008		1343.182	I guess for, uh, lack of a better word, kind of discriminated against. Like-	1347.503
1009	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1347.858	Um,	1348.459
1011		1349.243	no. I never felt like that. [I feel like walking] around with that mind state is	1352.729
1012	ROC_int_01	1350.665	[Mm-hm.]	1351.159
1013	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1353.312	horrible.	1353.905
1014	ROC_int_01	1353.982	Mm-hm.	1354.427
1015	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1354.79	And you're just like an angry Facebook person if you walk around and you live your life like [that.]	1358.111
1016	ROC_int_01	1357.929	[Mm-hm.]	1358.477
1017	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1358.545	I'm discriminated against, oh my god. Like,	1360.389
1019		1360.691	no. Like [a lot of] times it's not like that. And I refuse to-	1363.749
1020	ROC_int_01	1361.242	[Mm-hm.]	1361.724
1021	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1364.676	I refuse to think that things happen because of that.	1368.057
1022	ROC_int_01	1368.207	Mm-hm.	1368.689
1023	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1369.041	So I- I don't tr- like, try- I don't try to dwell there.	1372.062
1024	ROC_int_01	1372.123	Yeah.	1372.46
1026		1372.739	[Mm-hm.]	1373.221
1027	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1372.749	[But-]	1373.223
1028		1373.626	but sometimes it- sometimes it is.	1375.336
1029	ROC_int_01	1375.754	Mm-hm.	1376.192
1030	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1376.581	And there have been maybe two or three situations where	1379.901
1032		1380.381	I had to	1381.189
1034		1382.211	think about it.	1382.867
1036		1383.467	And I was like, you know what, that did happen [because of that.]	1386.272
1037	ROC_int_01	1385.419	[Mm-hm.]	1385.91
1038	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1386.961	It did.	1387.533
1040		1388.057	But it feels really good not to wake up everyday and think like that, so no. I really don't think that, um,	1392.587
1042		1392.923	I really don't think that it has been, I mean if anything,	1395.101
1044		1395.815	I feel like, in- in some situations, I-	1398.759
1046		1400.871	<ts>	1400.944
1048		1401.935	hm, there's still- there's still,	1403.641
1050		1404.089	places and setups where like,	1405.545
1052		1405.845	a token black person is needed.	1407.343
1053	ROC_int_01	1407.699	[Mm-hm.]	1408.112
1054	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1407.968	[But] I think-	1408.634
1055		1409.237	I think and it's funny, cause	1410.635
1057		1410.909	since we're talking about like, speech and stuff,	1412.692
1059		1413.082	I think because I sound the way I do, or maybe I look the way I do, like	1416.684
1061		1417.366	I think,	1417.814
1063		1418.303	people are comfortable. Like,	1419.52
1065		1420.823	letting me be that.	1421.808
1066	ROC_int_01	1422.035	Mm.	1422.48
1067	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1422.378	<ts> Like if they need to be inclusive,	1424.152
1068		1424.773	then if I'm included, I think it sets them at ease.	1428.086
1070		1428.874	[Because] I don't think they think they'll have an issue. Like,	1431.257
1071	ROC_int_01	1428.911	[Okay.]	1429.306
1072	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1433.114	relating to me maybe. Even though everyone does	1435.289
1074		1435.415	in the end.	1435.934
1075	ROC_int_01	1436.005	Mm-hm.	1436.529
1076	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1436.605	But like, it just seems to be easier for people.	1438.822
1078		1439.057	Usually	1439.454
1080		1439.623	people don't know what I am before they see me. And I work a lot on the phone.	1442.941
1082		1443.394	I work a lot in customer service.	1444.855
1083	ROC_int_01	1444.91	Mm-hm.	1445.377
1084	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1445.622	And	1446.177
1086		1446.607	it sucks, and I- I've learned to notice that too.	1449.69
1088		1449.835	And- and that's why like, I don't think I'll be doing this for much longer, but.	1453.33
1089	ROC_int_01	1453.414	Yeah.	1453.772
1090	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1454.072	Um,	1454.454
1092		1454.756	yeah. It seems easier for people to	1456.698
1094		1457.69	relate.	1458.214
1096		1458.414	A lot of people- like I've worked in places and finally quit.	1460.592
1098		1461.14	And- and my boss will be like, I didn't know you were black.	1463.66
1100		1464.465	Then I'm [like, oh.]	1465.622
1101	ROC_int_01	1464.916	[/Ah/.]	1465.324
1102		1465.806	Yeah.	1466.054
1103	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1467.173	[Okay, sorry.]	1468.692
1104	ROC_int_01	1467.712	[<laugh>]	1468.489
1105	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1468.895	Sorry that you- you definitely hired a black person for the last six months.	1472.587
1106	ROC_int_01	1472.703	Mm-hm.	1473.248
1107	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1473.251	It's kind of like, haha gotchu.	1474.57
1108	ROC_int_01	1474.754	<laugh>	1475.099
1109	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1475.552	I'm quitting now, [but gotchu, fuck you, like yeah.] You had a black girl at the front counter [this entire] time and you didn't know.	1481.703
1110	ROC_int_01	1476.361	[Mm-hm, yeah. Right, right.]	1478.159
1112		1480.089	[Mm-hm.]	1480.487
1113		1481.84	Yeah.	1482.251
1114	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1482.346	And I hear a lot of things. Like,	1484.35
1116		1485.2	that I- I feel like I almost shouldn't be hearing.	1487.292
1117	ROC_int_01	1487.613	Mm-hm.	1488.053
1118	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1488.139	Because people don't know,	1489.316
1120		1490.096	or they just assume, or they know, but they don't bother to ask.	1492.532
1121	ROC_int_01	1492.837	Yeah.	1493.161
1122	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1493.238	And so it's funny cause a lot of times like, I'll hear	1496.316
1124		1497.03	conversations that happen that	1499.128
1126		1499.771	would not be happening if	1501.175
1128		1501.553	people thought that I would be offended by whatever they were saying.	1504.295
1129	ROC_int_01	1504.437	Mm.	1505.009
1130	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1505.164	I hear stuff like that all the [time.]	1507.173
1131	ROC_int_01	1506.744	[Yeah.]	1507.171
1132	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1507.416	And sometimes I just keep my mouth shut and a week later, I'll quit, or I'll leave, or I'll	1510.989
1134		1511.15	leave a project.	1512.031
1135	ROC_int_01	1512.253	[Mm-hm.]	1512.85
1136	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1512.258	[Or I'll just] decide not to	1513.864
1137		1514.789	talk to someone anymore.	1515.734
1138	ROC_int_01	1515.858	Yeah.	1516.195
1139	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1516.197	But.	1516.477
1141		1517.559	So it's like it works both ways. Like a gift and a curse.	1520.45
1142	ROC_int_01	1520.54	[Mm-hm.]	1520.975
1143	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1520.864	[Except] for my hair.	1521.905
1144		1522.063	That's probably just a curse.	1523.478
1145	ROC_int_01	1523.453	No [it's] not. It's amazing.	1525.862
1146	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1523.866	[But]	1524.148
1147		1525.87	[It's pretty interesting.] Like, how that's worked out.	1528.648
1148	ROC_int_01	1525.975	[<laugh>]	1526.923
1149		1529.296	Yeah.	1529.67
1151		1530.507	Okay, that's interesting.	1531.576
1153		1531.958	Um,	1532.512
1155		1532.614	<ts>	1532.709
1157		1532.936	I wanted to ask- okay so if	1535.023
1159		1535.56	modeling is sort of not the long term trajectory, what do you see for yourself, in terms of like,	1541.433
1161		1542.862	the ultimate career or careers plural. [<laugh>]	1546.07
1162	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1545.962	[<ts>]	1546.033
1163		1546.481	Careers.	1547.089
1164	ROC_int_01	1547.134	Yeah.	1547.489
1165	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1547.482	Um, I wanna go back to college.	1549.095
1166	ROC_int_01	1549.227	[Mm-hm.]	1549.664
1167	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1549.377	[I've]	1549.67
1168		1550.215	fucked off in college.	1551.64
1170		1552.406	Um,	1553.019
1172		1554.017	my mom pressured me to go. She made me apply to Harvard.	1557.014
1173	ROC_int_01	1557.683	That's awesome.	1558.447
1174	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1558.491	No.	1558.997
1176		1559.242	[I never wanted (laughing) to go.] I never wanted to go. I- god I didn't wanna go.	1563.982
1177	ROC_int_01	1559.244	[<laugh>]	1560.545
1178	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1564.598	Um, and I went to /RD-SCHOOL-3/ I think just to make her [happy.]	1567.629
1179	ROC_int_01	1567.379	[Mm-hm.]	1568.093
1180	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1568.119	But /RD-SCHOOL-3/ never even had the majors that I wanted to do.	1570.599
1181	ROC_int_01	1570.768	Yeah.	1571.089
1182	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1571.352	So- and now I'm in debt.	1572.474
1183	ROC_int_01	1573.333	Girl.	1573.596
1185		1573.773	<clap>	1573.907
1187		1574.457	[<laugh>]	1575.245
1188	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1574.465	[but I'm in debt] for the wrong [reasons. If I'm gonna be-] if I'm gonna be a hundred thousand dollars in debt,	1578.518
1189	ROC_int_01	1575.974	[Yeah, right.]	1576.78
1190		1578.596	[Mm-hm.]	1578.934
1191	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1578.915	[I] wanna be happy and be going to school for exactly what I wanna do.	1582.08
1192	ROC_int_01	1582.215	[Mm-hm.]	1582.607
1193	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1582.375	[Or] be accomplished (laughing). I'm not- (laughing) and I'm neither of those things.	1585.338
1194		1585.778	I	1586.31
1196		1586.478	used my-	1587.666
1198		1587.81	my loans	1588.851
1200		1589.003	to pre-pay my rent	1590.492
1202		1591.076	and then I realized that I couldn't work a full time job and a part time job and also go to school.	1596.19
1203	ROC_int_01	1596.427	[Mm-hm.]	1597.03
1204	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1596.43	[People who] like, people who are allowed to live at home,	1598.887
1205		1600.169	are so lucky.	1601.117
1206	ROC_int_01	1601.936	[Yes.]	1602.337
1207	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1602.167	[Because] like,	1603.308
1208	ROC_int_01	1603.382	Agreed.	1603.748
1209	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1603.756	They don't have to worry about anything. I	1605.533
1211		1606.075	got kicked out when I was nineteen.	1607.421
1213		1608.367	And I	1608.912
1215		1609.338	had to kind of- I ended up having to choose	1611.187
1217		1611.387	going to school and also worrying about like, wow I'm super tired because I just worked all day, but guess what, we have a test and I'm not gonna finish my homework because I need to sleep and [like],	1620.016
1218	ROC_int_01	1619.927	[Mm.]	1620.309
1219	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1620.833	It compounds and then it just explodes.	1623.419
1220	ROC_int_01	1623.463	Yeah.	1623.819
1221	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1623.961	And so,	1624.849
1223		1625.059	I tried school twice. And I quit twice. And then I was left with all this debt.	1629.828
1225		1630.176	Debt that I would have rather	1631.321
1227		1631.716	been in.	1632.18
1228	ROC_int_01	1632.619	[Mm-hm.]	1633.267
1229	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1632.632	[Would rather] have been in	1633.823
1230		1634.199	if	1634.421
1232		1634.513	I were learning something.	1636.328
1233	ROC_int_01	1636.817	Yeah.	1637.183
1234	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1637.273	But I,	1637.731
1236		1638.331	I wasn't learning [anything.]	1639.95
1237	ROC_int_01	1639.303	[Mm-hm.]	1639.914
1238	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1640.749	And, um,	1642.158
1240		1643.058	so I wanna kind of fix that. I wanna go back to school.	1645.391
1242		1646.715	Probably for creative writing [this time.]	1648.852
1243	ROC_int_01	1648.24	[I was gonna] say what would it be [for?]	1650.076
1244	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1650.049	[Or] for English [literature]	1651.485
1245	ROC_int_01	1651.295	[Mm.]	1651.869
1246	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1651.781	[and] psychology.	1652.817
1247	ROC_int_01	1653.218	Yeah.	1653.457
1248	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1654.023	I would do those. And I would be really happy doing it. I just-	1657.02
1250		1657.568	like now I know.	1658.669
1252		1659.085	And if I have a kid,	1659.972
1254		1661.133	like, I'll just try not to make their life hell. And make them feel like they can stay.	1664.888
1255	ROC_int_01	1665.431	Mm-hm.	1665.908
1256	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1666.013	Like if you're not going to go to school, fine. Like, I'm still not gonna kick you out, but if you are, I'm gonna	1670.526
1258		1671.074	try to be extra supportive of that.	1673.391
1259	ROC_int_01	1673.515	[Mm-hm.]	1674.098
1260	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1673.636	[And] like, considerate and mindful because that matters.	1677.162
1261		1677.386	I would have been-	1678.164
1263		1678.849	I would have gotten straight A's.	1679.987
1264	ROC_int_01	1680.891	Mm.	1681.142
1265	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1681.357	I would have gotten straight A's. And all of the scholarships. And it would have been amazing, but	1686.227
1267		1686.872	<ts>	1686.942
1269		1687.021	I didn't have that opportunity. So I wanna go back and fix it. I'm probably gonna end up like, being a teacher just like my mom.	1691.88
1271		1692.737	But	1693.24
1273		1694.066	maybe like a professor [I] don't know. [I have-]	1696.747
1274	ROC_int_01	1695.548	[Mm.]	1695.749
1276		1696.276	[Yeah.]	1696.668
1277	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1697.642	I have a	1698.113
1279		1698.424	book of short stories that I'm trying to finish.	1700.802
1280	ROC_int_01	1700.807	Love it.	1701.516
1281	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1701.861	And	1702.504
1283		1703.543	I don't know	1704.485
1285		1704.97	like, (laughing) if anyone would buy it.	1706.448
1287		1706.861	I feel like I'm gonna put it on Amazon, it's just gonna like, sit and like be chilling on Amazon forever. And it's gonna [be like-]	1712.21
1288	ROC_int_01	1711.795	[/No/.]	1712.243
1289	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1713.101	You know how they have like the ranks on Amazon. It's gonna be like, twenty-four thousand, like, it's gonna be like, no one's gonna look at it.	1718.956
1291		1719.441	No one's gonna look at it, but I feel like it's gonna be there,	1721.376
1293		1722.317	and maybe when I die, maybe after I die, people are gonna be like, hey,	1726.058
1295		1726.677	this is pretty good, [maybe I'll] read this book (laughing).	1729.749
1296	ROC_int_01	1728.34	[Yeah.]	1728.69
1297		1730.275	[Nah, I think people will get interested.] You have a good following.	1733.875
1298	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1730.674	[<laugh>]	1731.991
1299	ROC_int_01	1734.135	I feel like [I'm /??/ right now no?]	1736.783
1300	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1735.18	[I don't I feel like, people] just wanna follow me because they wanna see if I'm gonna take like,	1739.647
1301		1740.047	naked pictures, [or, it's- and] I- it's- and I- I'm not going to. Like,	1744.015
1302	ROC_int_01	1741.27	[Mm-hm.]	1741.686
1303	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1745.805	I don't know. I feel like people follow me for the wrong [reasons too.]	1748.298
1304	ROC_int_01	1748.047	[Mm-hm.]	1748.658
1305		1749.017	[Yeah.]	1749.409
1306	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1749.045	[Like], nobody understands. Nobody gets it. I don't know why I have that many followers on Instagram. Like, I'm not that interesting.	1754.569
1307		1754.882	People unfollow me everyday. I don't get it, but	1757.409
1309		1759.138	I don't-	1759.744
1310	ROC_int_01	1759.925	Yeah.	1760.317
1311	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1760.565	[I never like wanted it.]	1762.22
1312	ROC_int_01	1760.579	[/I think you could leverage it/.]	1762.225
1313		1762.556	[You need /to set goals/.]	1763.982
1314	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1762.574	[Leverage it to what? like, that's what I'm trying] to figure out like, [this] year.	1765.376
1315	ROC_int_01	1764.732	[Yeah.]	1765.04
1316	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1765.767	I need a plan this year.	1766.83
1318		1767.273	Because I'm twenty-six. I'm gonna be twenty-seven and I don't really do anything. I do a lot, but I also do nothing.	1772.998
1320		1773.52	Because in the end like, it doesn't count.	1775.302
1322		1775.991	[It counts], but it's not	1777.348
1323	ROC_int_01	1776	[Hm.]	1776.378
1324	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1777.851	counting towards a goal	1779.381
1326		1779.51	that	1779.81
1328		1781.437	matches up with my age. Where I feel like I am.	1783.716
1329	ROC_int_01	1784.84	[Okay.]	1785.208
1330	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1784.882	[Like], I can't just do shit anymore cause I feel like doing it.	1787.208
1331		1787.981	[I can],	1788.513
1332	ROC_int_01	1787.991	[Mm-hm.]	1788.462
1333	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1788.965	but I feel like it has to add up to something now,	1790.63
1335		1790.933	cause I'm getting old.	1791.894
1337		1792.528	So,	1792.91
1339		1793.403	yeah. Maybe I can leverage it into something. But like,	1795.654
1341		1795.85	when I think about like,	1796.779
1343		1798.374	all these girls, with like the huge butts like, hosting everything like, I- I don't know, I just don't wanna do that.	1803.982
1345		1804.364	On the flip side though,	1805.381
1347		1805.684	I could host something	1806.998
1349		1807.205	and it would probably be really fun.	1808.7
1350	ROC_int_01	1808.76	Mm-hm.	1809.152
1351	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1809.292	But	1809.688
1353		1811.171	I just feel like it's incidental.	1812.491
1355		1813.595	Like I can if I decide to put makeup on, or do my hair or like,	1816.579
1357		1817.744	get dressed up.	1818.625
1359		1819.04	[I- it w- it] would happen. And maybe somebody like- if I did that on a regular basis,	1823.278
1360	ROC_int_01	1819.04	[Mm-hm.]	1819.567
1361	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1823.818	maybe someone come along and ask me to do it. Like, if I was like a-	1826.735
1363		1826.938	I'm still like,	1828.055
1365		1828.276	not a popular girl.	1829.716
1367		1829.923	I'm still who I was in high school in that sense like, I don't care.	1832.653
1369		1833.474	And it feels good not to care.	1834.714
1370	ROC_int_01	1834.854	Mm-hm.	1835.25
1371	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1835.561	<ts>	1835.633
1373		1835.767	But,	1836.111
1375		1836.328	it's something that I thought about leveraging. I may find a way to use it,	1839.856
1377		1840.281	but	1840.668
1379		1840.957	I just like really, just wanna be happy.	1843.231
1381		1843.679	[I'm- I'm] done with like,	1845.124
1382	ROC_int_01	1843.679	[Mm-hm.]	1844.308
1383	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1846.793	uh, everything else.	1848.125
1385		1848.276	I think being happy is most important now.	1850.849
1387		1851.13	Whatever that is. Whatever that looks like, or [ends up being.]	1853.726
1388	ROC_int_01	1853.158	[Mm-hm.]	1853.74
1389	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1854.298	That's really all I care about now.	1855.902
1390	ROC_int_01	1856.336	Yeah.	1856.742
1392		1857.171	And	1857.562
1394		1858.122	do you have like an ideal	1859.693
1396		1860.037	school, or place even that you would like to be like Chicago, or [I don't know, /inaudible/.]	1865.642
1397	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1865.138	[Kind of] don't wanna stay in the States. I've never wanted to stay in the States. I- for the last ten years I wanted to-	1870.574
1398		1871.232	I've kind of always wanted to move to England.	1873.125
1400		1874.397	Always.	1874.911
1402		1875.142	[Always], always, always, but	1876.481
1403	ROC_int_01	1875.161	[Yeah.]	1875.441
1404	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1876.728	I don't even have my passport right now. That's one thing I have to do.	1879.007
1406		1879.376	I'm gonna- I'm- I'm trying to set small goals. And I think [if I can do] it by the end of January like, at least get my passport,	1885.252
1407	ROC_int_01	1882.127	[Mm-hm.]	1882.621
1408	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1885.434	I'll feel good inside.	1886.551
1409	ROC_int_01	1886.583	Yeah.	1887.073
1410	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1887.749	Like, but I- I do. I don't really wanna stay here. I've never felt like I've belonged here at all.	1892.383
1411	ROC_int_01	1892.816	Yeah.	1893.203
1413		1893.684	And by here you mean like, [Rochester? cause-]	1896.443
1414	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1895.66	[Well definitely] not Rochester, but also just	1898.108
1415		1898.387	the [States], at all.	1899.968
1416	ROC_int_01	1898.998	[Okay.]	1899.399
1417	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1900.476	I just, I always read books. I never really watched TV but	1903.39
1419		1904.108	we didn't have cable so I ended up watching PBS [and it's all like], British television. And I was like, wow like I wanna go there.	1909.641
1420	ROC_int_01	1906.313	[Mm-hm.]	1906.807
1421	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1910.108	People sound really nice there.	1911.558
1422	ROC_int_01	1911.693	[Mm-hm.]	1912.066
1423	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1912.024	[To] me like, people sounded educated and kind and like,	1914.674
1424		1914.835	warm.	1915.595
1426		1915.958	They always sounded like they were telling a story.	1918.122
1428		1918.556	[Sounded like-] sounded like listening to an audio book all the time.	1921.721
1429	ROC_int_01	1918.556	[Mm.]	1918.933
1430	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1922.108	And I was like, that sounds amazing. I wanna be there. Like, (laughing)	1925.05
1431	ROC_int_01	1925.442	Yeah.	1925.936
1432	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1926.345	And-	1927.035
1434		1927.761	and then- and then when I realized like, black people can be British too	1930.556
1435	ROC_int_01	1930.891	Mm-hm.	1931.288
1436	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1931.414	Like,	1931.763
1438		1932.336	it's just so, fucking awesome. [Like, when I] was really little-	1935.702
1439	ROC_int_01	1934.443	[Mm-hm.]	1935.031
1440	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1936.071	when I was really really little, I thought they were only white.	1937.833
1442		1938.331	And then I was like,	1939.459
1444		1940.042	hey, I [was like],	1941.259
1445	ROC_int_01	1940.676	[Yeah.]	1941.264
1446	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1941.796	like the first time I heard Naomi Campbell talk, I was like-	1943.803
1448		1944.532	I walk like, oh, she's English, like	1945.954
1450		1946.068	I- I don't know. And- and-	1947.508
1452		1947.798	I feel like it's more	1948.835
1454		1949.869	I feel like everything's more open there.	1951.809
1455	ROC_int_01	1951.865	Mm-hm.	1952.378
1456	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1952.425	I really do.	1953.062
1458		1953.212	Seems like it.	1953.959
1460		1954.686	I started watching British television and I realized there are so many more interracial couples, just randomly that you see. Just watching television. It's not weird.	1961.507
1462		1961.739	Why is it so weird here?	1962.821
1463	ROC_int_01	1962.905	Mm-hm.	1963.245
1464	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1963.497	Like why is it so,	1964.758
1466		1964.919	fucking weird?	1965.693
1468		1966.276	Why do we have to still even wonder	1968.634
1470		1968.97	about it?	1969.459
1471	ROC_int_01	1969.478	Mm-hm.	1969.87
1472	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1970.21	And it's- it's been like that for so long.	1972.08
1474		1972.761	Um, over there. It's just like an example. It just seems like, some of the things that we worry about here, might not be	1978.607
1476		1979.078	things that	1979.6
1478		1979.963	people worry about over there.	1981.119
1479	ROC_int_01	1981.138	Yeah.	1981.473
1480	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1982.192	[it just seems] so interesting.	1983.744
1481	ROC_int_01	1982.192	[I agree.]	1982.798
1482		1983.749	Yeah.	1984.178
1483	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1984.49	I would love to go there. And I'm in a relationship now.	1987.114
1485		1987.921	For the first time in a very long time. And I just- yeah, and I just don't know if	1991.661
1487		1992.372	he would wanna go there. But, I know I'm gonna end up there.	1995.038
1488	ROC_int_01	1995.467	Yeah.	1995.746
1489	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	1997.047	I mean hopefully he would wanna go with me,	1998.931
1491		1999.648	but	1999.886
1493		2000.59	I have to end up there. I- I honestly feel like, I'm overdue. Now I'm feeling like,	2004.773
1495		2005.905	it's a little- not too late,	2007.331
1497		2007.541	but now I feel like I'm late for something. I [almost] feel like I'm late for an appointment because like I should be somewhere else.	2012.87
1498	ROC_int_01	2009.635	[Hm.]	2009.91
1499		2012.996	Mm-hm.	2013.49
1500	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2013.467	I don't think I ever should have really,	2014.684
1501		2014.963	stayed this long [here.]	2016.782
1502	ROC_int_01	2016.39	[Mm-hm.]	2016.991
1503	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2018.86	So,	2019.219
1505		2019.574	maybe one day it'll happen.	2020.81
1506	ROC_int_01	2021.341	Yeah.	2021.695
1508		2022.53	So where do you meet the new [guy? (laughed)]	2024.613
1509	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2024.539	[Oh.]	2025.187
1510		2025.919	um,	2026.572
1512		2027.789	we- I worked at a pizza shop,	2030.306
1514		2031.383	um, over the summer.	2033.103
1516		2033.947	And he delivered pizzas there.	2035.462
1518		2036.11	And then he photographed me.	2037.177
1520		2037.994	And then,	2038.409
1522		2039.285	it was like this weird attraction. I spent so long trying to convince him just to like me.	2043.238
1524		2043.592	I had to work. And [I liked-] I liked to work.	2046.017
1525	ROC_int_01	2044.511	[<laugh>]	2045.066
1526	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2046.459	And it was just,	2047.69
1528		2048.958	he- he's younger than I am too. Which is crazy, [cause]	2051.612
1529	ROC_int_01	2051.141	[Mm-hm.]	2051.635
1530	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2052.556	that's not- I- that's not my type at all. I can't even deal with guys my [age.]	2056.165
1531	ROC_int_01	2055.95	[Mm-hm.]	2056.407
1532	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2056.398	Much less younger, but	2057.508
1533		2058.281	he never felt younger or seemed younger.	2060.384
1535		2061.106	And I just-	2061.698
1537		2062.365	We met there and we both quit. <exhale>	2064.262
1538	ROC_int_01	2064.313	[<laugh>]	2064.98
1539	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2064.747	[Cause I] think we both realized like,	2066.272
1540		2067.377	that we were exceptional individuals and we didn't belong in a	2069.772
1542		2070.029	pizza shop with racist ass people who ran this pizza shop. [And like],	2073.451
1543	ROC_int_01	2073.041	[Mm.]	2073.479
1544	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2074.989	we're like, hey, serve this slice to that black guy over there.	2077.297
1546		2078.057	And then when I quit, nobody realized that I was black.	2080.403
1547	ROC_int_01	2080.555	Mm.	2081.04
1548	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2081.441	Oh hey, did you not think that was offensive, or weird?	2085.032
1549	ROC_int_01	2085.088	Mm-hm.	2085.629
1550	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2085.89	Did you	2086.477
1552		2086.802	notice me ignoring you, or walking away when I heard you say crazy shit like that. Like,	2091.241
1554		2091.787	it was just a weird, weird, weird, wrong, setup.	2095.143
1556		2095.32	And it was like the twilight zone, but somehow we me there. Like,	2098.323
1558		2098.589	It was [literally] like a really dysfunctional business,	2101.218
1559	ROC_int_01	2098.813	[Hm.]	2099.065
1560	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2101.651	that's part of like a sitcom on TV.	2103.489
1561	ROC_int_01	2103.661	Yeah.	2104.016
1562	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2104.053	You know like the cafe that- F- that Friends was filmed at?	2106.607
1563	ROC_int_01	2106.943	Mm-hm.	2107.381
1564	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2107.376	Like what if they did a show about	2109.115
1565		2109.391	the staff of the cafe, but the	2111.144
1567		2111.395	staff of the cafe live in Upstate New York and they were just, like racist and [prejudice and] weird.	2115.927
1568	ROC_int_01	2115.08	[Hm.]	2115.489
1569		2117.05	[Yeah.]	2117.525
1570	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2117.078	[And dysfunctional], a- a- [and] like (laughing) that's what it [was.] It was like, do I live- are- er- i- every time I come to work it's like, am I in a TV show right now?	2124.668
1571	ROC_int_01	2118.635	[Yeah.]	2118.957
1573		2119.941	[Yeah.]	2120.318
1574	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2125.041	Is this real life? Like, how the fuck do I work here?	2127.61
1576		2128.179	But	2128.533
1578		2129.241	we just met in this bizarre place and then it's just kind of like developed from there. And I finally-	2133.022
1580		2134.113	After like months and months and months of trying, we finally just like	2138.01
1582		2139.144	came together.	2140.459
1584		2140.911	He finally-	2141.62
1586		2141.926	finally listened to me and like	2143.498
1588		2144.183	fell into my trap. [No, I] didn't trap him. I just	2147.754
1589	ROC_int_01	2145.815	[<laugh>]	2146.342
1590	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2148.267	for once, like in my whole life,	2149.914
1592		2150.17	I decided to try	2151.283
1594		2152.254	a whole different approach.	2153.41
1596		2153.73	And	2154.36
1598		2155.987	And to- to- just try being good.	2158.113
1599	ROC_int_01	2158.584	Mm.	2159.023
1600	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2159.017	Maybe just try being a good person.	2160.616
1601	ROC_int_01	2160.714	Mm-hm.	2161.139
1602	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2161.334	Just fucking try.	2162.174
1604		2162.915	And-	2163.563
1606		2164.202	and I realized that I wanted to. It wasn't work.	2166.145
1608		2167.143	When I look back, it was a lot of work,	2169.167
1610		2170.104	getting him to open up to me	2171.772
1612		2172.281	over all of these months, but	2173.846
1614		2174.249	kind of felt good.	2175.111
1615	ROC_int_01	2175.503	Mm-hm.	2175.974
1616	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2176.016	And I figured at this point,	2177.293
1618		2178.309	if I can't be a	2179.693
1620		2180.752	completely good person and just try this and see if it works,	2183.926
1622		2184.341	like I needed it to be like, the control in an experiment.	2187.269
1623	ROC_int_01	2187.787	[Yeah.]	2188.197
1624	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2187.792	[Like] I need to do this and see if I can do this.	2190.15
1625		2190.677	But if I can do this,	2191.623
1627		2192.262	maybe I'm not like, as much of a shit person as I think I am.	2195.363
1629		2195.861	And, and then I enjoyed it. And it felt good and it was a lot of work, but it didn't feel like work. And I think when it doesn't feel like a lot of work,	2203.591
1631		2204.85	then you do love someone.	2206.16
1632	ROC_int_01	2206.528	Mm.	2206.822
1633	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2206.835	Cause if you find yourself like, oh hell no like, why am I doing this. I'm doing too much. Like,	2211.339
1635		2211.978	w- when it comes to a person, [I don't think] you love them.	2214.327
1636	ROC_int_01	2213.213	[Mm.]	2213.67
1637		2215.568	Mm.	2215.833
1639		2217.148	Hm. And when you say good,	2218.862
1641		2219.201	what does good look like to you?	2220.803
1642	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2221.591	Um,	2222.202
1644		2223.908	just-	2224.347
1646		2225.59	Okay, when I say good, that's reductive,	2227.768
1648		2228.104	but	2228.439
1650		2228.772	i- it's also like, an umbrella word.	2231.013
1651	ROC_int_01	2231.041	Mm-hm.	2231.503
1652	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2231.894	Trying to simplify it.	2233.078
1654		2233.442	I guess	2234.024
1656		2234.822	just, um,	2235.978
1658		2236.468	I hate when people say like	2237.731
1660		2237.866	selfless.	2238.551
1662		2239.05	[I don't-] I don't think it's necessarily good to be selfless at all.	2241.704
1663	ROC_int_01	2239.067	[Mm-hm.]	2239.448
1664	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2242.468	But	2242.729
1666		2244.845	when you really feel like	2245.959
1668		2246.208	you don't want the other person to be	2248.929
1670		2249.754	I don't know like, hungry or tired, or like if they're cold and you're just like oh like here, I don't want you do be cold, cover up. Or if you know they're hungry so you decided to cook. Like,	2258.272
1672		2259.513	and I was doing all this like, was before I even thought he ever liked me.	2262.636
1674		2263.47	[But I was like], You know what,	2264.543
1675	ROC_int_01	2263.489	[Mm-hm.]	2264.011
1676	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2265.219	<ts> I'm gonna prove to you	2266.431
1678		2267.014	that	2267.368
1680		2268.841	there is one person out there	2270.706
1682		2271.508	at least one,	2272.515
1684		2273.54	which means that if there's me, there's more.	2275.769
1685	ROC_int_01	2276.062	[Mm-hm.]	2276.547
1686	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2276.319	[I] just happened to be here.	2277.275
1687		2278.04	But	2278.38
1689		2279.717	I guess when I say	2280.595
1691		2280.855	good, I decided to give what I needed.	2282.967
1693		2283.834	Without having what I need	2285.513
1695		2286.039	but giving it because I need it.	2287.377
1697		2288.356	cause in some way, it is fulfilling.	2289.932
1699		2291.339	It-	2291.631
1701		2291.826	I didn't do with the expectation that I would get it back,	2294.118
1702	ROC_int_01	2294.44	Mm.	2294.795
1703	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2295.158	but I think that's why I got it [back, eventually.] It took w- a really long time, but	2299.685
1704	ROC_int_01	2296.501	[Yeah.]	2296.786
1705	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2300.79	I think if I know what I need, or I know what I grew up without, or I haven't had.	2305.153
1707		2306.776	Not to say that the other person is deficient, everyone has different needs, but I think if you just give what you're missing, it does feel good.	2313.042
1708	ROC_int_01	2313.401	Mm.	2313.769
1709	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2314.04	Because it- I feel like it puts out into the air like,	2316.323
1711		2316.706	maybe fucking someone on this planet will give that back to you. Or just is capable of giving that back. Just cause you didn't meet anyone up until now who gave it back, doesn't mean you can't give it to someone else.	2327.261
1712	ROC_int_01	2327.586	Mm-hm.	2328.118
1713	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2328.538	So it kind of made me feel like stronger because of that.	2330.897
1714	ROC_int_01	2331.354	Yeah.	2331.755
1715	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2332.184	[And then it] worked.	2333.117
1716	ROC_int_01	2332.195	[/??/]	2332.661
1717	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2333.521	It did.	2333.987
1718	ROC_int_01	2334.113	That sounds like a really good relationship then (laughing).	2337.009
1719	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2337.34	Um, I have to say that I- it's still like, I kind of like embarked on that whole journey for selfish reasons.	2342.967
1721		2343.335	I did it for self improvement.	2344.571
1722	ROC_int_01	2344.832	Mm-hm.	2345.187
1724		2346.216	I mean- and I think that's what we all do though, at some level. <laugh>	2349.088
1725	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2349.797	Yeah.	2350.305
1727		2350.701	I mean you're right, but	2352.099
1729		2353.209	I tried to keep that goal in mind and I tried to think that even if I got my heart broken, I still kno- at least know that I can-	2358.873
1731		2359.848	I can try to be with someone without manipulation, [or riding] on the coat tails of something else, or like-	2365.806
1732	ROC_int_01	2362.92	[Mm.]	2363.405
1733		2365.966	Mm-hm.	2366.575
1734	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2369.316	Like, I think it's gonna be a- a lot easier for me. I could take advantage of a lot of situations.	2374.424
1736		2374.679	I could be a certain kind of girl I guess. But I'm just not so,	2377.937
1738		2378.505	fuck it. I just have to like,	2379.89
1740		2382.636	try things a different way. And it felt good not to be manipulative, or like,	2386.576
1742		2389.177	just get what I want, any other way, other than honesty.	2392.482
1743	ROC_int_01	2392.748	Mm-hm.	2393.312
1744	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2393.471	That feels good.	2394.207
1745	ROC_int_01	2394.43	Yeah.	2394.878
1747		2395.531	That's awesome.	2396.352
1749		2396.678	That's great <laugh>.	2398.231
1750	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2398.329	Thanks <laugh>.	2399.392
1752		2399.763	Even still if I get my heart broken, it's gonna suck,	2402.146
1754		2402.864	but	2403.228
1756		2405.05	I still have England.	2405.945
1757	ROC_int_01	2406.463	Yes.	2407.093
1758	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2407.163	I literally- I think at this point,	2409.018
1760		2411.409	I think if this doesn't work out, I'm just gonna leave.	2413.745
1761	ROC_int_01	2414.095	Mm-hm.	2414.487
1762	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2414.491	There's nothing left.	2415.634
1764		2416.571	Which sound like devastating, but it's not.	2419.26
1766		2419.955	I just literally think I'd finish up my lease,	2421.984
1768		2422.389	and	2422.618
1770		2423.056	fucking just go.	2424.039
1771	ROC_int_01	2424.416	Mm-hm.	2424.789
1772	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2424.934	And I think that's hopeful. I don't think it's	2426.739
1774		2427.256	like, oh my god I have nothing without you. Like, don't leave me. Like no, if you wanna leave,	2431.358
1776		2432.463	consider what you're walking out on,	2433.862
1778		2434.198	I hope it makes you feel like shit later.	2435.821
1779	ROC_int_01	2435.927	<laugh>	2437.116
1780	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2437.204	But, um,	2438.286
1782		2438.589	bye.	2439.166
1784		2439.362	There's like a whole- there's a whole world.	2441.34
1785	ROC_int_01	2442.496	Mm-hm.	2442.943
1786	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2443.177	So,	2443.601
1788		2444.981	I'm really hopeful, but at the same time,	2447.426
1790		2447.71	I feel like I'm	2448.528
1792		2448.722	old enough	2449.26
1794		2449.478	to not	2450.202
1796		2451.377	fall apart over it. Or if I fall apart,	2453.569
1798		2454.277	put myself back together.	2455.405
1799	ROC_int_01	2455.689	Yeah.	2456.025
1800	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2458.035	So.	2458.753
1802		2459.414	A- and it won't be-	2460.421
1804		2461.088	won't be the same. When you have to put yourself back together over and over and over again, you never do it the same way. It's impossible.	2466.398
1805	ROC_int_01	2466.589	Mm-hm.	2467.13
1806	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2467.484	the pieces don't fit anymore, but	2468.981
1808		2469.643	the- they just become something else, they just fit into something else.	2472.682
1810		2472.981	[You are] someone else, but	2474.375
1811	ROC_int_01	2472.981	[Mm-hm.]	2473.564
1812	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2475.573	it'll be okay.	2476.268
1813	ROC_int_01	2478.458	Mm-hm.	2479.088
1815		2479.587	Yeah.	2480.058
1817		2481.433	Okay,	2481.927
1819		2482.263	cool.	2482.803
1821		2483.138	Um,	2483.611
1823		2485.027	so I guess I wanna turn to asking a few more questions about	2488.744
1825		2489.215	your thoughts on Rochester. Like,	2491.671
1827		2492.263	um,	2492.906
1829		2496.155	what do you feel like are the best aspects of Rochester, or- and what	2501.481
1831		2501.645	do you think could use improvement I [guess?]	2504.552
1832	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2504.324	[Hm.] <laugh> Well-	2506.277
1833	ROC_int_01	2506.884	If there are any best for you (laughing).	2509.368
1834	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2509.396	There are. I didn't even start to like- <clears throat>	2512.142
1836		2512.524	uh, this sucks cause I have a cold.	2514.547
1838		2515.256	Um,	2515.73
1840		2515.971	I didn't even start to like the city that I lived in until I was maybe twenty-five.	2519.441
1841	ROC_int_01	2519.927	Mm.	2520.244
1842	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2520.5	And I realized that it's not completely shitty.	2522.328
1844		2523.629	And it actually is some people's goal to live here. Some people, wanna move to Rochester.	2527.452
1846		2527.955	It took me until twenty-five to realize that, cause I was like, ew what the fuck, who wants to be here. Like,	2532.552
1848		2532.738	why'd-	2533.116
1850		2533.295	what-	2533.65
1852		2533.838	no, but.	2534.897
1854		2535.787	I mean,	2536.304
1856		2537.675	um,	2538.188
1858		2538.924	has it's weird artsy,	2540.274
1860		2540.509	quirky things. And like, I fit in on that scene.	2543.162
1861	ROC_int_01	2543.358	Yeah.	2543.769
1862	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2544.16	And	2544.683
1864		2545.213	i-	2545.633
1866		2545.982	it's like,	2546.598
1868		2547.745	our whole high school was like that,	2549.316
1870		2549.629	even though like, within it there was still like- there was still like a caste system <laugh>.	2553.582
1872		2553.992	You know like, (laughing)	2554.673
1873	ROC_int_01	2554.673	Mm-hm.	2555.293
1874	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2555.442	but still, like, it was high school so of course.	2557.856
1876		2558.22	But [I feel] like there are parts of Rochester that are like	2560.892
1877	ROC_int_01	2558.519	[Right.]	2558.873
1878	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2561.33	/RD-SCHOOL-4/. Like they are artsy and quirky and weird and like different. And I do appreciate that about our city. Cause those are the people who would probably talk to me and start a conversation, like.	2569.647
1879	ROC_int_01	2569.665	Mm-hm.	2570.22
1880	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2570.351	Those are the people that	2571.414
1882		2572.174	I might find a friend	2573.387
1884		2573.576	w- within.	2574.389
1886		2575.208	And	2575.922
1888		2576.243	there are some really talented artists here. And- and the art scene obviously needs improvement, but,	2580.944
1890		2581.898	um,	2582.369
1892		2583.218	it's really, like, there are some really talented	2585.391
1894		2586.374	artists here. And I've seen beautiful art here and,	2588.561
1896		2589.451	um,	2589.913
1898		2592.956	I appreciate how affordable it is to live here.	2595.474
1899	ROC_int_01	2595.736	Mm-hm.	2596.193
1900	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2596.388	[Because] I know that it's expensive in other places. And I appreciate the fact that I can like,	2601.764
1901	ROC_int_01	2596.398	[<ts> It is.]	2597.147
1902	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2602.738	split a really nice brand new three bedroom with two other people and have my rent only be three-twenty a month.	2608.715
1903	ROC_int_01	2608.738	Mm, yeah.	2609.96
1904	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2610.23	Like,	2610.575
1906		2611.087	you know, even if it's not my own place	2613.046
1908		2613.277	and even if it's not,	2614.174
1910		2614.673	you know, me living alone, or me living with my boyfriend, like	2617.279
1912		2617.444	it's really nice.	2618.64
1914		2619.223	You can like, make a home here. And it's not expensive and in other places it's just like, oh my god. like part of the reason why I haven't left is because I've never felt like I've been able to save up enough money to be okay,	2628.729
1916		2629.968	somewhere else.	2630.752
1917	ROC_int_01	2630.752	Mm-hm.	2631.255
1918	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2631.474	Um, without being in school or	2633.032
1920		2634.365	just in any case even if I were in school, nobody wants to go somewhere and be broke. Like,	2638.202
1922		2638.636	nobody wants to do that. Like I'm done with this struggle.	2640.804
1923	ROC_int_01	2641.101	Listen. [<laugh>]	2642.654
1924	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2642.146	[I'm done with] this struggle (laughing). And it doesn't have to be a struggle.	2645.065
1925		2645.274	It really doesn't. Even if it means that you have to stay in your hometown a little longer which [is what I've] done.	2649.689
1926	ROC_int_01	2648.67	[Mm.]	2649.105
1927	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2650.659	And I- I'm starting to feel	2651.922
1929		2652.477	weird about it.	2653.279
1931		2653.987	But that's like this year,	2655.204
1933		2655.638	cause I'm twenty-six. Like,	2656.929
1935		2657.521	you might have to stay in your home town a little longer and it's okay.	2659.917
1937		2661.087	Just to make sure like, everything is in line. So,	2663.759
1939		2664.509	I have started to appreciate this city.	2666.756
1941		2668.076	And	2668.444
1943		2669.134	I think it's really great for people who	2671.866
1945		2672.906	are at a certain level of income.	2674.757
1946	ROC_int_01	2675.503	Mm.	2676.02
1947	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2676.333	I think it's terrible for people who aren't	2678.728
1949		2679.05	[sometimes.]	2679.773
1950	ROC_int_01	2679.05	[Mm.]	2679.442
1951		2680.421	And where do you think those people I guess live	2682.617
1953		2682.878	/uh/ generally? Who-	2684.267
1954	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2685.073	Um, well, when I was sixteen I lived on the East Side.	2688.258
1956		2688.649	In- in the hood. It was legitimately that.	2691.308
1958		2691.525	I hate people say it's the hood and it's like Culver Road.	2694.328
1960		2694.715	No it's not.	2695.317
1962		2695.777	You've never lived in a place where someone got shot and there are bullet holes in your- in your bedroom and people are chasing you because they want your coat and they don't have one and it's cold. Like,	2704.696
1963	ROC_int_01	2704.654	Mm-hm.	2704.941
1964	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2705.727	that is the hood to me.	2707
1965	ROC_int_01	2707.065	Yeah.	2707.391
1966	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2707.558	And [it is.]	2708.281
1967	ROC_int_01	2707.759	[Mm-hm.]	2708.267
1968	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2709.251	The hood is not somewhere with slightly broke down buildings which are now trendy.	2713.251
1970		2713.861	[I mean],	2714.533
1971	ROC_int_01	2713.861	[Yeah.]	2714.533
1972	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2714.878	that is not the hood.	2716.076
1973	ROC_int_01	2716.514	[Mm-hm.]	2716.92
1974	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2716.528	[the worst-] w- terrible things can happen to you in really beautiful places so,	2720.714
1975		2721.964	um,	2722.435
1977		2724.114	I think that	2725.232
1979		2727.227	like, places deep on the West Side and deep on the East Side are probably like in the city.	2731.345
1981		2731.903	Yes [like],	2733.059
1982	ROC_int_01	2732.411	[Mm-hm.]	2733.045
1983	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2733.894	but other than that,	2734.925
1985		2737.451	like the numbered streets. first street, second street, third street, fourth street are all terrible. [Obviously (laughing).]	2742.118
1986	ROC_int_01	2741.594	[<laugh>]	2742.074
1987	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2742.835	Um,	2743.268
1989		2743.429	Hudson.	2744.337
1991		2745.731	Even though, sometimes and I don't really have cause to drive down there anymore	2750.015
1993		2750.64	I've noticed there's a lot more art over there,	2752.314
1995		2752.705	than there was before. There are a bunch of [murals. And] like	2755.749
1996	ROC_int_01	2754.375	[That's great.]	2755.009
1997	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2756.313	huge paintings on buildings. And it just- it looks really nice and I don't know if it- that's changed anything, but at least someones bothered to like,	2763.153
1999		2763.409	to do that and I like that a lot.	2764.995
2000	ROC_int_01	2765.2	Mm-hm.	2765.862
2001	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2765.908	And it made me feel safer. And more relaxed.	2768.775
2003		2769.349	Even though there's like shit going on everywhere, like, when I was there, I was like oh this is nice.	2773.628
2004	ROC_int_01	2773.721	[Mm-hm.]	2774.192
2005	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2774.127	[Someone] cared to do this, even in a place that's considered the worst area.	2777.834
2006	ROC_int_01	2778.1	Yeah.	2778.491
2007	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2778.678	So,	2779.126
2009		2779.493	that was really nice, but I would say those areas are probably considered the worst.	2783.195
2011		2783.913	And then obviously like, the suburbs and Pittsford and Victor and	2787.596
2013		2788.346	those are the best.	2789.647
2014	ROC_int_01	2790.011	Mm-hm.	2790.711
2015	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2790.854	Um,	2791.535
2017		2793.446	I guess to people.	2794.841
2018	ROC_int_01	2795.433	Yeah. And so, I wanna ask you this question cause I've gotten it several times,	2800.211
2020		2800.785	when I was an undergrad, people asked me, they were like, is Rochester segregated?	2805.372
2022		2805.987	And I'm like,	2807.153
2024		2807.456	for me I didn't really realize it, cause I just	2810.666
2026		2811.083	grew up in it. [But] do you feel like it's segregated? or do you feel like it's kind of diverse or there are pockets of	2816.859
2027	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2811.843	[Yeah.]	2812.323
2028		2817.698	[There are pockets of-], there- there are pockets of diversity.	2821.264
2029	ROC_int_01	2817.943	[/unintelligible/]	2818.747
2030	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2821.805	But	2822.341
2032		2822.733	i- yeah. It's definitely se- segregated.	2825.568
2033	ROC_int_01	2825.587	Mm-hm.	2826.025
2034	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2826.495	And I realized that pretty early on.	2829.19
2036		2831.186	And it's, uh, not uncomfortable because I did grow up here.	2835.092
2037	ROC_int_01	2835.311	Mm-hm.	2835.717
2038	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2835.815	Doesn't have to be uncomfortable. Um,	2837.755
2040		2839.577	Unless you make it uncomfortable.	2841.129
2041	ROC_int_01	2841.367	Yeah.	2841.708
2042	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2842.253	But	2842.636
2044		2843.512	definitely	2844.417
2046		2844.989	made me-	2845.605
2048		2846.174	it- it propelled me to find a place where I was comfortable.	2848.911
2050		2849.727	And that's here.	2850.547
2051	ROC_int_01	2850.882	Mm-hm.	2851.348
2052	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2851.39	Where I see d- people that- I- I can't live somewhere where I don't see anyone who looks like me. That's-	2856.808
2054		2857.395	that would make me uncomfortable.	2858.789
2055	ROC_int_01	2859.055	Mm.	2859.367
2056	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2860.174	Like just no one.	2861.004
2057	ROC_int_01	2861.535	Mm-hm.	2862.016
2058	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2862.519	Uh, tha- that's weird. So, I- it made me decide to find where I wanted to live when I was an adult w- w- the areas that I wanted to	2870.006
2060		2870.798	make a home in. There were areas like this. Like the artsy, weird, cultural	2875.665
2062		2876.043	more cultural places like,	2877.423
2064		2878.057	yeah there's a shit ton of white people everywhere,	2879.927
2066		2880.123	there's white people everywhere, this is America, but	2882.183
2068		2882.668	at the same time like,	2883.927
2070		2884.873	there's almost equally as many people	2887.051
2072		2887.833	that are everything else.	2889.05
2073	ROC_int_01	2889.241	Mm-hm.	2889.619
2074	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2889.773	And that makes me feel like,	2891.555
2076		2891.748	I don't even have to think about oh my god I live around people who don't look like me. Oh my god. Like,	2896.109
2078		2896.878	I don't even think about it. I'd rather live in a place that	2899.037
2080		2899.427	doesn't make me think about it at all. [If I] could-	2901.708
2081	ROC_int_01	2900.85	[Mm-hm.]	2901.405
2082	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2901.927	uh, if I could just never think about it until the day I die, I'd be perfectly happy.	2906.085
2083	ROC_int_01	2906.425	Mm-hm.	2906.78
2084	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2907.223	So there are some areas that raise that comfort level for me. Although, i- i- i- if I had to stay here, I would end up-	2913.732
2086		2914.119	I would want to	2915.277
2088		2917.337	buy a home. Obviously, like	2919.639
2090		2920.451	somewhere really nice. I'd want a really nice house the architecture is- is	2924.125
2092		2924.414	better in certain areas. [Like],	2926.241
2093	ROC_int_01	2925.695	[Mm-hm.]	2926.245
2094	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2926.653	the houses look less broke down	2928.521
2096		2928.661	outside of the city. And that's the truth. It has nothing to do with like,	2931.352
2097	ROC_int_01	2931.604	Yeah.	2931.855
2098	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2931.865	the kind of people who live there. It's just	2934.024
2100		2934.565	these houses are really nice. Like there are some beautiful beautiful houses here.	2937.991
2102		2938.625	All the old mansions on East Avenue, like, [if I could live] there, ideally if I had to stay of course. I'd live there.	2943.958
2103	ROC_int_01	2940.625	[Mm-hm.]	2941.05
2104	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2944.28	But it doesn't have anything to do with who lives around there.	2946.299
2106		2946.625	Or	2946.919
2108		2947.096	the fact that I feel like the city is segregated. I think it's just like,	2950.696
2110		2952.266	just the place. I'm thinking about just the house, or just the [apartment.]	2956.093
2111	ROC_int_01	2955.436	[Mm.]	2956.098
2112	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2956.937	And that's where I would ideally want to be, but	2959.41
2114		2960.434	yeah I like this area. It's really comfortable and nice.	2962.956
2115	ROC_int_01	2963.184	[Yeah.]	2963.461
2116	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2963.205	[I feel] like it's- ju- it's like the grown up version of school kind of.	2966.5
2117	ROC_int_01	2967.496	Yeah.	2968.005
2118	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2968.317	[It is.] There's always weird club nights. And like,	2971.143
2119	ROC_int_01	2968.34	[Yeah. <laugh>]	2969.152
2120	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2973.03	ch- ch- different people coming to perform.	2975.38
2122		2975.627	Not at the Armory or Blue Cross Arena, but just like, people.	2978.803
2123	ROC_int_01	2979.077	[Mm-hm.]	2979.468
2124	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2979.338	[Just] doing stuff.	2980.056
2125	ROC_int_01	2980.639	Yeah.	2981.003
2126	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2980.989	And they're not necessarily famous, but it's fun to go watch them.	2983.922
2127	ROC_int_01	2984.34	Mm-hm.	2984.844
2128	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2985.394	So,	2985.753
2130		2986.182	yeah.	2986.578
2131	ROC_int_01	2987.974	Yeah.	2988.299
2133		2989.334	Okay, cool.	2990.411
2135		2990.853	Um,	2991.437
2137		2991.726	<ts>	2991.829
2139		2991.903	And I guess my last question would be,	2993.93
2141		2994.649	do you feel like, [um], people in Rochester, in all your travels I guess, do you feel like people in Rochester have an accent?	3002.622
2142	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	2995.732	[<clears throat>]	2996.403
2143	ROC_int_01	3003.142	[And they speak a certain way?]	3004.877
2144	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3003.147	[<ts>]	3003.268
2146		3003.72	[Um.]	3004.471
2147		3004.928	They do-	3006.06
2149		3006.228	they do because I	3007.665
2151		3007.921	determined from when I was really young, not to have one.	3010.635
2152	ROC_int_01	3010.654	Yeah. <laugh>	3011.899
2153	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3012.294	I- so I know they do.	3013.877
2155		3014.031	[<laugh>] Especially with	3015.684
2156	ROC_int_01	3014.033	[Mm-hm.]	3014.703
2157	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3016.169	being a theater major and then like, doing voice work, which I still do.	3020.084
2158	ROC_int_01	3020.262	Mm.	3020.644
2159	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3020.714	Outside of-	3021.591
2161		3022.234	of, um,	3022.939
2163		3023.721	obviously of school,	3024.998
2165		3025.203	after school I've	3026.501
2167		3026.886	done	3027.353
2169		3027.936	pretty consistent voice work over the years. And I	3030.332
2171		3030.723	took care and not I just sound like that.	3032.215
2173		3032.994	Um,	3033.473
2175		3033.651	not necessarily because I thought it was ugly,	3035.567
2177		3035.795	but because I just wanted to-	3037.446
2179		3039.115	I wanted people to remember me not because I sound like I'm from a certain place.	3043.264
2180	ROC_int_01	3043.348	Mm.	3043.676
2181	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3044.728	And then like there are these t-shirts- have you seen the t-shirts that are like, um,	3048.234
2183		3050.294	it's like Shawcross, Boss Sauce, um, something and Murder Rates and it's like a Ro- a Rochester t-shirt.	3056.35
2184	ROC_int_01	3056.471	Yeah.	3056.765
2185	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3056.77	And it really is a dope t-shirt. I kind of [wanted one.]	3059.348
2186	ROC_int_01	3058.602	[Ah, you have] to send me that. I just wanna [see what it looks like. Yeah.]	3061.954
2187	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3060.448	[It's like a picture- i- it's like-] it says like four things.	3063.768
2188	ROC_int_01	3063.949	[Mm-hm.]	3064.501
2189	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3064.043	[It says-] I'm trying to think and I can't remember.	3066.587
2190		3067.212	Um,	3067.739
2192		3068.206	yeah.	3068.653
2194		3069.535	And they rhyme.	3070.229
2196		3070.523	Like it starts off with like, Boss Sauce,	3072.587
2198		3072.844	something-	3073.52
2200		3074.956	Oh, oh, yeah, it's Boss Sauce, Garbage Plates, Shawcross	3079.219
2202		3079.693	Murder Rates.	3080.532
2203	ROC_int_01	3080.747	[Mm.]	3081.735
2204	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3081.092	[It's-] it's so dope [though (laughing). I love it.]	3083.628
2205	ROC_int_01	3082.873	[Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.]	3083.871
2206	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3084.061	And it was like the first Rochester thing. Like, I see Rochester hoodies, or like hoodies with lilacs on them and I'm like, ew.	3089.446
2207	ROC_int_01	3090.005	[Yeah. <laugh>]	3091.295
2208	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3090.132	[Like],	3090.536
2209		3091.376	fuck do I look like wearing that? Like,	3092.784
2210	ROC_int_01	3092.797	Corn Hill [/unintelligible/.]	3094.444
2211	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3093.353	[somebody's- I look like somebody's] grandma like, carrying a tote bag that says Rochester. Like, fuck that. But I saw this shirt and I was like, oh my [god I need this shirt.]	3099.936
2212	ROC_int_01	3098.9	[/Mm-hm/.]	3099.978
2213	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3100.542	Um,	3101.017
2215		3101.554	so, yeah.	3102.477
2217		3102.807	Um,	3103.287
2219		3103.889	what was I gonna say- Yeah people from Rochester do have an accent and I	3107.526
2221		3107.837	have tried so hard	3109.446
2223		3110.084	not to sound like that. [Do I sound] like that to you?	3112.145
2224	ROC_int_01	3111.25	[Hm.]	3111.619
2225		3112.947	I'm actually trying to figure out what it is to have a Rochester	3117.786
2227		3118.309	accent. So I'm not even quite sure what	3120.989
2228	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3121.404	[I- I feel like-]	3122.406
2229	ROC_int_01	3121.404	[it is. I mean people] say it's like you say things like Rochester (atypical pronunciation).	3124.882
2230		3125.283	And I'm like, okay. <laugh> But [you know], that's part of what I'm investigating.	3129.833
2231	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3127.991	[I f-]	3128.224
2232	ROC_int_01	3130.187	It's what I'm,	3130.635
2234		3131.33	[trying to say.]	3132.039
2235	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3131.418	[I hope that] when you figure it out, you think I don't [sound like a Rochester person (laughing)]	3136.159
2236	ROC_int_01	3133.954	[<laugh>]	3135.796
2237		3136.369	Yeah.	3136.789
2238	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3136.784	I feel like it's nasal.	3138.047
2239		3138.42	And I also feel like,	3139.385
2241		3139.781	a lot of people come from	3141.162
2243		3141.516	like, the city [here.]	3143.409
2244	ROC_int_01	3142.789	[Mm-hm.]	3143.367
2245	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3143.675	So they're	3144.127
2247		3144.62	a lot of people's moms are from the city [area. And then they have] kids who are [born here so they kind] of,	3149.428
2248	ROC_int_01	3146.88	[Yeah.]	3147.472
2250		3147.94	[Yeah like that. Yeah.]	3149.19
2251	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3149.689	sound like it.	3150.57
2252	ROC_int_01	3150.769	Mm-hm.	3151.068
2253	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3151.068	But it's fake, or it's like an echo of it. [It's not] really the real thing.	3155.064
2254	ROC_int_01	3153.273	[Mm.]	3153.628
2255	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3155.767	And um,	3156.569
2257		3157.273	people don't pronounce their consonants.	3159.185
2258	ROC_int_01	3159.586	Mm.	3160.22
2259	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3160.281	And people,	3161.017
2261		3161.404	put emphasis on words- on different syllables and words like,	3164.879
2263		3165.768	which makes them sound like they're from here.	3167.689
2264	ROC_int_01	3167.936	Mm.	3168.44
2266		3168.83	And so,	3169.618
2268		3170.038	uh- oh do you mean like, Chili and stuff like that, or-	3173.791
2269	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3174.121	Um,	3174.653
2271		3175.968	kind of, but like, when you think about the word Rochester,	3179.055
2273		3179.237	I say Rochester. I don't really know why, but I do.	3182.113
2275		3182.658	Maybe I trained myself to say it a long time ago, but I always hear people saying Rochester,	3187.119
2277		3187.329	or Rochester.	3188.383
2279		3188.625	Which is terrible. I don't know why anybody (laughing) would say that. But like,	3191.376
2281		3191.953	the emphasis is on different parts of it. And I feel like when it is, you can tell that somebody is	3196.822
2283		3197.181	either from here, or from somewhere very far away from here and they don't know how to say the word.	3200.83
2284	ROC_int_01	3201.054	Hm.	3201.395
2285	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3202.001	So,	3202.584
2287		3203.622	I don't know, there's definitely	3205.049
2289		3206.024	a Rochester accent and i- i- it is the worst.	3208.626
2290	ROC_int_01	3209.045	Mm-hm, [yeah.]	3209.875
2291	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3209.479	[It's terrible (laughing).]	3210.587
2292	ROC_int_01	3210.387	[Yep.] I feel like if	3211.488
2293		3211.744	some-	3212.234
2294	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3212.318	[<laugh>]	3213.339
2295	ROC_int_01	3212.35	[like if I did a] perception experiment. And like, put your voice up there, I don't think that people would automatically just be like,	3218.357
2296		3218.686	she's from Rochester, you know. I don't think /people/ like that would. <laugh>	3222.325
2297	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3222.243	I think when I get angry,	3223.693
2298	ROC_int_01	3223.711	Mm-hm.	3224.206
2299	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3224.304	I don't know, when I get angry, I end up sounding like an angry old jewish lady.	3227.516
2300	ROC_int_01	3227.93	[<laugh>]	3228.76
2301	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3227.939	[Like from] Brooklyn.	3229.338
2302		3230.108	I don't know. It comes out when I'm angry. Other than that, I think it's pretty steady.	3233.642
2303	ROC_int_01	3234.494	Mm-hm.	3235.077
2304	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3235.52	And when I'm angry and do not think at all about the way I sound and I don't [care],	3239.064
2305	misc	3238.841	[See] ya.	3239.424
2306	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3240.275	Bye are you leaving?	3241.358
2307	misc	3242.056	Huh?	3242.509
2308	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3242.616	Are you leaving?	3243.259
2309	misc	3243.563	Yeah, I'll be back tomorrow.	3244.57
2310	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3244.817	Mkay, have fun.	3245.908
2312		3247.571	Um,	3248.108
2314		3250.113	I think	3250.584
2316		3250.994	I may- I don't know, I may sound,	3253.19
2318		3253.351	uh, like I have a Rochester accent when I [get angry], I don't know if that's what it is,	3257.418
2319	ROC_int_01	3255.74	[Mm.]	3256.031
2320	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3257.735	but	3257.987
2322		3258.364	my mom grew up in the Bronx.	3259.683
2324		3260.457	And	3260.9
2326		3262.262	she spent her childhood there. And	3263.489
2328		3264.313	um, part of her formative years, so maybe that's where it comes from.	3267.763
2330		3268.332	I end up sounding like her a little bit.	3269.852
2332		3270.233	[But I tried] really hard to like have the newscaster's accent.	3272.872
2333	ROC_int_01	3270.247	[Mm-hm.]	3270.769
2334		3273.255	Yeah.	3273.53
2335	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3274.029	No matter where I go, like I don't want people to ever be able to pinpoint that. D- first of all it doesn't matter,	3280.001
2337		3280.327	and second of all,	3281.139
2339		3281.767	if I really think about it I guess it's like, unattractive to the ear.	3284.956
2341		3285.217	That's probably because I'm from here.	3286.551
2342	ROC_int_01	3286.705	[Mm-hm.]	3287.078
2343	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3286.71	[Maybe] other people like it. Maybe people think it's adorable, oh it's so cute.	3290.602
2344	ROC_int_01	3290.663	[Mm-hm.]	3291.213
2345	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3291.008	[N-] it's not. [<laugh> to me but]	3293.129
2346	ROC_int_01	3291.98	[<laugh>]	3293.101
2347	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3293.66	I don't know.	3294.289
2349		3295.045	Like I'm sure British people don't think they have sexy accents, you [know.]	3298.621
2350	ROC_int_01	3298.281	[Mm-hm.]	3298.995
2351	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3299.683	So, <laugh>.	3300.701
2352	ROC_int_01	3300.984	Yeah.	3301.281
2353	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3303.418	Yeah, so, maybe you'll find it.	3304.859
2354	ROC_int_01	3305.269	Yeah.	3305.563
2355	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3305.636	And I really hope you don't find it on this [recording (laughing).]	3308.656
2356	ROC_int_01	3307.753	[<laugh>]	3309.19
2357	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3309.199	I don't think you will [but.]	3310.784
2358	ROC_int_01	3310.304	[Yeah.]	3310.705
2359		3311.507	Well, [we'll see.] Yeah.	3312.709
2360	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3311.768	[Maybe.]	3312.15
2361		3313.026	<laugh>	3313.679
2362	ROC_int_01	3313.856	Yeah, I don't know. [<laugh>]	3315.6
2363	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3314.653	[<laugh>]	3315.325
2364	ROC_int_01	3316.481	Okay, well.	3317.484
2366		3318.191	Um, okay,	3319.371
2368		3319.627	do you have any questions for me and are you okay with me possibly using this recording	3325.143
2370		3325.618	for research purposes?	3326.961
2371	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3327.031	No, I hope you do.	3328.281
2372	ROC_int_01	3328.281	Yeah, okay.	3328.803
2373	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3328.789	I [want you to use it] for research purposes.	3331.775
2374	ROC_int_01	3329.218	[<laugh>]	3329.936
2375	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3332.63	See that's so funny. Like [I just] said research because you said research, but	3337.054
2376	ROC_int_01	3334.02	[Mm-hm.]	3334.346
2377	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3337.32	it didn't feel	3338.168
2378	ROC_int_01	3338.555	[Yeah.]	3339.241
2379	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3338.569	[natural.]	3339.25
2380	ROC_int_01	3339.688	[Mm-hm.]	3340.131
2381	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3340.02	[I] mimicked you,	3340.994
2382		3341.432	but I've always said research.	3342.998
2384		3343.217	[And I don't] know why.	3344.122
2385	ROC_int_01	3343.226	[Mm.]	3343.697
2386		3344.527	[Yeah.]	3344.905
2387	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3344.537	[Like it's] so weird. I don't know, [maybe-] maybe that's a [Rochester] thing]	3348.23
2388	ROC_int_01	3346.346	[Yeah- yeah putting stress on the] first accent.	3349.226
2389	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3349.385	Uh, [maybe] that's. I have no idea	3351.357
2390	ROC_int_01	3349.562	[Yeah.]	3349.893
2391	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3351.591	but maybe that's a-	3352.696
2392	ROC_int_01	3352.919	[I mean the first syllable, yeah.]	3354.295
2393	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3353.111	[a Rochester thing.]	3354.304
2394	ROC_int_01	3354.584	Mm-hm.	3355.102
2395	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3355.068	I don't really know if I count though, cause I really tried,	3357.553
2396		3357.973	really really hard	3358.873
2398		3359.521	to modify	3360.426
2400		3361.422	my speech before- before it became a pattern.	3364.584
2401	ROC_int_01	3364.859	Mm.	3365.335
2402	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3365.433	Before I got stuck in saying things a certain way.	3368.015
2404		3368.439	Cause I wanted to sound more educated. I did not wanna sound like my peers.	3371.81
2406		3372.524	And I wanted	3373.251
2408		3374.154	to look different in person than I sound on the phone. I wanted to surprise people.	3377.395
2410		3377.68	And I wanted to like have certain things be true despite what people would think [about the way] that I look.	3381.973
2411	ROC_int_01	3381.138	[Yeah.]	3381.465
2412	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3382.561	And like,	3382.896
2414		3383.516	I hope it worked. When I have a kid,	3385.181
2416		3386.024	I- I like I favor unisex names.	3388.083
2418		3388.324	Cause I don't want my kid to get hired	3389.712
2420		3390.235	just because they're a girl or a boy.	3391.893
2421	ROC_int_01	3392.015	Mm.	3392.322
2422	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3392.402	Or just because like,	3393.502
2424		3394.379	their name sounds like something and this is who we want to hire.	3396.729
2426		3396.975	What if my child has like an overtly black sounding name and you have to fill a quota.	3400.738
2428		3401.031	Don't hire my kid just because of that.	3402.636
2429	ROC_int_01	3402.937	[Mm-hm.]	3403.348
2430	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3403.171	[Hire] them because they're	3404.164
2431		3404.444	good at what they do. [Interview] them, listen to them. Like,	3407.591
2432	ROC_int_01	3405.684	[Mm-hm.]	3406.271
2433	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3408.043	you know.	3408.412
2435		3409.45	Or also, don't hire my kid cause you thought they were white.	3411.866
2437		3412.738	And then you're disappointed when they walk in for their interview, you know.	3416.332
2438	ROC_int_01	3416.341	Yeah.	3416.677
2439	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3417.227	So it's like,	3417.796
2441		3418.92	that was what I wanted to do by	3420.967
2443		3421.292	originally not sounding like I was from a certain place.	3424.174
2444	ROC_int_01	3424.323	Mm-hm.	3424.784
2445	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3425.013	But	3425.274
2447		3426.081	I don't know. Your whole- this seems really interesting. And [I definitely] want to see, or read, or listen to whatever you- whatever the finished product [is.]	3433.61
2448	ROC_int_01	3428.695	[Mm-hm.]	3429.064
2450		3433.2	[Okay.]	3433.633
2451		3433.767	Cool.	3434.29
2452	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3434.458	Um.	3434.915
2454		3435.511	Yeah. I guess I kind of wanna do what you're doing when I go back to school. Just not	3439.092
2456		3439.194	specifically. I can't get this specific. I don't [think I know what I want] quite yet.	3444.077
2457	ROC_int_01	3441.814	[Yeah, yeah. <laugh>]	3443.54
2458		3444.169	[Mm-hm.]	3444.775
2459	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3444.339	[But like]	3444.78
2460		3445.362	understanding why people do what they do is	3447.292
2462		3447.478	[also] why I would-	3448.826
2463	ROC_int_01	3447.502	[Mm-hm.]	3447.985
2464	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3449.591	why- what I'd wanna study if I	3451.345
2466		3451.996	went back and thought it would make me any money. [<laugh>]	3454.64
2467	ROC_int_01	3454.253	[Mm-hm.]	3454.951
2468	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3455.027	Probably won't, but I [think]	3456.807
2469	ROC_int_01	3456.673	[Hey.]	3457.125
2470	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3457.059	it's interesting. And it'll make me happy. And	3459.241
2471		3459.619	you seem like you're pretty happy and interested in [what you're] doing.	3463.102
2472	ROC_int_01	3461.973	[Yeah.]	3462.691
2473		3463.394	Yeah.	3463.963
2475		3464.15	My job's good. I don't know. Like, I guess I feel like I don't have the same day everyday. So, I like that [about it.]	3470.164
2476	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3469.446	[You shouldn't] feel like that. Or if [you] do, like I hope it's fulfilling.	3472.568
2477	ROC_int_01	3470.831	[Yeah.]	3471.092
2478	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3472.691	[But if] you don't I think that's interesting.	3474.538
2479	ROC_int_01	3472.696	[Mm-hm.]	3473.181
2480		3474.676	Yeah. For me that's important. Some people like	3476.994
2482		3477.693	the tradition. [And]	3479.125
2483	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3478.658	[Yeah.]	3479.125
2484	ROC_int_01	3479.428	you know,	3480.011
2485	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3480.104	the [habit.]	3480.608
2486	ROC_int_01	3480.416	[d-] daily routine.	3481.764
2487	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3481.781	Yeah.	3482.108
2488	ROC_int_01	3482.425	But I like being able to learn through things and	3485.844
2490		3486.411	yeah.	3486.915
2492		3487.366	Have a different experience	3488.933
2494		3489.441	everyday. So-	3490.393
2495	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3491.703	I can't wait to see what you come up with.	3493.666
2496	ROC_int_01	3493.698	Yeah thank you, [appreciate it. This has been] fun.	3497.004
2497	ROC_se0_ag1_f_03	3495.544	[Thank you.]	3496.281
2499		3496.999	It has. I'm sorry that [I like] lost my voice.	3499.033
2500	ROC_int_01	3499.215	No you're fine.	3500.139